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2007 new year resolutions:
i wanna drop all the bad and sadd memories and pick the good ones only.
i wanna stay faithful to God and be a good girl and study hard for my o levels.
i wish i wouldnt spend so much money on shopping again and save more and put them in my piggy.
i want to go home early after school and revise what i have done in school.
i hope i can make more friends and not enemies.
i want to stay single so that it wont affect my studies but i dont mind if i can find someone cute to take care of me! (:
i hope my hard work wont pay off and i will get good results by the end of the year.
i want everyone around me including ME, the sick one to stay healthy, cheerful and lucky so that we can live happily ever after!
thank God for everything. bless. ;)

yupp, that was last year's. like 365 days ago? hahah, managed to fulfil quite a few ok, so let's see what we have this year man... :D

2008 New Year resolution:
1. A one digit for O level result.
2. Let bygones be bygones. Forgive and forget. Let go.
3. Stay healthy and live happily with my family.

(this year im not so greedy ok, i alr learnt to be contented. ((:)firstly, obviously my focus right now will be at the GCE O level paper coming up in 10months time. im setting a really high aim, i believe i can do it, i know that's my minimun baseline, and i definitely wont fall below that.
alright next, this one... kinda hard, but i promise i'll try. ya, all the ppl i used to hate, dislike, cant stand, show a very bad attitude at... ok ok, i'll be nice, talk to them, give them another chance.
lastly, something i certainly thing its impossible. well, its more like a wish instead of a resolution. i dont know why, see how LA. :D

i dont know why im doing at home when everyone's calling me out to countdown la! its so quiet alone in the house my bro, sis and mom are out. crap, LALALA, its okay, its just new year.

okay, i went home late today again. argh, oops ):

3 jokes of the day.
JOKE No. 01:
went to The Coffee Connoisseur, looked for a 12person seat and then sat down. we left without ordering anything. COS WE DECIDED TO EAT ICE CREAM, paiseh, lol, later kena black listed how?
JOKE No. 02:
took MRT to Dhoby Goat, wanted to eat Swensens. it was crowded, at around 9pm? hahah, so 12 of us, oops, i mean 11 of us board the train, and due to the crowd, Amos couldnt squeeze in to join us. sadd! then everyone kept saying that he was carrying a 'suspicious item'. HAHAH
JOKE No. 03:
sat down at Swensens finally. so i think Sheri was sitting beside me. then she wanted to give up her seat for Faazul. so he stood up and moved to the next seat. it so happened that Faazul moved the chair away that Sheri wanted to sit, so, DA-TA, she fell to the floor. ok, poor her. :X

that's bout it. alot to elaborate on, but you can check out the other's blog. really grateful to everyone to make my day happy. im glad Amos treated us to the giant earthquake too. LALA. (ya, and The Hans is nice :D)

met Faazul and Edmund before getting my bro to fetch me at clementi. they really made my day even so much better. hahaha, thanks guys! satisfied... thanks Mom, for letting me out and have fun. HAHAHA. edmund... I LIKE THE DRESS LIKE SO MUCH. its green ok.

i hope my sarcasm didnt hurt you very badly. :D

im bored. wanna blog. oh crap. its way past midnight. its 1am in the MORNING for goodness sake. my precious sleep, there you go again......

today's committee meeting was like, WOW for me lahh. hahaha, but its okay, i managed to do it in the end! yay, haha, and i ate at sumo house today again, THANKS TO RAYMOND, AND HIS BRACES. HAHA :X

