guys, pardon me for this uber long post. i needa get them off my head or else i cant take it anymore. i cant just keep it inside anymore. i need some space too.

why are you still reading my blog? do you still care for me? why do you ask bout him? are you jealous? what are we now? what's all these bullshit? this aint what i want. i dont care what my friends say. i care bout what you say. tell me, what do you want?!

do i laugh cos we're friends or cry cos that's all we can be?

do you know irritating it can get when i have all these questions popping out non stop? do you know i can be thinking by you all day and not do anything cos i dont see you around? do you know that i realised i relied on you so much i need you here cos im all alone?

what did you mean when you tell me life is quiet without me around? do you want me back? is that what you've said? must things really go this way? do you need me like i need you? have you thought bout me? thought bout the past? did you smile like i do when you think bout the times we shared and cry like i do when im back to reality?

CAN YOU FUCKING JUST GET OUTTA MY LIFE, MAKE ME HATE YOU AND JUST LEAVE COS I SO CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.
cos maybe i'll feel better that way.






please go,
please just DONT go. please.