One of those days.

Today is one of those days that I am all alone in the middle of the night.. i like it, yet not. you know that fine line between loneliness and time alone? someday i am not very clear myself. being alone is starting to become a norm and i am learning to deal with it. no, not bout feeling like i need a man's love 'cos i am single but its about doing every single thing on my own.

its like how the saying goes, "standing in a crowd full of people but yet feeling all alone".

i dont know how many people can relate to it. i used to be in need of attention from the opposite gender but i realise now is not the case. how do i say this.. its like, i dont mind being on my own these days.. but its just so saddening and discouraging to know that the things i do, i don't know who are there to back me up. who can I trust? who can i pour out my heart and soul to? who is here to hear me and comfort me? where is a girl friend who can walk with me in this journey?

God, I got no one else to turn to but You. I wish You're here right now. I want to see You and meet You. I want a hug, to fall asleep in Your arms. Never leave me nor forsake me Abba Father. Help me to know that even when the whole world walks on me You are here to stay with me. I dont need anyone else but You.