argh, im starting to miss ppl like bryan, chong hua, edmund, charlene, nicholas and maybe mathias? so looking forward to cny to seeing them again! hahah, anyway, did i tell you? i went to cine with them and met this super cool + cute bryan's friend named andersson. manxz. hahah.
i miss munyee, daryl and weisheng too! ahhh. but now is like the 'rushing for homework' period. everyone chiong sia. i must be one of them too! went back school today to get my 150bucks (good progress award), saw qutie a few teachers and mrs cheong's teaching me next year while mrs tan is not! LALALAA, worth to celebrate. kekex.
friends friends. some ppl like me think that friends are everything. well, think again, if you're gonna put your trust in them, just ensure its reciprocal, make sure that he/she wont backstab you and betray your trust. be alert, be aware, cos ppl nowadays are no longer real, they tend to put a mask, they're just hypocrite. you know, seen a phoney person before? its disgusting right? so yupp, i've learnt from my mistakes. whenever you think that's your soulmate or you confidant, each time you think you're right, no you maybe no, its hard to guess what ppl meant deeply right inside their heart. i am now gonna pick my true friends wisely and never do stupid things again. i still believe they remain someone important in my every part of life, but i walk this life alone, everything comes to an end, and no friendship really lasts forever. yeah, trust me, that's a fact. count on yourself, dont let others shape you.

many many things to do for this weekend, im gonna survive it. lol. anyway, WATCH 'I AM LEGENG', ITS SO GOOD THAT IT ALMOST MADE ME CRYYYYYYYYY. :D

well, cant believe school is starting...

GUOYI'S IN A BAD MOOD AGAIN, VERY BAD. mood swing? LOL!

crap, why do ppl change? yuck, i dont like it. i mean, i like things to stay things to stay the way it is now but ahh, time flies, and its like, even i think i myself changed. BUT STILL, eeeee, i dont like the way some ppl changed into now.. totally different, becoming so not like them in the past, SO DISGUSTING. why? peer pressure? I HOPE I CAN COPE WITH IT...

ANW, im soo soo sooo pissed. what to do? how? argh, so irritating. keep getting backstabbed by the same person but its okay, let things be, let it be this way, fine! LALALA, whateva, you can talk to my hand :D

anyway, i think edmund is good, what do you think? he's rich.. he's great, he's good-looking and nice. GOSH. im glad to know him!

fine, christmas mood:D
last christmas - ashley tisdale

merry merry christmas. yay, everyone's having a merry christmas, especially me? another year is coming, im gonna leave the past and move on again. its been a great year, im growing up, i've matured again and its just so fun to look back. last christmas was really quite special but i guess this christmas is alot better!

im not angry anymore. im learning anger management. :D nothing shall bother me much now. furthermore, i really thought over sooooooooo many things last night, (THANKING ALOT TO WENDY, MUNYEE & of cos.. FAAZUL!) i've let go alot of things now, feeling like as if i've just put down yet another burden. cool yeah?

well, some things really extremely shocking for me happened ytd. its like, life is great, im contented with everything i have, i dont ask for anything more but it seemed like God wants to play a trick on me, He didnt wanna make my life so peaceful or simple cos maybe He thinks that i deserve something more, so He set some obstacle out there for me, and then i've gotta figure how to deal with it. guess what? i think i made it. no point broading over it since it alr happened, i'll just have to overcome what i least expected. haha, things sound so cheem but its what i wanna say.

Praise the Lord. (:

i so wanted to cry, or am i even crying. i hate you. i hate ppl who hang my call up. i hate to talk bout the past. i hate it when things turn out liddat. YOU SUCK! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. IOJUR ytb9 h d nerya3
$$%&$^$^"!£
IM SO ANGRY

you're the colors in my eyes. :D

rainyy, tiring!
-

as usual, today i met up those mad ppl who made me laugh till i had stomach cramps. those lame ppl im referring too are sheri, hidayah, karthik, HAFIZAH ESPECIALLY, raymond, twins and xiangrui! today went school sell books with them, with haniz too, and the guys, willy, germaine... cool ya? but now i realise how unreasonable some parents are. i mean, i didnt really get really bad ones but poor hidayah who was working beside me got those nasty old folks! hahaha, so today was a rather tiring day, waking up like super early in the morning(to me waking up at 7am in a school holiday is like a torture to me), carrying all the tons and tons of crazy heavy books which like almost made me hunched my back and then i was wearing black, so i perspire like a mad dog. YA, AND I CUT MY FINGER WITH THE BOOKS LA. ee. ): overall, i guess it was fun, hope i get my pay soon! :D went to eat with the peeps afterwards and had great fun chatting, like we always do. we're the crazy ppl.

