Step Up.

i made a new friend today & his name is Ray. i dont know why i'm talking bout him because for all i know, he might just be another aquaintance, yet another stranger if we meet again a few decades later. hahaha, well, i just realised how things can change overtime and then again, maybe tomorrow or the day after, Ray becomes my best friend. who knows? i believe that God's got everything planned out for me and we somehow must be fated to know each other.

wondering why i'm saying all those rubbish? haha. that's cos i met someone today. i didnt really meet him in the sense, talk to him, hung out or anything like that. i just happen to see him while on Mr Tan's car on the way to lunch. he didnt see me at all, which i guess, is probably a good thing. honestly, i'm not sure how i should be feeling. i'd the rush to just jump off the car and go up just to say hi. well, luckily i didnt, cos it definitely would have been the most retarded thing that anyone can do. i should be glad i caught a glimpse of him, knowing that he's doing fine. however, at the very same time, i couldnt show any expression because Zoey was around too.

in a split second, there, he's gone. if he saw me, what would have happened?

my vision bout what happened in the past has gradually become clearer. friends told me a million things about him. so amazing. those things he did behind my back, the good, the bad and even stuff he's done for me. its all funny when i think back. did i actually become famous, or is it instead, infamous because of him? whateva it is, one thing i know, i havent regretted a single moment all the while. i admit, i was angry, i was mad at him. but ironically, i'm sorry to say that my anger for me turned a daily routine of missing him. a day just wont go by without me waking up with him on my mind and the last thing i got to be doing every night for the past months is thinking bout him. Zoey may be right, he's too much. well, i would say, there's always two sides to something. for now, there's really nothing i can do. so, let's wait for God's call. (:

& when I break up it's only to make up

Feel the rhythm of the beat, that's my heart
Cupid shot me with the arrow from the start
And you know that it's your love that's got me trapped
Everytime I try to leave you bring me back
So much water at times I cried a river
You dried my eyes and brought me back to laughter
And when I lay next to you I wanna wake up
And when I break up it's only to make up