Come Back To Me.

yesterday's soccer was fun. i mean, soccer with the guys. not forgetting yanlin & putri! and and and there's vidya too! whooo, amazing. it was hanging out till 8pm and playing at clementi. the guys were simply mad. ha. oh, because of the funny weather, there was this huge awesome double rainbow across the sky at evening ok..

today's boring. just school. guess what, i've decided to skip that stupid SC interview! ha, cos its so retarded that they put me at the 6.45pm slot. even though i went home around that time, i dont wanna waste my time answering some weird questions ok! shall volunteer with the girls for the next camp :D

GuoYi really needs to learn better time management. school's just started and i'm dying already! hahah, i think i'm so known for putting stress on myself. but oh wells, to be serious, i work better with stress. ((: however, that's not the point. i want to tell you that, i wanted to join SC, soccer, Direct University Admission a.k.a DUA and kayaking. plus my school has all sort of things like this coming up sports meet. i'll still have to juggle with my YOG stuff... one more thing. i'm supposed to plan for this class gathering. you know what's the best thing bout it? ITS FOR MY CURRENT JC CLASS!! goodness.
all my involvements.. so me!
someone call the SOS hotline for me please

looks like you've given up. looks like i should too.

I wish that I could photoshop on
Our bad memories
Because the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won't leave me alone

I Belong To Me.

thinking of you day and night, you even appear in my dreams.
sorry i still cant let down my pride and face you.

b, if you're reading this right now, tag me and tell me how you're doing.
i'll be waiting.

It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life baby
It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

What's Left Of Me.

OK, where should i start? my life's been so happening, like it always is, HA!

alright, soccer first, since i just came back from trainning. MAN, its awesome, like seriously. HOWEVER, unfortunately i injured my right fingers while trying to play as the goal keeper... oh well, overall, the seniors are friendly and i'd loads of fun!

then school. oh man. school sucks. ya ya. i said that countless of time i know. i just really really dislike it, yeah? studying studying, AHHHHHH, stress...

today i missed you again.

Watch my life,
Pass me by,
In the rear view mirror
Pictures frozen in time
Are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

A Little Too Not Over You.

ok, i didnt wanna update because i cant find my USB and i cant upload photos so i'm very sad. BUT i've decided i should just post something since i'm quite bored and to let everyone know how i'm doing!

anyway, camp's nuts. err. how bout 3 words to describe it. NOT 'I LOVE YOU'. instead, 'WASTE OF WATER'. HAHA, lalala. ok, something cool bout it is the ballroom dancing that i've learnt. :D

second, i'm so in love with soccer now! you'll find out why...

third, school's been really stressful. classes and everything are so sleep-proned. well, at least i've a nice rational civics tutor and really nice and sweet classmates. (MAYBE SOME EXCEPTIONS)

lastly, ok, i'm so lack of sleep, so i should probably fly now. byee :D

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.

When I'm With You.

dammit, just made my best friend angry. i only have 2 best friends, and so cant afford to lose them. that's it, must be my fault, SORRY. =((

dammit, my mood's swinging so easily these days. must have offended alot ppl over this =[[

dammit, sore throat's like on its way to visit me. nooooo, not to fall sick during orientation camp =X

dammit, camp's coming. like dont know what to expect. how?

dammit, no one's going out with me tomorrow. 've got no company. so sadddd. gonna emo, YAYE

dammit, i wonder whether you're missing me, when i'm missing you.

Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out

Fall Baby Fall.

fed up. i am, very extremely really fed up. you ask me is it because of lack of sleep, is it because of school, or is it because simply pms. well, i cant tell you exactly what it is. maybe when you add them all up, you get what i am, right now. wait, there's also the addition of someone saying some stupid things and being unappreciated by someone you really care about really upsets me. ALSO, the fact that my phone is dying just made things worse. sigh

guess it all began the day before yesterday when Joy asked me how things were doing at home. there it went, my long story, all the things that i kept there for pretty long. i've decided to dig them all out and tell it to her. Wendy's right, i shouldnt keep it bottled up. it gets really unhealthy after a while.

at this very moment, school's aside, and i put away all my friends for a while. i want to talk about my family, some thing i always avoided talking about, as much as i could. well, so far i only remember describing bout how happy i can be in this house and stuff like that. then again, some times some things just aint what it seems.

i hate my dad. at the very same time, i love him too. believe it or not, despite all the mean things he has done to my mom, to my siblings and to me, i loved him. however, i hate him because he never fails to disappoint me again and again. i respected him as my father but he simply took it for granted. how could he? someone tell me, should i thank him for how much pain he has brought to me all these years that caused me to be so independent, or do i despise him for being unable to even be a good father i've always wanted?

P.S. ouch, i didnt know it hurts to be filial.

And I don't want to be the one just to love then lose

Too Little Too Late.

birthday birthday birthday. i hope i dont meet another person who's birthday actually happen to fall on 7 feb again. pleaseeee, at least not my best friend.

OK, as you can see, its been a pretty busy day for me as usual... school, then met munyee. even though yanlin called and invited me to join them, i'd to see joy first, followed by meeting my zoey. ya, i am THAT occupied. i just came home not long ago and i need a little break time before i'm going back to studying. MUAHAHHA. yes, you werent reading wrongly. studying, is the word.

i thank God for sending Joy to talk to me. with her advice, i feel muchhhh better bout school. well, i guess next week would be a better week, and i'll try my best not to drag going school anymore. oh ya, gonna havve the orientation camp on thurs too! wonder how its gonna be like...

P.S. suddenly, i miss Y.P.G. =[[

'Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone

Be Without You.

no joke life's totally miserable for me in JJ. first is the principal, then the countless talks that make the school seemed so naggy and strict. followed which i was offered a totally lousy subject combination. OK, no offence, but its really not what i wanted and liked. you know what? the school only gives one day advance of notice for you to decide and who can i talk to? i really hope i dont live to regret it. lastly, class started already. im seriously gonna quit if i dont even get to the combi i've chosen.

the unhappy things aside, i've made two nice friends today that i went everywhere with! classes together, lunch and gossipping. oh, CCA open house too. guess its not quite surprising i sign up for women's soccer right? with dinah!! oh man, my OGLs are really nice and i enjoy having them around too. so gonna aspire to be like them manzx.

anyway, bio's killing me. i'm sooo going for tuition. anyone cares to join me? :D

We didn't build nothing overnight
Cuz a love like this takes some time