i dont know, suddenly just now had this feeling... like as if im a betrayal. who knows how it feels like? YUCK, i hate myself, i shouldnt have just walk outta them. its like now here i am with a bunch of friends younger than me by a year. i mean i do feel left out sometimes, but the thing is, i really care if they mind my existence there or not. ahhhh, whateva, no one knows that sucky disgusting side of me. ARGH!

gotta run, later got tuition! *FAINTS* and i know im saying this again but i just gotta say it, I STILL GOT SOME EDITING TO DO FOR MY PROPOSAL, to be really really really really well prepared for 28th dec, and of cos, for the first 3 days of school. I CERTAINLY CANT BELIEVE SEC 4 LIFE IS STARTING IN 2 WEEKS TIME. someone, wake me up!

OH AND raymond's another ONE who flew off to thailand. BUGGER.
** YOU BETTER GET SOMETHING BACK FOR ME ON CHRISTMAS OR ELSE... I'LL MAKE SURE YOU... GET SKINNED ALIVE BY ME. MUAHHAHAHA.

last but not least, those freaking idiotic weird ppl out there to spam/disturb/annoy OR WHATEVA IT IS ppl's blog, err, actually i really suggest you go do something else that will can serve our society, something more worth it INSTEAD OF just wasting your energy/time here. its like, i mean im getting really pissed over these stuff so ya, just maybe... dont push me to limit i warn you first? THANKYOU, i appreciate you kind understanding :)), sorry for any inconvenience caused? LOL








words cant describe how much i want to see you right now, at this very moment, on this very second.

another quote.

flooded everywhere, SADDDDDDDDDDDDDD. so sad. *depression mode*
what hurts the most - rascal flatts

what a long and busy day, i forgot my meals totally.
slept late last night cos of some problems, got very distracted and then didnt finish my editing of the proposals. so tried to make myself wake up early this morning at 9 to finish it. okay, i admit i couldnt stand it and had to sleep. so i only woke up at 1030 when i gotta reach school at 12. man, i still got plenty of work to do! sharks, spent 40min there and then flew outta house. I WAS ACTUALLY PUNCTUAL OKAY.
collected $$ in school from my dearest class leaders, did some rehearsal with the performers and went for meeting with group and amos. wa stress, cos have to get everything done and explained by this last meeting before 28trh. lol, realised so many things not looked into yet, so much of confusion especially with the log team. BETTINA, WHERE'RE YOU?!?!
ya, it was 4 alr before i realise i was the only student in school and then i still had to go office to hand in the big sum of money! *heavy responsibility* did some calculation and guess what, rhings went totally wrong. lol, nvm, long story.
it was still drizzling, felt damn sian, so called raymond to check where and when they meeting. wanted to go home take some money cos im REALLY BROKE AFTER HELPING PPL PAY THE 7.50 SHIRT. FAINTS. its okay, since they're meeting super early, 5pm at mac then i just go ahead and wait for them there. but the person who wanted to meet at 5 actually came at 6pm. how nice of hafizah to make karthik, raymond, sheri and i wait there. we crapped loads though. so went to holland v to eat. ya, waited for joy and sijia at swensen. we really let our imagination ran wild there. it was super funny and enjoying. i really like being with them. we this group of ppl are really budgeted so lives were quite sad for us. we forked, puked out $$ from pockets. lastly, the group of cheapskate ppl went to buy a tub of cookies&cream icecream, koped some spoons from the nearby coffeeshop and then went to somewhere under a HDB block to sit down and enjoy everything. its quite pathetic but at least its simple and all of us liked it. thanks joy for that idea man! its alright 9+! gosh, supposed to be home but ah, look at me, finally a time out with some great buddies so i think i should just enjoy it.

shanghai somemore la, thailand bangkok somemore la.
AHHHHH :'(
sobs
RAWR
sijhgb94n7 6gsdrg
imy.
ily.

