Fall To Pieces.

yaye i recovered! :) ytd there was news that exams are postponed to first and second july, my two very important days of next month! oh man, totally spoilt my moood. the worst is that chem paper on thurs will probably like what, 7pm? kill me pls. i thought i would give up anything after sch, if i had any, that day just to celebrate besties birthdays. but look. that's impossible. damnn. ahh, i'll see how i can make up for it. but well, for now, i'll go back to mugging and do well!!

wahaha, met someone special ytd! guess who! ha, if you dont know, then too bad. cos i aint gonna name that person here. well, i was all excited but i guess things that turned out a little unexpected at some point of time. i was thinking a little too much, but i bet i'm all fine now. looking forward to our next meeting again :D

P.S. feels like i'm growing fat. ARGH. good thing school's reopening. then i can go run some fats offff!

to that special someone:
as i lay in bed all night ytd, all the memories i've of you and i unfolded before my eyes. its been a wonderful 4 years, but i simply wish another 4 years will go by just as quickly. today, i realised how important you're in my life. just how much i care, how much you've been there supporting and encouraging me always. it doesnt matter if anyway. that's cos i choose to believe in you. i pray that this is not just one sided, and that our friendship will indeed, like what they say, blossom one day. God knows why i'm uttering all this nonsensical rubbish here right now, but its OK. at the very least, i'm thankful that you're the one on my mind tonight, and it isnt him anymore.

I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

We Are One.

OK, it cant be H1N1. cos my fever has subsided. HA. but then again. maybe it was. just that i managed to overcome it. lol. anyway, i practically slept the whole day today cos i felt so dizzy. well, i just gotta think of it as making up for all the sleep that i've missed out. thank God there isnt chem paper today, or else all my mugging will be gone to the drain! then again, i feel that i've waste my whole day away. there were just so much things i could be studying!

school's starting in just a couple of days. goodness! this month really passes quickly man. well, i kinda dont know what to expect for the next term. its gonna be crazy since the term 3 results will be compiled soon. yupp, im aiming for partial exemption. like math or chem. chem might not be possible, but its alright. me gonna continue working hard for it.

P.S. too busy studying, havent been spending much time thinking of you. guess i should let this go on...

All the stupid little things,
That belong to you and me.
Will you really throw them all away?

For The Record.

no photos to upload, unless you want some photos of how I torture myself with work, like Chemistry. or maybe, our infamous Project Work. OKay, I sound totally saddistic, so I better stop it. HAHA.

besides out to tuition, study, and maybe have lunch, I cant remember what I've been doing. its alright. come to think of it, despite all the stress, I enjoy being busy. not just allow me to run away from everything that's happening right now, but also keep me busy so I won't think so much! well, I've been thinking, if I were in poly right not, would things have became different?

yeah, just a side note here. I met up with a friend sometime this week. a pretty old friend. from her, I've learnt that sometimes in life, it isnt about what you're told to do and what you must do. often, its really about whether you want to do it, and if you find joy in doing it. I'm glad she's chosen her own path in life, even knowing that its the harder way out. she's got my full support, cos in life, what's essential gotta be your strong mindset. never let others sway your decision easily!

P.S. July's approaching. that implies I've got shopping to do. important birthdays are coming up. :D

Honey
Give me one good reason
Why can't we just press rewind
Wanna spend my life
We just need another try

Don't Love You No More.

since kelvin said i havent been updating, i shall do it now! despite all the PW work i've to do by tonight, WHO CARES. i'm just gonna blog. i just thought, what's more important than letting me vent? i gotta learn how to put those things down, chill a little, and then after that work with a coool mind. i'm sure that would make me more effective! yupp, realised that i havent posted for a week alr! yaa, what more can i say? its mugging la duh! but actually not really. i was a little sick the day before ytd. then been out with my mom for last 2 days. went to dentist, went out shopping. tuition and studying is probably the one that took up most of my time. LOL, that sounds horrendous. i aint no nerd ok. i was out TRYING to collect some data for my PW today! apparently, to see that i'm still up now infront of the com, shows that there's still alot more to be done. its due on friday, so goood luck to iron guoyi. YAY. everyday is bout stressing myself. after this test, i've got the next exam coming up. but after that i'll have assignments to do. if not, there's still homework to finish. ever wonder what do you get outta all this? yeah, maybe you should tell me what's this life all about...

i may never seem to get enough time to do my work, but let me tell you this. you were on my mind half the times.

P.S. eddy's coming backkkk. :D

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way

All I Ever Wanted.

OK, i just downloaded a ton of songs. :D

i only had like 7h of sleep, i dont know why i woke up so early today. i thought i was bored so decided to blog. going out later to collect my dearest phone, hoping that its all well after seeing the doctor.

study study study. im mugging so hard in the holidays. that's so sad, but i really hope it'll pay off. im so worried for chem, so anyone wanna tutor me? lol. still have a bit of homework to finish up. im so gonna isolate myself after wednesday next week. that's cos before that i still has plans! now thinking bout it, I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING FOR MY PW. oh goood job, im so dead, HURRAY =[[

sigh, i gave in again... i so shouldnt have!

