2009 New Year Resolution.

Yes, its New Year, AGAIN. lol. check out my resolutions last year man. :D

2008 New Year resolution:
1. A one digit for O level result.
2. Let bygones be bygones. Forgive and forget. Let go.
3. Stay healthy and live happily with my family.

well, i would say, for the first one, results are not out yet, so i dont know but my hopes are not high... for third, OK la, managed to i guess? (even though im still sick now) HA. now, how bout we go for the 2009 one. :D

2009 New Year resolution:
1. Fresh start, hopefully study in JC.
2. Be good, hang out with the right friends and study hard, get good results and not drift off to playing in my CCA but continue to be a good leader.
3. Even if into poly, i must stay focus and not be ah lian anymore! show it to everyone i can do it.
4. Must not forget to appreciate those people who groomed me, take good care of me and shaped me into what i am today.
5. Continue to serve and volunteer my schools, the community, the society, the old, the helpless and the needy!
6. Last but not least, learn how to be a better listener ad advisor. Most importantly, make the people around me, SMILE. =]

everyone, have a great year ahead!

Almost Here.

i'm sick, again. no, i mean, i havent recovered. yes, sorethroat and flu for the past 3 days. then i was running a fever, on and off. ahh. i dont know what's wrong. i dont remember getting caught in the rain. maybe i'm just weak. and now, i cant taste anything. :(

anyway, my back's aching from all the work i've done at bookshop. oh wells, school's starting and there's more work to go! its ok, im getting my two weeks pay tomorrow. gonna get something and hang out with... kelvin! ha. :D i wanna go watch a movieeeee. like australia, seven pounds or bedtime stories.

friends. some times, i dont know who're they. some times, i wonder if i've any. i've many, but who're true?

Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Fall.

on the phone. yes, im multi-tasking. ok anyway, merry christmas. (: oh, and happy new year. :D

i think im sad. sigh. :( i wish i could cheer up. oh wells.

I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy, I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that's a privilege

Better In Time.

to start off with, i just met shie boon for dinner and its been so long since we met. learnt alot bout what he's doing in his life these days and im so amazed! ha, im so going to see him again for movies. ;)

anyway, having to wake up at 8am and sleeping past midnight is a torture for me, who's almost gotten used to having 12hours of sleep everyday. man, im back at the bookshop now getting ever more busy. i shall be hardworking and get my pay to buy my own sports shoes. i still owe many ppl many xmas gifts! =X

you know, im pretty looking forward to new year, and then getting back my results and new year and school to start! whoo, like shieboon said, should have treasured those school days. aint easy stepping into the society at all. hmmm, i shall also look forward to going overseas, with whoever it is, to wherever it is. yeah, havent really enjoyed this holiday. its BORING. didnt even manage to catch movies, besides the two i watched last week. and hanging out with friends? narr. they all disappeared. yeahh. oh wells. a new chapter's gonna begin, and yaye, a fresh start ahead waiting.

lastly, all the best to my little juniors for their efforts on sec1 orientation! the BBQ that day was awesome and i believe we all enjoyed it, eh? i hope to get together with your another time and must not lose contact ok? dont forget me too! ha.

till here for now. take care folks! :D

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Survive.

I don't wanna talk about it

It makes me wanna cry

I don't wanna talk about it

Everytime i pour out my emotions

I feel emptier inside

I don't know how to play it

like I'm not in love with you,

but I'll try even though I do still

I'm not gonna play myself

Everytime my cell rings

Checkin' for your name

I promise that I'll never tell you how I feel

And I know that you don't feel the same

Did you think that you could hurt me so?

I just gotta let you go

Everytime I find myself alone

Don't try to explain

Why your love's changed

Boy, you really broke my heart this time

I won't let it take away my pride

or who I have inside

Boy I'm torn between everything

How could i feel nothing

Woulda done anything

If it would mean I would make you love me

You're the one i need

But you still believe

We can never be...

And I miss you

More than air that I breathe

I need you with me I'm not gonna lie

And I can't imagine myself

Without you

but I suppose I will survive

I'll be fine

Don't worry about me

I'll be okay

1,2,3,4.

rainy.

i woke up at noon today, after freaking out by my nightmare, again. i was crying at my losuy results blah blah. same old stuff.

its a sunday and i wondered what's there to do for the day. no dates to turn up to, no books to read, no games to play and no nothing to bake. its really that bad. then i remembered i was supposed to get my proposal done since i'd be busy for the next few days. so, i spent my whole afternoon on it, leaving a little left to be completed. there's still stuff i need to fine tune and ensure that everything works. for now, im pretty tired and bored of brainstorming alone.

before i get done with this random post, i must say im so looking forward to the BBQ coming up. then go back to work. yaye, keep me occupied! alright, bout time i get off my seat and meet my lover for dinner. goodbye. take care and have a nice day. dont get drenched in the cats&dogs and fall sick like i did :D

give me more love than i've ever had,
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when im hurt so bad,
barely gettin' mad.

