five years?

you held it up high, and throw it down. you broke that fragile heart. ouch. even though I'm feeling it all over again. it feels so different.
you came and you left. everything just went by so quickly. and all i can do now. is to look back.
i thought a thousand tears could heal my wound. no it didn't. instead, it blinded my eyes. i no longer see things as it is. i drown myself in memories that i should not have.
i know, i know how it feels like to be holding onto the phone. and then waiting for a call, waiting for a message. waiting and waiting.
i don't want to anymore.
so painful. knowing that you're there. but i cant do anything. watch you live your life happily, watch every of your day pass cheerfully. will i be able to survive this?

its taking me just so much courage to say this:

We've run out of words we've run out of time
We've run out of reasons really why we together
We both know it's over baby bottom line
It's best we don't even talk at all

Don't call me even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messages
Let's just call it quits it's probably better