Forever & Always.

my version of cinderella didnt really have a happily ever after ending. *snap* i guess she's back to reality, facing the fact that life goes on, & everything ends on the very day. however, this just made her look forward to the next time she turns into a little princess. :D

i only have a word to describe sweet 17: marvellous.
(maybe i should describe it as: FATTENING. hahaha, FYI: my breakfast, lunch and dinner were all CHOCOLATE CAKE. =X)

sometimes i do wonder, if i'm worth all my friends celebrating for me and buying me gifts for my bday. remember how i grumbled bout how much i thought im so unimportant? thanks to ppl like, munyee, daryl, dave, weisheng & wilson, now i know i gotta look at the other side of things. i must have weighed a little in their hearts to get them to take their time out and meet me. trust me please, those presents, I LOVE THEM SO MUCH(:

before i forget, i think i must say i also have great friends in JJ. despite hating my sch, AGAIN, these girls really made me wanna stay, just for their stake. it all came so unexpectedly because we barely knew each other, just a couple of months? man, now i know what ppl meant, when they say: that's what friends are for.

third, just this short paragraph for my 7yrs of bestie. i know she wont be reading this, but its ok. i wanna let you all know how big a difference she has made to my life. this little girl called wendy, even after knowing her for so long, is her first year spending my bday with me! haha, cos to us, it always didnt really matter if we were growing older. we see each other almost every other day but we never get tired of each other. i spent the night of my bday with this fella. there, she really put an extra touch to it.

last year's bday was a special one, but i guess, this year's gotta be an even more unique one. i've sweetie pies like suriani, sebastian, syafiq and even syah texting me! then jiaxin and ms chng also wished me, how amazing can that get... then there was yanlin and my brother calling me all the way back from amsterdam. lastly, this person i must mention! JOY. hahah, she really brought me joy. i had so much fun with just hanging out with her. (:

hey everyone, whoever out there who's sent me your wishes, blessings and gave me presents! thank you so so much. besides all the thank yous, i dont know what else to say. i'm really very very touched. in case you dont know, you're guarantee that your sms has made me smile. thanks for being there and to let me know you care. i've no idea what my life would be without ppl like you so thank you. i promise i'll be there, if you need me too. today, i choose to believe that my friends, are my strength.

Did I say something way too honest
That made you run and hide like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes;
thought I knew you for a minute
Now I’m not so sure.
So here’s to everything
Coming down to nothing
Here’s to silence that cuts me to the core.
Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute
But I don’t anymore.

You Belong With Me.

yaye. now my blog's more colourful with photos.

firstly, let me just tell everyone how thankful i am to have these 3 friends, namly Alex CHEE, Xavier and Kelvin! whooo. they rock man. the first to give me my bday present, the guys who actually rmb even though we barely hang out! omg, just imagine how touched i was. thank God for letting me meet and know them over the SL camp last year! :D

then, today i received the badge for being the volunteer at the YOG LC! see that? NOT EVERYONE CAN HAVE IT OK. im just sooo excited to be an intern there. wheee. cant wait cant wait. those ppl are niceee (:

do you know that whenever i get the feeling you'll be at somewhere,
i'll actually go over,
just hoping to see you?

I'm the one who makes you laugh
when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?

2.

that's bout somethings that happened in the past. :D

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WHOO i just uploaded all my photos from my phone, LIKE FINALLY. using that lousy USB. =X the photos in this post are bout school/camp

Step Up.

i made a new friend today & his name is Ray. i dont know why i'm talking bout him because for all i know, he might just be another aquaintance, yet another stranger if we meet again a few decades later. hahaha, well, i just realised how things can change overtime and then again, maybe tomorrow or the day after, Ray becomes my best friend. who knows? i believe that God's got everything planned out for me and we somehow must be fated to know each other.

wondering why i'm saying all those rubbish? haha. that's cos i met someone today. i didnt really meet him in the sense, talk to him, hung out or anything like that. i just happen to see him while on Mr Tan's car on the way to lunch. he didnt see me at all, which i guess, is probably a good thing. honestly, i'm not sure how i should be feeling. i'd the rush to just jump off the car and go up just to say hi. well, luckily i didnt, cos it definitely would have been the most retarded thing that anyone can do. i should be glad i caught a glimpse of him, knowing that he's doing fine. however, at the very same time, i couldnt show any expression because Zoey was around too.

in a split second, there, he's gone. if he saw me, what would have happened?

