yeahh, maybe im depressed, deep deep inside, but yet again, maybe.


good, okay.
someday - nickelback


suddenly its so quiet and its making me feel uncomfortable. i dont quite like the silence. its not exactly scary. its more like making me feel lonely. its my weak point. fear of being alone.

ups and downs in life taught me how to grow. grow through the pain and the bad memories. also to grow and learn new things, make new friends, and lead a worthful life. while walking down this path, i do look back once in a while. smile at how silly i used to be and cry when i knew that i cant change the fact. even though there are times when i really hate to let go and move on, i've learnt that its part and parcel of life. no point clinging on to something that's not coming back. i promise to grow stronger each time i get hurt and i did it. i have. i knew it. i overcame it. i dont wanna be the coward who always hide inside the shell like a tortoise. i'll there when you need me... despite knowing that it may not be reciprocal. its okay, i just wanna be someone there to ans your call, to cheer you up when you're feeling low, let you scream at or let a shoulder or a hand. but will you be there to share your joy too?



so what if we were best friends? that has already become a past tense.
you just dont know how much it hurts me, baby.

& i hope it'll be a happy ending this time round...


freezing, heavy.
what hurts the most - rascal flatts


been blogging with long intervals in between now. its either i studied too much, or i have grown lazier.

school was pretty short today, and there's supposed to be training but i visited the doctor and got two days of MC. i think i needa send him to the IMH. he didnt really gimme any medication but instead claim that im simply too stressed up and i need more exercise. first word that came to my mind: JOKE. well, what an interesting doctor i have visited...

nothing much happened these days. its just school, then back home or else softball. what else? studying, slacking and sleeping. my favourite 3S. haha. ohh, yeah, and i also picked up a pastime - BLUSHING. okay, ask around, i've been blushing pratically almost everyday. no wonder so heaty. no wonder i'll feel GONG GONG. so guys, STOP BULLYING/TEASING me. my blood needs to flow, furthermore, IM BORN WEAK, dont let me suffer anymore heart attack/shock.


so many things to say, yet so little time.
so many feelings to express, yet none can understand.
sometimes its rather funny how you see you exbfs become the best of friends..., yeah?

munyee, i know you want these: (:








dark clouds everywhere, pissed?
crazy - simple man


and this song is really driving me crazy, resounding in my heart. okay, i know its quite easy but just imagine me in that voice! omg, i sound so out of tune la... yuck


i really need a check up... kept blushing at the wrong time for the past week... at times when i shouldnt... at times it make me so awkward. i thought you would only blush when you're embarrassed but i blushed to embarrass myself... hmm, probably im heaty and my blood is climbing upstairs. haha. what to do? he's the only guy whom i'll keep turning into a strawberry or a tomato, perhaps an apple for. i know you wont believe it until you see it. its instant! just ask munyee how it goes like... its EVERYTIME. haha. i didnt believe it too... till it happened consecutively straight for 5 times in a row, i cant help it, im sorrie.
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO SURVIVE THIS

unhappy things happened past two days. i mean, i find them quite unpleasant... well, kept hearing things i dont wanna hear... and then finding out truths that hurt me a little and is gonna make me hurt someone alot more. how? someone teach me... i wanna lie... i tried to ignore... but its forcing me to my limit already... maybe, maybe i will KABOOM&explode. yeahh, maybe.







sometimes i wonder if you're the perfect one.
cos you're too good for me.

yeahh, its tiring knowing that you've so many peeps to please everyday!


weird, gasping for air
never be replaced(male version) - ???
aww, i got high after listening to this song. cos though its sad, its sweet. okay, i know im saddistic. you know, i heart this song :D


cut my hair! whoo, yeah, its bout time. hmm. you know, i just found out that my head&shoulders shampoo contains magnesium chloride and sodium something. haha, chemistry everywhere, no wonder i scored 29/50. well, still, im not satisfied but yeahh, i know im one those fortunate ones who can pass. hmm, i wanna be a doctor... what to do? ms liang... what a teacher! tsk tsk

i know im not going to walk tomorrow. okay, let me rephrase is. i wont be able to move my legs. haha, cos training was madness just now. under the hot sun, physical exercise running everywhere then test for your reaction... haha. BUT, what really brought me down was realising that my performance sucked. ahh, whateva.

