The Reason.

looking back, i see that its been bout a year already. yesterday, i thought bout it alone. today, i talked bout it with the twins. countless questions bout myself, bout what had happened, bout what is happening is still racing through my mind. will someone tell me what's gonna happen next?

i asked myself what i've been doing for these past hundred days, and so did them. really, i really didnt know what i was doing, that i was just not over it. despite having the strength to carry on with life everyday, i failed, completely failed to move on. like what they said, how can i even cling on for so long? honestly, i've no idea. it just went on, on and on, without me knowing. right now, i wish someone would just snap fingers, hypnotise me and get me outta this whole damn thing.

i'm sorry, sorry that i lied to everyone bout how happy i am, how i said i let it go already. oh its hella bullshit. at least for today, i knew i didnt. so did the girls. how i simply stone there, and it could have just gone on for hours if i allowed it to. it did affect me today, and sometimes, at other times. that's how weak i am deep inside. allowing the devil in me to overcome me. how could i.

i havent gotten a conclusion to it. but i guess i'll just let nature take its course. i'll pray. i'll.
then again, maybe i should give up and forgo others the chance. just let this continue, for as long as it can be...

P.S. no joke, i still think of you everyday.
but did i even slip through your mind, once in a while? if it did, then i guess i live with no regrets.

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do