Missing Me.

I love the way it feels when you touch my hand
Don't wanna let you go

haven't been going to school for more than a week already! missing in action, lol. missed me, anyone? :D BUT I'LL BE GOING BACK TMRRRRR

Don't understand why we can't go on and go on
Don't understand why

Friday.
taught Yulenda Chemistry. the whole of organic ok. you know Yulenda. haha, but well, i got to learn things from the basic all over again. (:

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight
Would you come back to me

Saturday.
Mommy's nice. went Bugis' temple. prayed! lol, and then she said we would catch a movie to destress. HAHA, that show's really good you know. OH, AND I LOVE MY MOM, she actually got herself and i a new bag. lol, maybe cos its on offer. but still, unbelievable.

Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me

Tuesday.
didn't study much. went to MiaoLing's birthday picnic. lol, was fun, got to see many people. yeah, Botanic Garden was fun. oh ya, i like my new green tank top! so is the pair of ripples slippers! lol, thanks Justin and Isabel for helping me pick them. shopping is good! :D

It's funny how my heart just won't let it go
I just don't understand

Today.
BABY SWEETHEART DARLING YULENDA TOH'S SWEET 16! her mommy's just as sweet. made chicken wings and bee hoon for us ok. so super delicious can then talk talk talk. they left and we studied. her little cousin's cute! she 'treated' me to dinner while more wallet got damaged! so heartbroken. checked out some prom dresses and headed home.

It's crazy how the pain seems to overflow
The memories of you here with me by my side
I can't deny that you are the love of my life

promise im gonna stay determined and bury those memories together with the old you. cos that's all i can do. and GOOD FOR YOU is all you can say. boy, its not me and my fucked up pride. cos i gave you umpteen chance and since you ain't treasuring them, then FINE. you don't even realize your mistake. so maybe you should go think bout it. is all that people you called friends worth after all? like, letting them influence you, change you? you used to tell me how much you love me. I SERIOUSLY DOUBT IT NOW. all you and your lies. i really wanna be your friend now. i know you wont be THAT petty right? i don't know what's wrong but things would definitely turn out better. like you, back to your friends, and me, back to being busy. i ain't gonna be some thick-skinned and bug you anymore OK? maybe you would prefer it that way? you'll be happy right? you're so selfish. you want me but you don't wanna say. you tell me to wait. but you think its easy? you didn't even give me a glimpse of hope. i don't care anymore. but still, thanks for all you've done. im gonna start anew. if you don't like this decision of mine, TELL ME. go ahead and say it all out. cos you told me the problem lies when i do not talk. now, i never stop expressing how i feel but you? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING? keeping silent? keeping it all to yourself? what, scared that your friends will look down on you? afraid? ya, probably you're. alright, whatever it is. we're on separate ways now. don't want anything to do with you ANYMORE

yes, i don't love you no more.

its okay if i'm lying to myself, cos at least i'm trying my best.

And I still cry for you
And I would die for you
I can't believe all the words I heard you say
And I still long for you
And I was strong for you
I can't believe that you'd throw it all away