PROM 19November2008 Orchard Parade hotel

now you know who's my date eh? ;)

Habib. yeah.that's ikhwan.

random candid

that's them, without smiling.

4E2'o8 (not all there though)

IAN LOH WEI YANG

Jeslin

Syah :]

Pamelaaaa

Higher Mother Tongue: Zhao Peng Xiang.

they said, 'let's pose for Miss Universe.'

third from left, Mrs Alison Cheong.

SEXY see

sweetie CHIN

brothers for life, i supposed?

see that? so colourful!

that was candid. seriously

my primary school classmate, Wei-feng!

SUBHAS NAIR

Wong Kah Heng

PROM KING, Jedsada's posing with me!

Khabir.

that's two DARYLs

hey, the second photo i ever took with him. :D

Chia Yong Siang, Bryan. ((:

discipline master, Mr John Lim

see Mdm Neo next to me?

hot Andrew!

now that's a family photo.

best of friends forever, Timothy.

the e2/1 clique.

Shiva, my love guru!

Yoges, my money-faced brother.

Darren, my super brother!

Olivia Kim Young Ah

that's me.

Home.

I am back. yes. with mixed feelings.

how bout a summary of the 3days each?

after chem paper. i rushed down to join them. was surprised to see that not all of them turned up. well, the rest of them made the right choice. im sure they had fun in camp. after that, met up with ms su and join in the photographing. i watched them play games but i cant myself! how sad. lol. then i taught my dearest sec1s some magic tricks. there i got to know 4new juniors. i mean, they know me through orientation but unfortunately, i dont remember them! ha. followed which, it was raining heavily and so there was indoor activities. i went MIA for a two hours cos i went to help stall 2 auntie with cooking! :D settled down, and slept at 1.30am.

woke up at half past 6. wash up and then there wasnt much activity. there was mass games but i didnt catch. ha. was chatting with the guys in room. after that, when night fall, there's this super interesting game that Amos came out with. i was a station master and had to sit alone outside the 3rd floor block E toilet. FOR ONCE I FIND MYSELF SO BRAVE OK. i just sat there enjoying the moon and some songs. went to 'sleep'. cos raymond, zoey and i planned to meet up. but the mentors just refused to sleep. lol, so we cancelled it. in the end, i talked to Joy for hours and slept at past 2am. had only 4hours of sleep then.

last day. there was the group photo taking! after breakfast when everyone left, the guys played basketball and soccer. i joined them after i've packed my bag while the twins and bettina left to do the photo montage. we slacked like crazy. cos the whole school seemed to be left with us only. followed which when the returned, lunch was served. the leftovers were brought to the office for Mdm Neo and the other staff. She praised me and Mr Tan was proud of me. that's really nice to hear and i feel so motivated now. :D ok, back there, all good things must come to an end so we break camp and the rest of them are still gonna meet up to prepare for next year's orientation. good luck to your and please feel free to approach me if your need to know anything ok?

I met many new friends through this camp like Alex, Xavier, Klevin and JunTai. They're sweet and funny people, especially my log head, the lamest one. :D the first3 sure know how to give me nicknames. for now, to them, im also known as. BREAD. anyway, this time working under the log team, (even though i thought it was supposed to be xiong) the guys helped alot to settle everything so twins and i were rather bored most of the times. haha. but but but, i still learnt many new things! like... you still get to take a nap in camps once in awhile. oh, the thing i learnt best is... JOKES. from everyone there. lol. alright, besides that, i really got to know these guys better.
for example: 1. thought Xavier was super DAO. but it actually turned out that he's the most talkative one! yeahh, do not judge the book by its cover, heh. 2. Klevin and I shared our stories, poured out everything to each other and we listened to what each other had gone through. that's totally something i didnt expect to do with a stranger? haha, maybe not, you can call us good friends now. :D 3. JunTai isnt from log team but i knew him through teaching him the magic tricks. he just became my little godbro and he really touched me! cos... he said i inspired him through orientation, awwww

oh and before i end this long post, here's going out to everyone who's worrying bout me especially my dear Joy, Alex, JunTai, MunYee, my group of gfs, and many others.
i know your're reading this! haha, i came back and thought about it. i felt much better now. like so refreshed. i'll really be looking forward to the future now. there's so many things waiting for me like prom night, to go to work and receiving results... so many things to learn from. i wont stress myself anymore! for now, holidays are to be enjoyed and i'll do so. im learning to take a step at a time and not rush into adulthood. thank you guys for all the support! GuoYi shall continue working hard and be who i am, be who i want to be. ((:

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.

Miss You More.

laugh out loud, SAY GOODBYE TO STUDYING ALREADY LA. :D

i just came home. from a brisk walk. lol. was too lazy to wait for a bus after dinner with wendy. so thought my excuse would do me some exercise. it was good. got the company of the moonlight and some really nice music over my phone. it was eerie but the wind was cold. nice feeling. OK, that's what you called, solitary, definitely aint no loneliness.

talking bout music in the phone makes me mad. I STILL CANT UPLOAD MY PHOTOS. i figured out my memory card probably caught some virus. oh no, what should i do now. i'll bear with it FOR NOW. or who wants to upgrade it to a 2G memory? ahh, i should just send it for repair, that's if it can even be fixed.

cos why? cos i'm going camp ok! like tomorrow. heh. im smart. i dont have to study anymore. whee. excited, even though it would be not as fun being logistics. oh well. so miss me! wont be blogging till i'm back and sleep till all i want. i simply miss camps. especially with hafizah, karthik, xiangrui, eugene, Zoey, Raymond and gang. a pity many of them, for some reasons or another, arent joining us anymore. sadd! i missed last year's camp so much. where i met crazy ppl like Joy and like awesome tricks from nigel. oh my oh my. how will i forget these people and these wonderful memories. ha. its always like a big family when i'm with all of them. sweet. yeah, i remembered how everyone figured out my dirty little secret last camp too. lol.