THAT'S LIKE RACIAL HARMONY, LOL. (sorrie its blur)

munyee, imy! haha, great quote there ya?

good day.

just a short one here. my hard work paid off. i got awarded a $150(dont rob me, HAHA) because the government had decided that i've improved my overall results this year. imagine my expression while reading the letter cos the last time i got was like... PRIMARY 2! sadded. you know, its like, yupp, i know i jumped from 120+position to 40+position(i think), but as usual, i was never satisfied. i didnt expect my parents to praise me much and never even bothered talking to them bout it till they ask. well, its still great to get praised though. its human behaviour isnt it, everyone likes it that way. alright, now that i got some money, which obviously my mom wont give it to me to spend, shall be my motivation. guoyi's next aim is to be top 10 in level. okay, i know we're having Os next year, im simply indirectly driving myself nuts but if you know me, this is me. im like that. lala, i wont hope for my dream to come true. I SHALL BELIEVE IT WILL COME TRUE. i know it'll come true, if i want it to, right?
& THANK GOD I RECOVERED FROM FEVER. XD i didnt die leh.








have a good day. (:

look at that sunset! one word to describe: awesome. (:

I DONT KNOW LA, IM HAVING FOR FEVER FOR 4DAYS LIAO.
Tearin' up my heart - nsync

as i was saying, im very sick. having a killing sorethroat for 4DAYS ALR. can you imagine? plain porridge everyday. sobs. then my fever's on and off, staying at around 38.5degreeC? *faints* when will it get betterrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I WANNA GO OUT OKAY. i cant do anything if this continues. ):

ANW, im soooooo proud to announce i've this friend called QUAH TING WEN. hahaha, you know who's that? yupp, the 15yrs old girl from RGS. how do i know her? oh, knew her since like pri 1 i think. hahah, cos same sch what. (: yupp, and then the main point is, SHE WON A GOLD IN SWIMMING FOR THE SEA GAMES 2007 OKAY OKAY OKAY. that's like WOA WOW WOA. amazing man, she changed so much i almost cant recognise her. hopefully when she's back from thailand, i got a chance to catch up with her. she's really great. great friend. oh ya, i saw her on news too! but i bet she'll have too many ppl to entertain to and when will it be my turn? haha. furthermore, SHE GOTTA GET READY FOR THE OLYMPICS COMING SOON AT BEIJING! :D

oh and for that idiotic ANONYMOUS AND UNKNOWN CASE, i shall not break my record by banning someone in my cbox. so hmmm, from now onwards, anything they wanna type... WILL BE DELETED BY ME. MUAHAHAHA, ya, FYI: i wont allow anyone to spoil my reputation. TYTY. let's see what you can do then. simply a coward who doesnt even dare to put your name down. OH PLS, dont mess with me darlie.

yupp, referring to someone. (: HEHE

THUNDERSTORM, MY NECK IS ACHING SOOOOOOOOO BADLY.
never let you go - janice

yeah baby, im back! haha, so high. okay, i seriously dont know wazzup with my neck but its making me feel like chopping my head off manzx, so irritating. i cant sleep well with any kind of pillow! argh. insomia -.- okay back to point, i apologise for not taking any photo while im away but its okay, im too lazy to do so. anyway its nothing much la, just late night movie marathon... taking all the thrilling rides. ALL THE USUAL STUFF. hmmm, LALALA, xmas is coming XD

did you peeps miss me? aww, just admit it la. HAHAH, okay sorrie im self entertaining. wheeeeeeeee.







bottled-up.

inspiring quote. (:

GOOD DAY, ZZZZ.
sky - unknown artist!

manzxzxzx, i really didnt sleep well. ): its like, i had 10hrs of sleep, but within that 10hrs, i woke up almost 10times, feeling very uncomfortable, hearing some noise that the mahjong ppl next door are making and then had really really bad dreams. i mean, i did dream of something in reality, but but but, im just not suppose to be dreaming of that fella okay. and usually i thought i wouldnt rmb my dreams after i wake up but amazingly this time round, its different, it just kinda got stuck inside that irritating brain, the stupid head. im feeling so drowsy now, sick. anw, yupp, i had salad just now! haha, own made, tasted quite awful though. hahahaha. okay, im off. this shall probably be my last post for this week and next. i shall get back to studying my jap exam now! muahahaha.