Last Christmas.

the quote's so interesting.

Life's been ironic. Happy at times and yet boring at others. For instance, boredom is killing me right now. You know I dont watch the TV, neither do I play the computer games. Well, after this, I'm most probably gonna watch all my movies that i rented. I aint going out 'cos I've been out the whole week already. Furthermore, might be going out for a movie tomorrow too. I need practise self-control! :D Me shall not spend so much money, after all they're hard-earned OK. Anyway I just finished my Dan Brown's Digital Fortress. Aww man, its marvellous! Lol, waiting for my next book Deception Point ;)

I worked for the past 2 days and then will continue next week. Its just so tiring standing the whole day and to survive on bread for 6hours! After getting my pay, went to Bugis yesterday with my dearest Wendy to shop and ate at the vegeterian western restaurant that those guys brought me to the other day. Good recommendation, she said. Yaye, budget! Bought like birthday cards for the December babies and only got Joy's present. Got Su's prezzie somewhere else and i hope they like it! I spent alot (of time bargaining!) HAHAHA. Oh yeah, there's BBQ next week I think. Whoo I cant wait! I get to bake Amos' cake I think. That's if everyone dared to eat them. :D:D

Some random things I want you to know! My little sister came back from her overseas trip and got me my JJLIN album Ok. Goodness, I'm so enjoying the music now. =]

Before i forget, this woman wants me to mention her name in my blog. Free advertisement for her. So here you go crazy girl, ZOEY HO.

P.S. I'm so growing fat, can someone go swimming with me?!

Once bitten and twice shy

I keep my distance

but you still catch my eye

Tell me baby

Do you recognize me

I'll Be Waiting.

GuoYi's a happy girl. For today, for now.
I just realised I havent posted anything for a week! Have been busy. Busy with sleeping, eating, reading and then sleeping again... ha. ok ok, its not THAT bad. I did step out of my house and socialize OK?

Tuesday
Rainy day. I could remember! Cos the kite flying plan was ruin. :( Then we all had to run from WestCoastPark all the way to WestCoastPlaza. Here's the thing: THERE ISNT ANY SHELTER AT ALL. So yes, all drenched for that 10min walk in rain. We also watched the not-so-like-sunset sunset. Overall, pretty sure all of us from the clique had fun just hanging out and wasting some time eating and making noise. ((:

Wednesday
Hung out with Ms Su at IMM at night I think. Celebrated her advanced birthday! See, im so nice (even though I forgot her present, heh).

Thursday & Friday
Nuts. Totally. Its just been so ever fun helping out at the YOGLC. Bet you're wondering what's that. I'm just gonna say it ONCE. YOUTH OLYMPICS GAMES LEARNING CENTRE. Yes, back to point. Its volunteer work. I attended the training that taught me how to be a better leader. Cos im gonna be the first badge of people to come out with programmes for this LC yeah. COOL man. Its my stuff, i like. I so didnt regret going because im alone. Instead, im grateful for being able to be the youngest cos I've the priviledge of everyone watching after me. and and and, its been nice making friends with people from RJC and TP. Oh, the best thing is, I've a new friend. He's 70 years old. :D You know, we did crazy stuff like giving away a free bottle of mineral water in the middle of the day on the streets of Tanglin road. That's gotta me one of the coolest things I've done.
Mr Tan, if you're reading this. THANK YOU SOO MUCH. ;)

Let's skip my so very boring Saturday and go straight to my Sunday today.
As you can see up in the photos there, I went pretty mad baking. All sorts of shapes and size, all kinds of patterns you see up there, done by me! Im so proud of it because everyone says it was nice this time round so... I actually have plans to sell them away! yaye. That's why I'm having sucha good day. You know, i've been eating so much these days, goodness me! argh, better do something bout it SOON... lol.

P.S. Hope the cheery side of me stays on! =]

He broke your heart
He took your soul
You're hurt inside
Because there's a hole
You need some time
To be alone
Then you will find
What you always know

Walk Away.