OK, i'm still in my uniform so perhaps i need to... showerrrrrrrrrrrrr

thank you for calling me late last night; pretty much appreciated. that's all i've gotta say.

And thinking about it I want things back how they used to be
There is no way round it, nothing good comes easily
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong

When You're Gone.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you

i sure know how to make people worry. lol. its OK peeps. ha. i can manage, oh well, at least i THINK i can.
anyway... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST, T.S.B.. heh, guess who? TANSHIEBOON :D:D
oh, its 1am in the morning. will go watch some tv. and then... TIME FOR BED. i cant sleep currently thanks to my over active brain after doing some freaking physics question for more than 2hours? and the thing is i barely completed like 50questions? how amazing. ok, its a bit late i know but i realized i should be working on chemistry instead. RIGHT, I'LL START TOMORROW, ok i'll.

one last time. really. the very last time. im sorrie i didnt answer your call. it just so happened that i didnt hear the ringtone (even though i thought it was on loud), so ya, i could miss your call when there my phone is lying right next to me. you call it fate? you say its a good thing? maybe it is. cos some times knowing the truth hurts. like, i wouldnt wanna hear you and your rubbish excuses. its better to leave me now, having a better impression bout you?
probably not. will still be waiting for your call. so well, guess i still wont be able to sleep tonight. ha, lol.

Love Story.

i promise this is the last time i'm ever gonna talk bout it.
my heart says its getting tired and numb. stop hoping, cos all my dreams are shattered. so maybe i should listen. i am angry, i really am. angry at myself. for being so silly. for believing in miracles. ha. only a fairytale will have a happy ending. not in reality.
thanks everyone for all the support.

I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-

Just Go.

i feel like crying. i cant upload my photos anymore. its probably cos my itchy hands did something to the phone and they all went missing now. ahhhhhh, help.
anyway, my mother tongue paper came and went by very quickly. i thought the paper was difficult but i managed to do it. I JUST WANNA PASS, hopefully a B.
nobody really talked bout it already cos everyone's in the holiday mood to celebrate straight after paper. ha. for the girls and i. OFF WE GO, shopping! for two full days. good job man. i had SOOOOOOO much 'exercise' walking bout in town. lol. but oh well, it was fruitful. i really got something i like alot. LALALA WHEE, happy me.
today, i promised mom i'ld stay at home to mug. paper 1's important too ok. shall let it be the one that pull my overall up. and i'll out tmr again with her to check out some shoes. I WANNA GO SWIMMING AGAIN SOON to tan myself. argh. i got to go prepare for camp stuff too. good luck to me babyyy.

still nothing. no nothing.
i picked up my phone, dialled your number and was about to press the call button. then i would ask myself, 'girl, are you being desperate or something? do you really need to do this?'
once or twice my diginity would stop me. but i guess you cant really stop me from texting you. the thing i really dont get it, i dont understand is, are you really that busy that you dont even remember my existence? must you be like that? you liar. can you at least tell me why you're doing this. is it really that easy to ignore? am i that irritating? is this the ending you really want it to be? all this shit, omg i've had enough. are you a coward or what?
b, dont give me excuses anymore. i'm ready to face what you're going to tell me.

I trusted you
Yeah that would be my first mistake

Takin' a look at these photographs
Fightin' my tears I try to relax
'Cause you came and you left and it all went by so fast

What About Now?

we said we would walk till the very end, right?

today, SS. one word. wait, how bout two separate ones. expected. AND, unfinished. lol, that's bout it. SBQ was rather difficult to me. all i can do now is to pray hard that it doesnt pull my geo down. PLEASEEEEEEE. please please please. oh no. there's chinese and then MCQ left. all the way till the very end manzx

just came home from the camp meeting! everything's getting so cool. i cant wait, i just cant wait! i got to meet three new friends in fact already. and definitely, looking forward to work with them.
so, now i'm considering, should i just stay overnight in school to do my chem paper the next day morning and straight head for camp after that? *think think think* i'm thinking.

time flies like nobody business, boy what happened to all the promises you've made? ok, even if you dont call them promises, then what about returning me my messages, my calls. at least tell me i'm annoying, and i swear i wont disturb you anymore.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life, I am yours.

I Still...

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last

i think i'm pms-ing. :(
i cant concentrate. and there's still so much more left to memorize for SS. :(
help. :(
lacked of sleep. :( INSONMIA
slept so late last night. almost 2am. was watching Armageddon. so touching ok? was like crying away la. omg. haha. it was hell 3hrs long man. while that was playing over channel 5, my sisters wanted to watch channel 8. stupid show. LOL
so as you can tell, i've been like watching tv all day long ytd. or maybe just last night. i tried to study in the afternoon, too tired. sigh. what to do what to do. SBQ sux

& when i'm missing you, are you even missing me?

Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go