ENTER my HEART. XD


the nightfall is still young, BORED even though supposed to do PROPOSAL NOW.

i dont know why i just felt like blogging. lol. the the the urge. HAHA. okay anyway, today had the first meeting, it went quite well, except that daniel and nicholas werent present. hmmm, amos wasnt around so i took charge of everything. an estimated 2hr meeting in the end dragged on from 1pm till like 4-5? worse still, i wanted to speak to ms carry on, had to find some stuff, so we ended up going to bukit timah plaza with davin, syukri and weelin. cool, had pizza and went home. it really got me thinking man. had a few different proposals to do! RAWR. its okay, i can do it. haha. i should learn how to DELEGATE, really, seriously. haha. so then i must get alot things done by today. many thanks to the others too. LALA, so excited :D:D




hey, to you-know-who:
i hope you know who you are. i dont know i didnt feel like naming you but ya. i really miss you lots. haha, hope you can call me like you used to, cheer me up, tell me a joke like how you used to and play together like we would use to. its okay, nvm, just wanted to say, i'll be here, no matter rain/shine. thank God for your appearance. you maybe nobody, but you made a difference in GuoYi's life.

as you can see, im pretty bored, hence decided to upload some pics. :D

that's Fizah, Joy and i on the bus! (:

sunny, just cried.
sorry, blame it on me - akon

alright, its a friday today. time to update what happened the past 4days, in camp. i wouldnt say this year was any more fun than last year cos we dont have ppl like poornima, yanlin, dinah, yoges, andrew... around. but its okay, i still made friends. this year the instructors are all new too. except that i could still see Shairul, YuFan, Angela, Daniel, Amos and Nigel around. they are all great!

okay, highlight of the camp: magic, service learning.
manzx, i never thought i myself, with these two hands could do some amazing magic but i did! its like. WOW. haha, and yes i did, do it at public, show it some old people who were so happy. i made them smile you know? (:

well, i hate to admit but once a again, i've learnt so much thru this camp again. i always thought camp is all bout having fun but no, thru organising the activities, spending 3days2nights with some new ppl, its really, yeah, you cant help it. i shall not go into detail but the 60 who were part of project SMILE and CLASS camp this year, i bet they know what its like. take a look at what i've learnt:
1. i know my existence DO make a DIFFERENCE.
2. smiling IS healthy.
3. its time to explore other styles of leadership.

im grateful to Amos for enlightening me when im in doubt. i hope i havent been a nuisance to them! i thank my dearest instructor loads too who is none other than Joy! okay, she's really different. she taught me all that i never know. i wouldnt really get to know all that if she's not around. hmm, like she taught me to apologise to my mom and i did. why? cos i havent really been a good girl that's why. but somehow things backfired. the word of sorrie didnt help at all i guess ): and i really dont wanna talk bout it anymore. she made me cry last night.

anyway, like what Amos said, it may be the end of camp but its the beginning to us being leaders. for me, its my 2nd year hearing this but still, i felt like it was my first. i still did learn things. and my advantage is i realised more things than the others. i still enjoyed myself. i still dont mind going thru it again. i reflected a lot. and im really looking forward to school start now. to seeing those new faces in school. my dear sec 1s. i mean, i didnt really like NTSS but i dont know why im contributing so much. all my time, everything, i hope it doesnt go down to waste. i hope im appreciated. i never thought i could be the chairperson but i did. so you can too.

YUM YUM, SUSHI CRAVINGS DRIVE GUOYI NUTS :D

SUNNY, im melting.
the rose - westlife?

