hey guys. boo. im leaving soon, so miss me kayy? suddenly i feel sadd, a little left out, cos since i smsed so many ppl and no one replied... sigh, oh well, GUOYI, time to wake up and face the fact! the world's like that, filled with loads of hypocrite, get it? haha. maybe going away for some time can make me feel better too! hehe.

today played with nanyang girls, oh, tough fight i would say, so close... it was 11-13, by 2 runs only! gosh. what to do? sigh. BUCK UP NEWTOWN!! though i didnt play, i felt happy for my team, and being the scorer, i hate myself for being always so blur. sigh. i wanna play the next time round! WORK HARD TO ACHIEVE MY GOALS. coach was right! so right i guess. if we dont even think we can win them, why bother playing? have confidence in every game, and tell yourself they are nothing for if they are good, we will be better. and if they are better, we are the best and if they are the best, we will still be the final standing winner cos we are the number one, THEY CANT BEAT US. haha. what a mind set, he's really great. (: boost lotsa my confidence and made me think through things. (:
suddenly i feel like hating samantha again. haha. im sorry but i just thought she was a betrayer. she supported nanyang when she came down to newtown to be spectator. HOW "LOYAL". lol.

went with szelei and pearline to makan again. been quite close to szelei recently since we always go around eating, and got some ppl backstabbed me by saying bout me hanging out with her and i really hate it. sigh, again, hypocrite. its okay, nvm. back to the eating, szelei and i are like going around singapore on a cab always no matter rain or shine! and then finally i managed to drag her to the coffeeshop near pearline's and my place to eat bee hoon! enjoyed ourselves... ((;


suddenly i feel depress again upon hearing those sad songs sang by jay. wondering whyy? no, not bcos of daryl... probably bcos of a dream just now? it wasnt a dream. it was more like... a flashback... when i was fast asleep after a tiring traiinng.
i rmb... i had to pass the message from her to him so that they could be together...
i rmb... i had to tell him that she said YES to his QUESTION...
i rmb... i was just like a match-maker...
i rmb... i was the third party...
i rmb... i was being nice but in the end i felt so hurt...
i rmb... they were my friends... and couldnt bear to not help...
i rmb... i just seem to rmb that day soooo clearly...
but after remembering all these things... i still had some doubts... like:
i couldn't really rmb... if i really liked him anymore...
i couldn't really rmb... if they were truly my friends...
i couldn't really rmb... how it felt like being hurt by two of your friends...
i couldn't really rmb... how everything really went so smoothly through me...
i guess it's probably not that i couldn't rmb them, it's just that i choose not to. maybe, doing all these to them, and not getting any 'thanks' in return, i dont mind. afterall, they could have simply find someone else to help them, and then they trusted me since i was their friend. at least after doing this sacrifice, can make two ppl happy instead of three of us being down. so i knew i was right to have back off and didnt start a war. i was a good girl though things have became complicated. i dont wanna bring things up anymore, for she's still been hidden in the dark, and maybe... never ever find out some truth, just like me, i may never know what's gonna happen to them or to myself, cos' i never look forward to.



HEY GUOYI, DONT BE UNHAPPY. RMB WHAT YOU'VE PROMISED YOURSELF? NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN THE FUTURE, NOTHING'S GONNA BEAT YOU DOWN, FOR YOU'RE THE STRONG & CHEERFUL GUOYI EVERYONE KNOWS, AND NO LONGER THAT TEARFUL & MOODY GUOYI IN THE PAST. THIS IS ME NOW, I'VE COME BACK ALIVE, SAFE & SOUND. xD