many many tests tomorrow. wish me luck yeah? yawns. *stress*




boy, you know im just a phone call away if you ever need me. (:

yeah, i didnt mean to hurt you :D


cool, loved.
time - 1st lady


yeahh, im serious this time, i am!

when you're away...
i cant do anything.
i cant eat.
i cant sleep.
i cant study.
i cant be high.
i cant stop thinking of you.
i cant concentrate.
i cant be me.

i got many witness!
boy, you're loved.


today yulenda, candice and i read the horoscope thingy on teenage and when it was my turn, it wrote there something like... you're still feeling something for your crush last year! then yulenda stare at me. omg.


i hate hypocrite. i hate those who call them my special friend and yet they dont deserve the status. where were you when i really needed someone many times? where were those times again when you gimme a call, crack a joke just to brighten my day, be it even in the middle of the night. i know you still care, that's okay, cos at least you did bother to answer and reply to some of my boring sms. that will do, i promise. i ask for nothing more now, but you really spoiled my day, adding on to alot of my unhappiness.
i thought i was behaving like the fire extinguisher. as if im only used whenever needed, or else for the rest of the time, i'll just be left there, rotting away and then when the times come, i gotta be changed. *OUCHED*






simin thought me this today:
dont be EMO-ed.
cos you're still EMO-ing.
you know you can always learn EMO-logy from me
cos im a EMO-logist.
yeah, and let's EMO-sify. :D

global warming(lol), funny.
i cant hate you anymore - nick lachey


before i explain why im feeling funny... LET ME FIRST COMPLAIN BOUT THE EVIL ANTS ATTACKING ME!! omg, they've been visiting me like this morning, i wonder where the hell they come from. ITS KILLING ME!! ahh, im just going squash any of them the next time i see one. I TRIED TO BE NICE ALREADY, i wanted to give them a chance but noo, they disturbing me. it must be me... being too sweet. HAHA. okay, now back there. hmm, i kept smiling to myself for some strange reasons. its like, unknowingly, i spot myself laughing at my some sms-es or else my sister would gimme that stare, noticing that i've actually gone into a state of mind whereby its only me, myself and i in my lalaland. LOL, die, admit guoyi to IMH NOW. her condition are worsening!!

let me keep you guys updated since i havent posted for the past 5 days already. let's see...:
- national day season over. enjoyed my holidays! :D
- caught up with my studies, FINALLY. that's cos i stayed at home almost every day.
- bought my boots! finally. its nice. black one with ronaldinho's signature!!
- caught 881 at westmall with my family.
- met valent, edmund, yvonne, nicholas, yanwah, daryl(CHONGHUA) & mathias to watch rush hour 3 sneak!
- loved jackie cahn + christ tucker :D
- those primary school guys havent at all changed man. still taller than me... still that childish! still so cute and HOT.
realised that, after 1 - 2 years coming into ntss, i was alot bout my sec sch friends but now while the 3 year is approaching an end... i preferred hanging out with those childhood buddies be it the guys... its like, we still got more in common, we're not so shy and our friendship will gain alot everytime we meet up once in a blue blue moon. ppl in life,(at least in my life) are so hyprocrite. so crocodile tears. one word = EEW. i think i still love those innocent days back then, so sweet, so no worries.



loved, and loving.

SCORCHING HOT, up and down roller coaster ride.
seasons in the sun - westlife


man, trying to call everyone back to nhps tmr.

just cooked the dinner. yum yum, its western cruisine! yeah, my fav. i think they like it :D

long day today but i didnt seem to feel sleepy even after p.e. maybe cos i wasnt so high today, maybe cos i wasnt so enthu, maybe cos my blood pressure rose after reading the ASEAN DAY MESSAGE this morning to the whole school... hey, it feels like hell when you got more than 1000 times 2 big eyes staring right into you just waiting for you to finish off that boring thing up on stage with a SUPRE SOFT MIKE. i hated it man. well, at least i managed to get many teachers' praise and im rather glad bout it. they encouraged me a lot especially ms christ tan. :D i sat with ian in class and perhaps he was the one keeping me awake with all the weird and random things we're talking bout. alot bout our future. i mean HIS FUTURE JOB AND MY FUTURE JOB. not OURS. haha. i almost misunderstood too when i read through the sentence. ((:

suggested going lan after school and timothy went upside down bouncing away. WHAT, YOU WANT TO GO? ARE YOU SERIOUS? OMG OMG! budden in the end we realised we didnt have outside shirt with us so we abolished the idea. yeahh, munyee went home and i stayed to watch the captain's ball game and helped to time and score too. it was good. far too good for me i guess. haha. wanted to wait for suriani for dinner but i was bored so decided to leave first. faazul accompanied me then! haha, he said he didnt wanna go home and so send me to clementi? we walked there and it was rather fun chatting with him. laughing all the way. well, for 3 times i almost got knocked down on the road today just during the walk with him. hmm, i thought i MEOWED too much, and now that i have 9 lives, im left with 6 only. hahaha. okay im really crazy today, or more of now. crapping away. so thanks to faazul for changing my life and saved me. but partially its his fault too. maybe i wouldnt be so distracted if i didnt walk with him. haha. im sooo blur today, help, i need a neurologist to check my brain. xp.

he returned to school soon after and i went to meet my mom at je. had to buy tickets. decided not to buy and gave the ticket to someone else so he could watch with her. haha. how silly of me. may they have a good night man. NUTS, GUOYI'S NUTS. haha.


you know... chestpain sucks. it really do you know, the feeling of someone digging your heart out inside! eew. yes, eew im feeling that way and dont be surprised, its been quite often already. maybe... maybe im feeling that way cos... ahh, nvm. im going stop praying for you from today onwards cos you've got nothing to do in my life anymore. im over you. maybe God bless you and that everything goes well in your life. P.S. PLEASE PLEASE LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKE.

sunny, crying.
breathe easy - blue


man, im pretty tanned today, got baked under the sun for hours this morning, rather glad bout that! :D

had a bad day. a real bad one. rawr. just wanna go scream my lungs off. look, i cant even control my tears. i thought sleeping them off might make me feel better but no? i've only made those headache worse. everyone listen up, guoyi cant run and cant damn jump to catch some stupid balls. she should just stay away from sports la, USELESS.

i think i still prefer being alone. well, its a good time to watch the sun set now, so bye for now.

okay, okay.
wanna be with you - paula deanda


pon-ded school today. had a bad headache. yeah. was terribly tired, giddy and weak. alright, shall be honest, partial reason: 3 periods of physics today + geo test + chem test + 2 periods of math + end school at 215. yawns. in the end still ended up going to school to take my chem test. thanks to the drummers, i couldnt concentrate at all and bound to fail the test. lol. i did spend some time studying though.

hmm, realised it was the sec 3 subject combination talk tonight in school. even though it has nothing gotta do with me, it really reminds me of how fast time can fly. hello, i was just attending the talk last year and it seemed like ytd! goodness man, guoyi, WAKE UP. well, stayed in school to buzz around in the office helping out then stayed in the canteen to study a bit but realised i was at loss when i know i couldnt do anything at all thanks to missing just two lessons of emath today. SAD. gotta go self study and catch up! waited for suriani and dinner-ed. she "sent" me home and nagged at me bout how stress she is again. haha. she DAMNN INTERESTING :D

sports carnival tmr girl so get well soon. omg, you know what? i've been talking to myself alot lately, i must be mad! learnt too much from ellice. OOPS. hehe. i think it gonna be fun tomorrow, yet busy at the same time. shall not think tooooo much.
here's a chance to anyone who wants to date me cos im rather free tmr with nothing on. contact me asap cos i only entertain to first comers! haha, alright, i know that sounded sick but yeahh, i dont mind being alone too. i can always go around studying alone! ((:

normal, low on drugs.
i knew i loved you - savage garden


my flu is getting worse and it sucks. *sniff sniff*

didnt go to softball training today thanks to my mom. whateva man.
hmm, *hints* anyone out there, guoyi here needs a pair of soccer boots rather urgently. my current one has died so if you're a kind soul, i'ld be glad if you will like to give me one pair as belated or advanced birthday gift. actually, its all up to you, christmas present will do too! haha. so since im already so thick-skinned, i dont mind going on, let's just say you're just some stranger happen to drop by this blog. feel free to mail it to me at lorong kismis! lol. oh ya, lastly and most importantly, size 6 please and it would be best in mizuno brand :D
i'll love you forever for that.

chem test tmr! *stress*. should go school? think bout it.
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