FINALLY. its like a stone. no, a huge rock. a heavy burden. rushing my proposal. i must be mad! its only a few hr activity, part of the camp, i alr gan chiong. how to handle the sec 1 orientation liddat? lol. tired. didnt have enough sleep now and then. first had the school, exam, exhibition stuff then now camp. ppl said i look pale okay! so should i go for tonight's bbq? tmr's softball camp? my mom's like: anything la, up to you. obviously i wanna go, but its like i feel kinda left out, im really scared it will turn out to how i imagine it to be. so how?

i think she's recovering. so glad. thanks those who are there to support at this period of time. (:






life still sucks. still.

what a long road, i wish i never have to walk alone.


EVERYTHING IS UPSIDE DOWN NOW.
simple&clean - utada hikaru


yupp, i've to agree. fcuk everything bout life. life now. my life. life sucks.
when i do all the right things, nobody seems to care.
but when i do it wrong, everyone bothers.
what logic is this?



im never gonna put my trust in you anymore. you dont deserve them.
Thank God for letting me see you. the real you.

friends... y.p.g.


cloudy, im still me.
far away, nickelback


then everything's back to normal. maybe for me, for now. cos it just feels this way. i tried to face the fact, be strong and hold the tears back but nar, its not that easy like what you think. who knows how it feels like? like... to be the only one there, seeing you bestie lying in pain and you cant do anything to help? do you understand? can you imagine all that i've gone thru? those scenes are haunting me, those nightmares never seem to go away. why did it happen? how did i allow it? what did i do as a role of a friend? am i really that useless? i didnt do my part. my friend is hurt and i wasnt there to protect her. everything's so unexpected, i wish someone can wake me up and tell me, 'ah, no worries, it was all a dream.' i wish someone can answer all my questions, clear all my doubts. i wish God can turn back the time for me, and let me talk to her again and i swear i'll never it happen. at least not for now, to all the ppl around me.





you say get a life. what's a life exactly? what's your kinda life?


cherish the people around you. for you never know what's gonna happen next. like ppl always say evil things but never thought of the consequences. but now i know. how much it can mean just by saying 'go&die' to someone sensitive. but anyway, praise Him for watching after her. she WILL be fine. (let's hope.) punish me for all the sins i've done for i deserve them. can we all just pray hard together? read a short prayer for her and maybe you'll be forgiven.





treasure life.


for a moment. i know what it really meant when you say only true friends will be there in time when you need them. but i wonder if she saw it. now i see who're the ones who've been a hypocrite, putting up a fake front, being a fake friend. but its okay. all these arent important to me anymore. who cares. i dont know so many things. i only know that, within 3 years, despite all the ups and downs we've gone thru, she's someone with some status in my heart.

I THINK I WENT CRAZY WITH MATHEMATICS. :D


pretty well, backache!
journey - angela zhang


nice song. :D will get posting done very quickly cos its alr past midnight and i should be in dreamland since im meeting SOMEONE early in the morning on a holiday at school. goodness, sacrificing my precious sleep, how lucky can he get? tsk tsk.

just some summary...
hmm, life's been great. busy with the EOYs and i hope i'll do fine... its over so i dont really wanna think bout it. gotta work with my chinese now for my O level paper approaching in two weeks time. on the other hand, im also rather busy organising stuff in school and things like that. gotta get a life man. haha.

yeah. everytime i said i would give up, i dont. cos im just a perfectionist but for your case, oh sorrie, i know i have to. you're simply hopeless, you're probably just someone who happened to walk into my heart the other day and even with the footprints you left behind, i would wipe them off. my heart just isnt meant for people like you. at least not for someone who doesnt care, who doesnt even bother calling me up just to put a smile on my face on one of my suckiest days, not like how you used to. perhaps you're just making use of me and i gotta accept it. im being thrown away after a while, after being toyed with and then got bored with. its not my fault that i cant satisfy you you know? let me tell you this: i shall not brood over the past we had together, my friend for i know there must be those lousy reasons how you cant even make it to my future. try harder okay?

windy, headache.
if everyone cared - nickelback

my headache must have came from not drying my hair just now. rhumetism!! (i hope i spelled that right...)

