Put Your Arms Around Me.

Su asked me today, 'have you moved on?'. well, im sure she's not the only one who wants to know the answer. many of you out there wants to find out too right? i was stunned by her, thought for awhile and before i could even answer, i was tongue-tied. ah huh, the answer was pretty obvious, not just to her, but to me too. have always been running away from this, but yet, i've to face this reality again now. i tried to explain, but i guess i need not say more.

i couldnt believe it. been so long. now and then, i ask myself, how did i actually struggle for so long? what's worse? i've managed to put up a smile on my face and pretend like im fine but deep inside its killing me. you know what? the truth is i've been thinking bout it everyday, without fail. i aint no OK at all. but this is me, i cant, i cant, i just cant change. never mind. if i manage to survive all along, im sure i can continue to do it!

there, it really got me thinking. have i, or have i not? the fact that im upset now, it just shows. shows how much im still not over it yet. im sorry, im such a disappointment, im really lousy. :(

P.S. thank you everyone, if you care.

That original feeling never went away
That's why I’m standing here today.

So many up and downs
And nothing has changed
That's why you know I'm here to stay.