yulenda kept screaming when she saw this:

national day celebration:

guess who're the teachers :D

Mr. J.T. :

on our journey...

group photo!

this is what you get when you lose your focus...

And if we had babies they would look like you

It'd be so beautiful if that came true

You don't even know how very special you are

And if our love was a story book

We would meet on the very first page

The last chapter would be about

How I'm thankful for the life we've made

yup. another busy week gone by. that's leaving me another few weeks to prelims.

i was sad again. haha.

ok, since im so bored, i shall write bout something that happened last night...
i left my house at 7.15pm and was hoping to reach my destination by 8pm, where it is not very far away. so i waited for my usual 173 which as usual, took like forever to come. its ok, i predicted that, so i waited. then it came like bout 7.25 and it took 5min to bring me to another bus stop where i can take 174 and go to the place. i stood there waited and waited till 7.45pm. no sign of the bus at all. i almost fainted. if i walked there i would probably have reached! (joking) ya, just then, i noticed a 173 coming. then there was this really old uncle chasing after the bus. he made it, but the bus driver simply drove off. and there was yet another man behind waiting to board the bus. i was so disgusted! the uncle was standing next to me, panting away badly. then he shook his head. poor thing. for the next few buses, i noticed that he really had difficulty seeing the numbers on them. poor thing. oh by then, it is almost 8pm. i hoped onto the 174 which was so packed i felt like i was being mashed. eventually, i realised, it took so long for it to come because it was affected by the NDP rehearsal. HAHA

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

its the weekends again! school's getting more boring then ever. we're repeating the same things everyday... revision revision and revision. im getting tired of it!

still, many interesting things happened... like Singapore Polytechnic called me for the interview! its next tuesday early evening so wish me luck! actually i thought i just applied the course for fun half expecting that they'll call me back! i'll just go give it a try and see how good i am then. :D (everyone envies me ok)

celebrated simin's birthday on thursday i think. haha, cant really remember. went to commonwealth long john to have lunch and got scolded by the manager there cos he said we were too noisy! well. that's more than 15 of us so how peaceful do you expect? lol.

oh did i tell you, i got my phone changed. using my C902 now. cybershot 5 megapixel! i kinda like it. ((: kinda.

We both know our heart is breaking;
Can we learn from our mistakes?

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby I
Try and try so hard
To keep our love alive
If you don't' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like 'Oh well'
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all

We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone

cute.

i didnt want to post, but i thought i should just do it. cos once a week, i should keep it updated. so... what's there in my life currently?

1.) besides mugging, which is extremely bad for health, i have also been studying, revising and then back to mugging again. haha, ok, so i assume you get my point.
main focus: O levels! :D

2.) i messed up my life. what do you think? i think im getting nowhere. im sucha waste of time. i dont know what im doing. i hate it this way. im beginning to hate myself, again, so much.

3.) i think i slimmed down. my one-meal-a-day policy is working well. i mean, ok, seriously, i didnt do it on purpose to go on diet. i just lost my appetite all of a sudden and my stomach wasnt hungry. so, do not try this. :D

a photo speaks a thousand words. i believe my previous post already spoke too many words. haha. yupp, that was what i was busy with for the past weekend. so happening! well, i guess i was keeping myself busy to keep my mind off some things. yupp, i think i was.

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you?

Did I hear you right
'Cause I thought you said
Let's think it over

You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where a love once shined so bright
Came without a reason

Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me

Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

tralala, guess what? i found out Mr. Tan S.P. used to read my blog. haha, that's cool. (:

he msged me just now and told me that i did pretty well for my retest on SS SBQ and elective geo, that retarded kalimantan case study. that really encouraged me and kinda cheered me up. really gr8 to hear that cos finally i improved! but still, i hope i get to do the retest on eng compo.

tests aside, i got the magicbox tickets from him! yaye, looking forward...

time flies. my week went quite well. cos it was short. monday was youth day and i skipped school on thursday. i went to see the doctor, and i told him i was suffering from insonmia. you know what he told me? he said im too stressed so he gave me some sleeping pills. lol.

doing math papers have been quite fun. it kept my mind off some things but well, i still cant help but cry at times. revision for other subject are coming up. once ms ang finishes teaching the emath syllabus, i think i'll stop going to school alr. haha, cos i'm the kind who prefers self study at home. i think im not pushing myself to the limits yet so yes, i'll!