viddy, my mommy cum employer... i dont know but i just suddenly missed you... hope you're reading this cos after reading your blog, i really felt useless... i've always treated you as my bestie and yet i didnt do anything bout it, only allowing you to feel that way, so left out, lonely and everything else... i lost my job... cos i failed to make you smile... girl, things've changed... let's put those unhappiness away and let them fade but maybe we can still keep those sweet lovely memories up there... you gotta walk outta all these and stand up on your feet by yourself again... im sure you can do it... & if ever you need me... you know i'll be there. yeah? a phone call away. anything, we can talk bout anything under the sun like how we used to okay? i really really love you lots. i dont know what else to say... but you know me yes you know... cos deep down, im still guilty for those that i've done... girl, i know its been countless times but still i wanna say this... im sorrie, it was, has and had always been my fault to break you guys up. nothing can make me undo the mistake anymore, seeing you or her makes my heart break now. girl, i'll never forgive myself for that... rmb how we used to eat fish noodles at the hawker centre in clementi with a cup of ice milo? ((: <33 that's something im gonna keep in my heart forever

hot, sick&SLEEPY/weak.
far away - nickelback

yeah, i've been on this page for quite some time before i started typing anything. my mind went blank but i knew its been weeks since i blogged. okay, i really had a bad day today.

i failed my higher mother tongue test this term. i thought you're supposed to deserve what you really work hard for but not for my case... it really discouraged me alot.. i did study and look what's happening? i even aimed for and A. do you know how it feels like? i was on the verge of saying, fine, im gonna give up my mother tongue budden i held back my words. i cant do that. its my mother tongue afterall. hello, i used to look down on ppl who cant even speak their mother tongue properly and im not gonna become one of them... yes, so i'll continue mugging for it and prove to myself i can do it! man, anyone, motivation pls? hahaha

i really missed those primary school days, bwahh.

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared

In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cos true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said

In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner though it rains

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
Cos true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:

1. cash
2. good result&then go NJ
3. make more frenzyy
4. a proper family reunion dinner!
5. to be with my darling forever and ever and everrrrr and ever

Answer the following questions:

1. The person who tag you is?
LEUNG YANWAH! *thanks ah.*

2. Your relationship with him/her is?
primary 3-6classmates, besties :D

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
jiasheng. (: cute. rich. english. direct.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
when we exchanged experiences about our ex-bfs

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
girl, anytime, you know i'll be there, just a phone call/sms away. :p

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
ph pusease she already is.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
her figure.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
that's impossible so dont bother asking!

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
like i say.. ITS IMPOSSIBLE SO STOP ASKING

10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
ask her out for dinner, tell her how much i treasure her...

11.Your overall impression of him/her is?
someone really good to confide in

12.How you think people around you will feel about you?
attitude prob?

13.The character you love of yourself are?
i simply love to sleep. yeah, sleep.

14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
i like to get involved in too many things... too perfectionist.

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
maria carey. her voice is too perfect for me.

16.Pass this quiz to 10 persons.
1: munyee!
2: daryl?
3: poornima
4: viddy
5: weisheng
6: dean
7: tim?
8: my sister, that is if she read this.
9: ian
10: henglun

17.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
err, with his guitar? lol.

18.Is no.9 a male or female?
well... a male on the outside, but female deep inside.

19.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
HAHAHHAHA, arent they always together playing?

20.How about no.8 and 5?
goodness, both told me they got their secret admirer alr.

21.What is no.2 studying about?
daryl? to me he's studying all bout NPCC. omg.

22. when was the last time you chat with no. 3?
one second ago?

23.What kind of music band does no.8 like?
good question. B-L-U-E.

24.Does no.1 has any siblings?
yeahh, her beloved sis, and bro. (:

25.Will you woo no.3?
oh err, maybe next life?

26.Is no.4 single?
i guess so

27.What's the surname of no.5?
TEO weisheng.

28.What's the hobby of no.4?
PLAY SOFTBALL! study? slack arnd, sleep and... go running? oh ya, chew on something.

29.Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
ya, both my buddy, they'll.

30.Where is no.2 studying at?
NEW TOWN SECONDARY SCHOOL!

31.Talk something casually about no.1?
HE MIN ER.