I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
I guess I'd call it show of affection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
In the back of my mind I can't help but question

I guess I have to live my life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
I know I tell myself not to be afraid to move on
But it seems I can't
Though my new man is giving me attention
But it ain't the same as your affection
I know that I should be content
In the back of my mind I can't help but question

Because Of You.

whoo! i'm a happy girl. :D

all thanks to xavier, kelvin and alex! i must admit, they really made me day. really they did do an awesome job, no joke! as you know, to hang out with two uber lame lamers, i cant help but laugh till my stomach feel like puking the food we've had during dinner. by the way, talking bout dinner, xavier brought us to this western vegeterian restaurant at bugis that was really good and budget! i like... :D

after that, we sat there, chatted, went shop a little at bugis junction and then walk around at bugis street to get my belt. these guys, seriously, they're gentlemen! nice, cos i havent really met any this kinda of guys who's willing to waste their time with me shopping bout. cool man. then we walked to raffles city and continued our crap... surprisingly the place were crowded with people on a weekday night.

oh, before i forget, we celebrated alex's belated birthday today! we got him a cake and we 'drank' outside 7/11. (: we simply talked bout anything under the moon. well, i guess half the time, i didnt quite understand them. afterall, they're so called ADULTS (to me).

train-ed back with alex to clementi before meeting my mom for supper. oh my, i think i grew fat. all the oily food late at night during the holidays. I CANT AFFORD THIS. lol. after shopping at NTUC, headed home and missed my 10pm show. sadded. :(

anyway... if the 3 men are ever reading this, thanks guys! really thanks... i was having a bad week. bad bad one. and even half way through the day today, i picked up this irritating call that i thought was gonna spoil my mood by the dinner with your. nope, luckily, i forgot all bout it when i'm with your. hope to hang out soon again!

P.S. next week i'll be getting back to work! must keep myself occupied with planning the genting trip and reading my books for this weekend so i wont think so much anymore. i'm so gonna finish reading DANBROWN'S collection. they rock. so good ok. i highly recommend!! goodnight for now, im dead beat.

Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

Gone.

bad day. i dont know. at least it feels like one. maybe i havent taken medicine. that's why i'm having mood swings. maybe. yeah, maybe.

i went to west coast park alone today to take a walk! i was bored... when i'm free, nobody's there. and when i've all the work piling up waiting for me to do, everyone asks me out. sucked. totally. you know, i kinda did some self-reflection there. but things didnt turn out any better. i got nowhere. i guess i better stop thinking, cos it aint helping me. it would probably just make things worse.

mahjong-ed and wii-ed with MunYee, WeiSheng and Daryl yesterday! pretty fun. cos we made pancakes. i hope we go out and fly kite soon. :D

been rather down these days. if i sad its the monthly thing, its all but an excuse. LIAR. yes i am. i dont know why. i may be too free to let my thoughts run wild. i should just keep myself busy with reading even though my speed is already like a book a day. ya, besides that, its all TV then. my my, help. i need work. work work work. I THINK I NEED TO DO MATHS, what do you think?

So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

What Hurts The Most.

prom was great. cos i get to see my friends. prom was boring. cos the games all crap. (EVEN THOUGH I WON THIS GAP T-SHIRT IN THE LUCKY DRAW) well, everyone looked pretty and im sure all of us went crazy and high. they hung out late but i left and headed home cos there was work next morning.

i love Fridays. its pay day. my first salary today! sense of achievement. :D its hard-earned ok! after getting snapped by rubber bands and being cut by all the new books, finally, i got some money to show it to my mom. lol. gonna treat her to something tonight i guess. 6h a day, its not a lot but still. im learning! learning to take hardship. AND its still money ok! better than i stay at home, watch tv and raise the electric bill... my boss is nice. so i would definitely continue! oh anyway, no work next week. so, ASK ME OUT anyone? HAHAHA

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends
& I’m alone

Dedicated to my Best Friend.

Ho Mun Yee. Melissa is the name that her grandma gave her. But for us, we sometimes tease her as 'money'. For four years of my secondary school life in New Town Secondary, I'm so thankful i have her to go through all the ups and downs with me.
Secondary one. We met during orientation. we had a clique then.
Secondary two. The clique shrank in size. I'm glad our friendship remained strong in the storms.
Secondary three. Left with just both of us. Just both of us among all the other girls survived to go to 3/2. We attended the Advanced Elective Module(AEM) at Singapore Polytechnic together. We were crazy, weren't we MunYee?
Secondary four. Even though we didn't get to sit with each other in class, its fine. We're still us. We stayed the same. I like her being shy, and she likes me being humourous.

here's for my dearest sister. :D