big girls dont cry.






wonder what things will turn out to be like after one month...
i choose to believe that there wall be a rainbow after the storm.
time is testing us, the wind is blowing us apart.
while in some way i kinda regretted, i think we ought to give each other some space for now.
i know we can do it.


boy, remember that there wont be any retest anymore.





guoyi, you gotta change.

I didn't do well for math test again. Yes, again. Miss Ang said I was distracted. Well, perhaps I am. I just can't get into the mood to study, why? This is really irritating me. I don't know, I'm just lazy. Can't imagine if I still don't do well in tomorrow's math test.

Feel like grounding myself. I mean, I didn't really go anywhere after school besides visiting Poornima today, it still feels like as if I'm procrastinating. You know, I think I've a serious problem. Something's up with my attitude these days. I should stop owing teachers homework. GuoYi, be a good girl and stop lazing around!!

Its a Monday again, beginning of another week. Hey, its already the... 9th week? I just can't accept the fact that I'm actually gonna take O levels in another couple of months. I'm like so NOT READY. Furtheremore, people's been looking down on me. Okay, honestly, I'm just referring to my Dad. For a while, I wanna prove to him I can do it but then again, maybe he's right, maybe I don't have the ability to do so.

Now I get it, why life at 16 ain't fun at all. Stressed up and lost, confused and helpless. :(
Alright, I seem so negative. I guess i should try to think on the brighter side. Should enjoy teenage life now, right?

Was just thinking back. Used to write the tiniest thing that happened everyday in my life and my posts will usually be one page long. Now? I'm like so general, 'cos small little things have become so unimportant already. No one really cares anyway. Oh ya, one thing that haven't changed throughout the 4years in my blogs: its always so EMO. hahahah

"this is all i ask for."


HEY, SINGPAPORE WON OKAY. yes, she did it. 2010 Asia Summer Youth Olympics Games, we're hosting it. AHHHHHHH, 30months from now, in August, we'll see athletes and athletes opposite our school in that olympics village. SO COOL. hahah, yet again, im sooooo looking forward. (:
went down to join in the counting down of the live result from Switzerland yesterday, 7pm at Padang. goodness, its crazy, the people, the whole atmosphere, its like as if its national day! everyone INCLUDING ME is in red. its really an unforgettable experience.
Ms Peh told me her 'friend' wanted to interview me since HE is a reporter from the Straits Times. so scary! hahah. so guys, go check up Home, page 25 and you'll see that article with my name. (SO FUNNY CAN, MENTIONING ALL ABOUT MY PHYSICS TEST TODAY WHICH I LEFT 2QUESTIONS BLANK)

West Coast Park! watched the sunset there. yeah, relaxed a little even though somethings remained on my mind.
-thank you for bringing me there.

my favourite character: Chun Li! (the act dao; so cool face)

my eyes are burning red hot manzx. its like so dried and i don't know whats wrong with it. probably didn't sleep well i guess. I NEED EYE-MO. hehe.

oh by the way, the host for 2010 Youth Olympics Games result will be out this Thursday at 6pm!! ahh, I'm so looking forward to knowing the result. i BELIEVE that Singapore will win, win Moscow! i don't know why but for once I'm so enthusiastic and patriotic ok. LALA.

i hope i can be the emcee for commendation day! I'm so excited maybe because it sounded fun and challenging. I've always wanted to overcome my stage fright and seems like this is the best chance. furthermore, i think this opportunity is so hard to come by, its my last year in New Town! well, it will reflect good in my testimonial, oh, good for my English too :D

guess what Mr. Tan told me this morning. *faints* he actually said, "i think i need you to talk to the school bout the importance of the National Anthem.". ~HELP
look, its talking to the school.
ABOUT SOMETHING SO BORING(in the point of view of a student that is)
... ... i hope i don't get hated for it... ...

there's maths test tomorrow, oh no. argh :(
wait, there's health check-up too. wow.
i think this post is so random, what do you think?


a home that is not like a home.
a home that lost its meaning.
family, tell me what is it.

some ppl are just weird

im sooooooooo lazy to blog. HAHA.
guess what? its a saturday, HURRAY! LALALA. had such a good night, a good sleep after a long week. i had more than 12hours of sleep ytd ok! (so pig, argh) ya and this morning i wake up at 7 USUALLY, thinking that there was school but in the end, i realised after 10min that it was a saturday. HOW DUMB CAN I GET. HAHA, its ok, its still the same, i still have so much homework to catch up with. TESTS TEST. :/

school's beginning to lost its meaning to me. no, i dont mean studying. studying aint that bad, i wont treat it like a chore cos i study for myself. its more like knowing the fact that im growing older, stepping slowly into the society, seeing how ppl can be like. those ppl whom i once called friends arent friends at all to me now. all the lying and backstabbing, all the faking and insulting, eeew, what's going on?

