its liberating.
i looked back and i grew again in the Lord. yeah i did. how i struggled and just wrestled and eventually surrendered. He has just been speaking to me daily in the entire week. i know He is real. He never left me nor forsaken me.
there were moments i doubted. what 'fruits that will last'? you kidding me? but no Lord, if its in Your Word then yes i hold on to it and it'll come to pass. its OK i bless others. they take my people. i just be faithful to what God has called me and trust in the Lord's timing.
i couldnt help but be reminded of the prayer i made the last 30 days.
break my heart for what breaks Yoursand as i just let it go and broke down at worship last night on the last day of sanctification week, i heard all the selfish prayers of all the sinners. the church is merely a safe hiding place for sinful people. ouch. how much that must have hurt God.
and that's a new lesson i learnt this season. it was beyond the crying for the lost souls alr. it was crying for the division in the church. crying for His bride. crying just how broken we all are and in desperate need for a Saviour in our daily lives.
oh yes Lord. never let Your servant be wise in her own eyes and be self-righteous. i want to seek first Your kingdom and YOUR righteousness.
cheers to the Lord. from strength to strength, glory to glory. #bittersweet :')