32.Have you try developing feelings for no.8?
oh err, i alr have some feelings for her. (:

33.Where does no.9 live at?
bouna vista?

34.What color does no.4 like?
WAIT, i think its... blue?

35.Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
oh cmon, they're mother and son r'ship.

36.Does no.7 likes no.2?
they really do love playing together.

37.How do you get to know no.2?
class mates? primary school mates too...

38.Does no.1 have any pets?
doubt. her skin is too sensitive. what can she have? perhaps fish? haha. UH, I RMB, SHE DOES HAVE A PET SPIDER.

39.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
sensitive one here... hehe. alright, honest ans: YES.

yeahh, maybe im depressed, deep deep inside, but yet again, maybe.


good, okay.
someday - nickelback


suddenly its so quiet and its making me feel uncomfortable. i dont quite like the silence. its not exactly scary. its more like making me feel lonely. its my weak point. fear of being alone.

ups and downs in life taught me how to grow. grow through the pain and the bad memories. also to grow and learn new things, make new friends, and lead a worthful life. while walking down this path, i do look back once in a while. smile at how silly i used to be and cry when i knew that i cant change the fact. even though there are times when i really hate to let go and move on, i've learnt that its part and parcel of life. no point clinging on to something that's not coming back. i promise to grow stronger each time i get hurt and i did it. i have. i knew it. i overcame it. i dont wanna be the coward who always hide inside the shell like a tortoise. i'll there when you need me... despite knowing that it may not be reciprocal. its okay, i just wanna be someone there to ans your call, to cheer you up when you're feeling low, let you scream at or let a shoulder or a hand. but will you be there to share your joy too?



so what if we were best friends? that has already become a past tense.
you just dont know how much it hurts me, baby.

& i hope it'll be a happy ending this time round...


freezing, heavy.
what hurts the most - rascal flatts


been blogging with long intervals in between now. its either i studied too much, or i have grown lazier.

school was pretty short today, and there's supposed to be training but i visited the doctor and got two days of MC. i think i needa send him to the IMH. he didnt really gimme any medication but instead claim that im simply too stressed up and i need more exercise. first word that came to my mind: JOKE. well, what an interesting doctor i have visited...

nothing much happened these days. its just school, then back home or else softball. what else? studying, slacking and sleeping. my favourite 3S. haha. ohh, yeah, and i also picked up a pastime - BLUSHING. okay, ask around, i've been blushing pratically almost everyday. no wonder so heaty. no wonder i'll feel GONG GONG. so guys, STOP BULLYING/TEASING me. my blood needs to flow, furthermore, IM BORN WEAK, dont let me suffer anymore heart attack/shock.


so many things to say, yet so little time.
so many feelings to express, yet none can understand.
sometimes its rather funny how you see you exbfs become the best of friends..., yeah?

munyee, i know you want these: (:








dark clouds everywhere, pissed?
crazy - simple man


and this song is really driving me crazy, resounding in my heart. okay, i know its quite easy but just imagine me in that voice! omg, i sound so out of tune la... yuck


i really need a check up... kept blushing at the wrong time for the past week... at times when i shouldnt... at times it make me so awkward. i thought you would only blush when you're embarrassed but i blushed to embarrass myself... hmm, probably im heaty and my blood is climbing upstairs. haha. what to do? he's the only guy whom i'll keep turning into a strawberry or a tomato, perhaps an apple for. i know you wont believe it until you see it. its instant! just ask munyee how it goes like... its EVERYTIME. haha. i didnt believe it too... till it happened consecutively straight for 5 times in a row, i cant help it, im sorrie.
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO SURVIVE THIS

unhappy things happened past two days. i mean, i find them quite unpleasant... well, kept hearing things i dont wanna hear... and then finding out truths that hurt me a little and is gonna make me hurt someone alot more. how? someone teach me... i wanna lie... i tried to ignore... but its forcing me to my limit already... maybe, maybe i will KABOOM&explode. yeahh, maybe.







sometimes i wonder if you're the perfect one.
cos you're too good for me.