forget it... anyway, lots of SL events coming up! so excited. hahaha. e.g. the carnival next sunday & FUN concert. i just cant wait! oh, what else? i think mrs ang's gonna continue the S'pore Discovery Center's camp. AHHHH, well, i guess by then i cant get involved bcos of my Os alr. LALA, SOBSXC. wait, most importantly... there was this super good news.(at least for me) Mr Tan S.P. said we're collaborating with my pri sch, NHPS for the Take The Citywalk event or something liddat im not so sure yet. wheeeeeeeee, that's like a 'WOW' to me, finally its time i can pay back, return and show them what i've learned and been taught in my 1st 6yrs of education there. im sooo looking forward. im so glad, i didnt regret being a SL. :D lala





the candle WAS flickering, but i'll ensure i wont let it go off.
oh, and once again, miracle happened.
so thankful.

seriously, i cant get you outta my mind.

JUST SPENT SO MUCH OF MY MONEY. ON USELESS TIHNGS. DONT KNOW WHAT IS IT FOR TOO. CANT BELIEVE IT. OH MY, MY POOR RED PACKETS.
gone.

procrastination got the better of me. homework is finding its way to my table. tests are all coming! i wish i have 48 hours a day. may be not, i dont wanna die of over working. hahaha. been slacking.. so distracted.. so frustrated.. so lonely.. so depressed..

ANYWAY, URGENTLY LOOKING FOR CHEMISTRY TUITION. anyone? (:
i dont care, i MUST, i've no choice, i NEED to do well for Os.

am i irritating? felt like as if everything i say is wrong, offending someone everytime. perhaps i should just SHUT UP.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL THE PEEPS. hahaha. finally, the holiday im waiting for is here. YAY, and i had 12 hours of sleep last night, WELL DONE. feeling a little energised now, off to a movie later i think. I WANNA DO MY WORK(especially my math)! hehe.

ytd met up with edmund, valentino, daryl, yanwah, yvonne, nicholas, grace, mathias and bryan after the NTSS cny celebration! wanted to go back nhps meet mdm wong, BUT SHE'S NOT AROUND. and they all alr went to visit her cos they pon sch? tskk. LALA, everyone changed again, ESPECIALLY REFERRING TO VALENTINO. ehehe, cool hair. went to eat for awhile, and then they came to my place to disturb me! haha, we played the 'drinking game' for soooooooo long and then some of them left while we played mahjong. it can be quite fun to hang out with them. what surprises me most ytd was when my mom told me to hang out more with them cos she claimed that they looked more decent than my sec sch friends. LOL, maybe looks can be deceiving, maybe she forgot her specs! haha :D






HAPPY BIRTHDAY melissa ho munyee a.k.a. HE MIN ER. ((:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HABIB
HAPPY BIRTHDAY zoeyyy
HAPPY BIRTHDAY my mom
HAPPY BIRTHDAY mother earth.

SHOPPINGGGGG.
yes, on a shopping spree. nono, its more like 'WINDOW SHOPPING'. hahah, cos everything i see, it has to go through my dear mom first, which will probably(90% chances) end up being not bought becos my mom will always have her way to argue with me, not convincing me to buy it, but actually insist that WE DONT BUY IT. hahaha. oh whateva, i've gotten used to it. (: WHEEEEEEE

i sounded more cheerful have i? hmmm, maybe cos i havent been doing any work that's why! been lazing around all day long, IM BECOMING LIKE THE 4-LEGGED ANIMAL. :X


she looked into the mirror. she tells herself that she's gonna deceive everyone, including the one inside the mirror. she hates being fake but she doesnt really have a choice anymore. in this real world, nobody is really real afterall.

sometimes i really wonder if im appreciated... it really hurts. when you have the heart, sincerely to do things for someone you love, your close ones, they just scream at you, hoping that you just get out of their sight. is it cos they're in a bad mood, or is it purely im irritating? does kindness begets kindness or one should be selfish to survive in today's society? is it worth it to do some much things for others when it wont be reciprocal? ouch. all these questions racing through my brain, who would give me an answer? who would tell me, hey, i care.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHMAD LUTFI. :D (that's if you're reading, LOL)

im sorrie i cant look into those eyes for i know if i did, i would have cried on the spot, right in front of you.

IM BACK PPL, (with a new blogskin!) hahahaha.
im bored and its the weekend!
anyway, im so looking forward to cny not cos of the angbao's but more like a couple days of break for me to recharge. i've quite tired, after falling very ill the past two days. saturdays and sundays will be no better since i need to finish up all the homework and study all the test before cny. its just crazy. futhermore, i still had to get over some stuff that upset me quite badly. it really hasnt been a great week you know. argh, whateva, im back to reading my novel now. TRALALA

i cant believe i just walked away, leaving farther and farther away from you, watching you doing nothing, just standing there and let me be.