edmund's been asking me out... yes, i did turn up a couple of times cos i believe in rewarding myself after doing some work but at the same time, i still feel that i should keep watching all the movies cos i'm wasting so much money!!

oh ya. i just applied for my DPA(direct poly admission). omg, i think im so kiasu. hahah. everything i also must go try. oh wells, no harm anyways. err, this time round im quite confident to get in cos of my AEM(advanced elective module). so ya, i still have a choice to choose between JC or poly.

ok, you know, i think this post is so random. ya, before i go, let me rant alittle more. my mom's mad today. i dont know why. menopause? haha, i didnt offend her and she kinda like vent her anger on me. SOBBS.

ARGH, I HAVENT GOTTEN MY MOBILE PHONE CHANGED COS MY BRO'S NOT IN TOWN.

And I hate how much I love you boy

I can't stand how much I need you

And I hate how much I love you boy

But I just can't let you go

And I hate that I love you so...

yeah, i didnt know my math was that bad.

its been a very very tiring week. next week aint gonna be any better. i'm so drained. drained mentally and physically. i can't stand this anymore. have anyone even cared? no, no one ever did.

physics SPA skill 3 was okay. now what i fear next will be my chemistry. its next wednesday and i think i'm so dead. well, i should make good use of the coming youth day, public holiday, at home mugging. i should stop going out. HAHA, and stop staring into this screen.

the public concert yesterday was well, boring i guess? cos its like i watched it thrice? even eddy and his friend said so! so long and draggy. lala. yupp, anyway, after that, hung out with edmund and his friends at vivo. we caught up a little. his friends were nice. yeah, funny and easy going, luckily.

when i sat there alone, i wished for nothing but you, you to just sit right next to me, cos that was all i needed. i simply needed nothing else, if only, if only you knew. please, please dont go...

What if I told you

It was all meant to be

Would you believe me,

Would you agree
It's almost that feelin'

That we've met before

So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come and now...

Could this be the greatest love of all

I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall

where were you when i needed you then?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAN, EDMUND, WENDY, ZHEYU & that's all for this week, COS THERE'S JUST SO MANY MORE TO GO. why do ppl choose to give birth on july?!

as you can tell, im blogging once a week now! whoo.

june holiday ended and school started. life's so back to normal, all the regular routine, usual days. gosh. sometimes its boring, but well, i guess being a student is so much better. at least i dont have things to worry like family, money and work... haha, all i have to do now is CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES. that's crazy man.

yes it is, cos im having my physics SPA tomorrow. (for those who doesnt know, its that stupid new syllabus of science that makes you plan and carry out experiments. cmon please, its not like im gonna be a scientist or something. ESPECIALLY NOT A PHYSICS ONE) yes, my physics sucks. not only my instincts, my heart, my mind, my everywhere is telling me im so gonna flung it so who cares. LOL.

just some thing to update bout my dearest school NTSS...

1. oh you know, mrs catherine ang is gone! for GOODNESS' sake. ya, she can go SLOWLYYYY get her master's at australia. who cares, FOR IM ALR OUT OF NTSS THEN! whoo.

2. mdm fong retired today, ON A MONDAY, after like been in new town for two years? hahah

3. check out wikipedia manzx. and then type in under search: New Town Secondary School. its sooooo interesting i really highly recommend you to read it. maybe i should feedback to mdm neo! i wonder who did that man... so yupp, i wont tell you what's its bout, go, dont be lazy, just go!

there's all for now. just wanted to comment on today's physics lessons. mr james tan was so super funny. he was more like teaching us the 'ways to live life' happy-go-luckily like him and i find it cool. yeahh, i wanna be like him one day too. he's gr8, really.

and then and then one last thing before go cos i wont be updating any soon.

mdm neo asked me to write my DSA application form the third time alr. she says i need to consult some english man. WHAT WAS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN, its like as if she has very

good english!

Sometimes you hold so tight,

It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?

& that somebody is ME!

whoo, school's starting manxz. i've been busy. going out! hey, i've been busy studying too ok. i met up with wendy a couple of times only and i totally lost contact with the others! missed so many of them like munyee, weisheng and of course raymond! looking forward to seeing them soon...

edmund's back!