my vision bout what happened in the past has gradually become clearer. friends told me a million things about him. so amazing. those things he did behind my back, the good, the bad and even stuff he's done for me. its all funny when i think back. did i actually become famous, or is it instead, infamous because of him? whateva it is, one thing i know, i havent regretted a single moment all the while. i admit, i was angry, i was mad at him. but ironically, i'm sorry to say that my anger for me turned a daily routine of missing him. a day just wont go by without me waking up with him on my mind and the last thing i got to be doing every night for the past months is thinking bout him. Zoey may be right, he's too much. well, i would say, there's always two sides to something. for now, there's really nothing i can do. so, let's wait for God's call. (:

& when I break up it's only to make up

Feel the rhythm of the beat, that's my heart
Cupid shot me with the arrow from the start
And you know that it's your love that's got me trapped
Everytime I try to leave you bring me back
So much water at times I cried a river
You dried my eyes and brought me back to laughter
And when I lay next to you I wanna wake up
And when I break up it's only to make up

The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore.

sick. flu. ok i dont know why im blogging but i thought i deserve a break since i think i've been studying alot. i shall go catch my TV show after im done here.

recently, i've been troubled again. wondering if i should change my route, and pursue poly life instead. of cos, also wondering if i shall just get the hell outta soccer.

yaye, shall not think too much. tomorrow's sports day! its been a short week man. school really sucked. sigh. its ok. i'll be going to cine to catch my 'coming soon' with the girls. CANT WAIT :D muahahaha

call me

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why

Here I Am.

today's that retarded e learning day. YAYE. hahah. i so cant access to the chem videos i'm supposed to watch. how sad. oh wells, cant be bothered. so why am i so free to blog now? that's cos its my 'break'. LOL

anyway, i'm supposed to return to school for training later. oh my oh my. life's so sad. HA. there's two test tomorrow. i feel like staying home to catch all the chem i've missed out! :(

yesterday was out with hot shieboon. WHOO. it was damn fun to have him around. man, i missed those days... now, its all studying. 2 years aint long at all. its all bout studying. argh. believe it or not, i really fear whether i make it to the local varsity.

i wish i could get THAT sports bag. its $79.90 after sales i suppose. omg. that's ex ok. but its niceeeeeee. and it has this compartment for your shoes la. its huge and its brown. i wish i wish i wish my mom would let me buy it be it letting me myself pay for it. i bet i'll be a happy girl if i've that(not that i'm not happy now). i just SO want it. but then again, its a WANT, not a NEED. =[

before i go, i wanna tell you that:
soon im gonna be 6205 days old. HAHA, that sounds old. oh wells. i'm not asking for anyone to buy anything for me. i'm just complaining. maybe i deserve something for myself too
and soon we'll know each other for 730 daysm oh that's 2/17 of my life. i'm so lame. lalala

& i can only be your friend.

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

Incomplete.

oh i skipped school today! ha. i'm a bad kid, so please do not learn from me. :D ok, i admit i was really tired since i studied past midnight last night after buying that retarded $66 chem guide book. (i must be nuts to actually pay for it) *heartachs* furthermore, like i said, school's sucha drag and i dont understand any lectures so what's the point? self-studying's probably an easier way out for me. there's no school again tomorrow and i cant wait! whoo

suddenly my decision swayed. im not very sure if i should join soccer anymore. sigh. partly because of my knee, and also because of the discouraging pathetic small number of people we have there. how to play like that?

this week's last week of term 1. YAY. but that also means all the intensive work will be coming up after this break. omg. help. ok, for now, let's not think bout it. i shall watch COMING SOON with my girlfriends on friday, the 13th. lalala.

yesterday, i realised that someone actually care.
he really does, & much more than you do.
however, that's not the point.
i want YOU to be the one who really care about me.

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

My Life Would Suck Without You.

finally, its friday. i wasted my whole day in school today! so shouldnt have gone and now, my knee injury is back. its so bad i cant climb the stairs in my house, neither can i straighten it without feeling the pain. yes its back, that stupid injury. made me all so fed up. ya great, for all i know, my mom's not gonna let me join soccer. HA.

you know, there's this rude tai tai in class whom i really dislike. however, its not just me, but instead its the majority. she's so irritating i wish she would just get out of my face or leave the class. ok, i'm so gonna learn tolerance, because there's another one year and nine months to go. sigh!

enough of my rants. here's something i wanna tell all of your:
i love my mom, & thank God for having her around.

for once, i look forward to my birthday.
cos i wanna if you still remember, if you even care.

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

I Wanted You.

its 1.30am in the morning! whoo. i'm an owl, for once. just felt like blogging, so here i am! HOWEVER, i've no idea what to post about. lalala.

cos in my dreams, you'll be there.

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cause we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line