P.S. MunYee! if you're reading this, know that i was missing you ;)

Tear up the photographs
But yesterday won't let go
Everyday everyday every minute
Here comes the emptiness
Just can't leave lonely alone

You're Not Sorry.

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

ok, something random to headstart my post: i'm wondering if its me hungry or that tonight's dinner was just extra delicious. cos i simply cant stop myself from drinking the soup!

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before

wondering why there's that picture up there? my motivation to study! (even though if its not there i'll still study...) YA, i think i'll get it from my mommy, soon, REALLY SOON. i quite like it, since it doesnt cost much, has good reviews, AND COMES IN PINK. no earpiece needed, which is especially why i wanna get it!

no no

yes, i saw it at wisma today. cos i went to fix my stupid lousy C902. that idiot died on me halfway ytd. i almost cried not having to survive on music today. BUT BUT BUT, thanks to Ms Mew, i've got some, pretty nice songs to accompany to tuition and back home today. SO THANKS AMANDA SOOOOOOOOOOH. heh ;)

You had me crawling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

before that, we caught ANGELS AND DEMONS. like, FINALLY? since dont-know-when i wanted to watch it so badly alr.. but well, i kinda like it, so luckily it didnt disappoint me! :D we ate at pepper lunch at walked abit? lol, i cant rmb much, EXCEPT THAT I'D THIS REALLY BAD GASTRIC. :( oh wells, it got better after that but now my stomach still feels funny!

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone

The Reason.

looking back, i see that its been bout a year already. yesterday, i thought bout it alone. today, i talked bout it with the twins. countless questions bout myself, bout what had happened, bout what is happening is still racing through my mind. will someone tell me what's gonna happen next?

i asked myself what i've been doing for these past hundred days, and so did them. really, i really didnt know what i was doing, that i was just not over it. despite having the strength to carry on with life everyday, i failed, completely failed to move on. like what they said, how can i even cling on for so long? honestly, i've no idea. it just went on, on and on, without me knowing. right now, i wish someone would just snap fingers, hypnotise me and get me outta this whole damn thing.

i'm sorry, sorry that i lied to everyone bout how happy i am, how i said i let it go already. oh its hella bullshit. at least for today, i knew i didnt. so did the girls. how i simply stone there, and it could have just gone on for hours if i allowed it to. it did affect me today, and sometimes, at other times. that's how weak i am deep inside. allowing the devil in me to overcome me. how could i.

i havent gotten a conclusion to it. but i guess i'll just let nature take its course. i'll pray. i'll.
then again, maybe i should give up and forgo others the chance. just let this continue, for as long as it can be...

P.S. no joke, i still think of you everyday.
but did i even slip through your mind, once in a while? if it did, then i guess i live with no regrets.

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do

Coming For You.

I have decided not to upload any photos on my blog today, since everything's up on facebook already. for the past 5days, its been hustle and bustle, despite it being the first week of holidays only.

okay okay, i shouldnt be complaining so much, i did had a lot of fun for the past few days. playing about, relaxing and partying! the girls i hang out with are really marvellous man. ha, guess its bout time i get into my mugger mode already!

alright, I gotta shower and quickly get outta house now! got audition for YOG sports presenter later ;) wish me luck!

P.S. I'm concern about someone, whom I think probably wouldnt even bother about my existence.

Don't know what to say
I guess I'll take the blame
Eventually it was bound to happen
I know you played you're part
I ain't trying to make it hard
But it's the right thing to do

AMABELAU

dear

LOOK HERE LOOK HERE AMABEL, your goldfish eyes so big you should be able to see that fish right. so cute eh? i know it is la, drawn by me what! WAHAHA! since amanda's gonna dedicate one post solely for annabel, i shall do likewise too, EXCEPT THAT ITS FOR AH-KARP here, so no need envy your sista k? :D

ok, let's see. *calculating* since february 13, 2009 we so-called 'officially' get to know bout each other. so its been nearing 4months. to be exact, 15weeks and 4days! that is actually 109days, which is also 2616hours. oh, can be converted into 156 960min. ok, i wont go on to seconds, cos its getting lame! lol. to me, it seemed kinda short, but well, think bout the 100k minutes i could be doing, WITHOUT YOU. hmmm, not worth it, definitely NOT! because there's you, there's GAALS, then there's GUOYI'S smiles and GUOYI'S laughters. ha! i hate to admit it but amabel, you're an awesome friend man! blurry at times, but helpful at most others. seriously, you dont know how much i first hated sch but with you, JJ's somewhat mean something different to me now. so thank you for making everything feel better.

*NAGGING TIME* you ah, 17years old alr hor! dont think you younger than me then whole day can pretend infront of me hor.. plssssssss buck up on your studies and continue to stay pretty and confident! all the best for you, (especially in playing flute) and dont forget me if you're attached one day OK! HAHAHA, i seriously dont know why i said that, but i guess i was just being random =X take care girl!

with loads of loveeee,
JINXY!