24 hours aint enough for me. i spend 12 hours sleeping. 6 hours studying(im lying) and the rest for free time. what a way to divide my day. but well, i dont wanna wish for any more time cos its alr killing me!

im quite broke. i dont know where i spend my cash on. i must really learn to save!

its so hot today, im perspiring like crazy. i wanna go invent this cap that has a built-in aircon. that's gonna be so cool. yeah, im mad. HAHA.

tell me tell me, somebody tell me O's coming. & then stress me more. till i go nuts!(even though i alr is now) i had this stupid irritating NIGHTMARE the other night... i dreamt that i failed my O's ok. lol, thanks to all the naggings i received... :D

Oh, little cutie

When..you talk to me

I swear..the whole world stops

You're my sweetheart

And I'm so glad that you are mine

You are one of a kind and..

You mean to me

What I mean to you and..

Together baby,

There is nothing we won't do

'cause if I got you,

I don't need money

Palau Ubin was fun.(exclusive of the usual mosquitoes bites) went with cousins. relaxing. enjoyed the scenery and such a time out. cycled a lot! it was challenging cos many were uphills and others had to go on stones. I'm so drained now. will still wanna go again. <33 nature!

I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be
That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here

i swear I'll give that rotten apple up.
i really will, please believe me.
i promise i won't let you down anymore.

today, i was a bad girl. yeah, really bad one. i stared at ppl! :O yes, guoyi is actually doing that. hahaha, the incident this morning was SOOOOOooo retarded. yupp, i almost stirred up trouble but oh wells, i decided not to. haha, like i say, I SURE HAVE BeTTER THINGS TO DO ok. :D

yeah yeah, i studied! good good, for the whole of today i guess. i shall continue my Tuesdays with Morrie later on. tralala, im feeling good. that's cos im finally, LIKE FINALLY, learning how to appreciate the love showered on me. i dont know why but i finally woke up from my dream and told myself im living in reality. shall treasure what's there now and never let go of it. i dont want to regret this decision cos i know by then it'll be too late!

monday i did another super embarrassing thing AGAIN!! argh, its really so awful ok. I ACTUALLY FELT INTO A POND. luckily it was quite dark, so i guess nobody saw it. maybe a security guard did. or a few others passer-bys and strangers. but but but, i was just lucky i didnt drown. ok, i wouldnt, cos it was to my knee only. and there were any fishes. HAHAHA, it was just water, a small round mini fountain kinda thing that is about the size of a dining table. yes, so suay, so paiseh! alamak, luckily i wore shorts, so it wasnt THAT WET, but still, my wet kena. haiyo. how stupid can i get. hahahah. i was laughing all the way and if anyone videoed, i bet it can be sent for the singapore's funniest video. lalala, had much fun somehow though.

Please give me one more try for the sake of our love,

Let's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up.

I can't live one more day without you in my arms,

I could never find another like you.

Could be the lies, could be my pride.

Could be the times I wasn't there.

And all the nights we didn't share.

its been more than a week since i blogged... i have been quite lazy as usual. well, its not that i dont wanna post, its just that holidays are boring, ok, maybe my life is, and its especially irritating when you dont even really get to use the computer.

i dont have to return to school anymore for this holiday so i spend most of my time now at home or go to the library to study. there's just too many tuition i drown myself with but well, there are also times i go out to have some fun...

you know, i FINALLY tried it - sheesha! a cool yet unexpected feeling kinda thing. looking forward to the return of edmund, so i can go again! talking bout him, was looking for something to give him but i'm so lost! ahh, who cares... haha

kungfu panda was nice. many little kids around, all the gigglings. it was short but overall very exciting and funny. the characters were all so cute so i think it was good, well-drawn. i enjoyed it especially with a big screen and sitting right in the middle. most importantly, i guess its with whom i watched with the best part bout this movie. great company, THANKS for making out this time for me!!

ohh, guess what guess what?? i'm going to malaysia desaru tonight. or you would say tomorrow morning. cos i've to wake up like at 4.30am. lol. its alright, go relax! i love sightseeing and then i can EMOOOOO. i really do hope i don't eat a lot when i'm there cos i think i've been putting on so much weight! argh..

i used to care bout what people think of me,

then i realize i can't please everyone...

i'm unsure who likes me and who doesn't.

one thing i'm sure, at least

i won't be losing any sleep over it ANYMORE