another quote.

flooded everywhere, SADDDDDDDDDDDDDD. so sad. *depression mode*
what hurts the most - rascal flatts

what a long and busy day, i forgot my meals totally.
slept late last night cos of some problems, got very distracted and then didnt finish my editing of the proposals. so tried to make myself wake up early this morning at 9 to finish it. okay, i admit i couldnt stand it and had to sleep. so i only woke up at 1030 when i gotta reach school at 12. man, i still got plenty of work to do! sharks, spent 40min there and then flew outta house. I WAS ACTUALLY PUNCTUAL OKAY.
collected $$ in school from my dearest class leaders, did some rehearsal with the performers and went for meeting with group and amos. wa stress, cos have to get everything done and explained by this last meeting before 28trh. lol, realised so many things not looked into yet, so much of confusion especially with the log team. BETTINA, WHERE'RE YOU?!?!
ya, it was 4 alr before i realise i was the only student in school and then i still had to go office to hand in the big sum of money! *heavy responsibility* did some calculation and guess what, rhings went totally wrong. lol, nvm, long story.
it was still drizzling, felt damn sian, so called raymond to check where and when they meeting. wanted to go home take some money cos im REALLY BROKE AFTER HELPING PPL PAY THE 7.50 SHIRT. FAINTS. its okay, since they're meeting super early, 5pm at mac then i just go ahead and wait for them there. but the person who wanted to meet at 5 actually came at 6pm. how nice of hafizah to make karthik, raymond, sheri and i wait there. we crapped loads though. so went to holland v to eat. ya, waited for joy and sijia at swensen. we really let our imagination ran wild there. it was super funny and enjoying. i really like being with them. we this group of ppl are really budgeted so lives were quite sad for us. we forked, puked out $$ from pockets. lastly, the group of cheapskate ppl went to buy a tub of cookies&cream icecream, koped some spoons from the nearby coffeeshop and then went to somewhere under a HDB block to sit down and enjoy everything. its quite pathetic but at least its simple and all of us liked it. thanks joy for that idea man! its alright 9+! gosh, supposed to be home but ah, look at me, finally a time out with some great buddies so i think i should just enjoy it.

shanghai somemore la, thailand bangkok somemore la.
AHHHHH :'(
sobs
RAWR
sijhgb94n7 6gsdrg
imy.
ily.

THAT'S LIKE RACIAL HARMONY, LOL. (sorrie its blur)

munyee, imy! haha, great quote there ya?

good day.

just a short one here. my hard work paid off. i got awarded a $150(dont rob me, HAHA) because the government had decided that i've improved my overall results this year. imagine my expression while reading the letter cos the last time i got was like... PRIMARY 2! sadded. you know, its like, yupp, i know i jumped from 120+position to 40+position(i think), but as usual, i was never satisfied. i didnt expect my parents to praise me much and never even bothered talking to them bout it till they ask. well, its still great to get praised though. its human behaviour isnt it, everyone likes it that way. alright, now that i got some money, which obviously my mom wont give it to me to spend, shall be my motivation. guoyi's next aim is to be top 10 in level. okay, i know we're having Os next year, im simply indirectly driving myself nuts but if you know me, this is me. im like that. lala, i wont hope for my dream to come true. I SHALL BELIEVE IT WILL COME TRUE. i know it'll come true, if i want it to, right?
& THANK GOD I RECOVERED FROM FEVER. XD i didnt die leh.








have a good day. (:

look at that sunset! one word to describe: awesome. (:

I DONT KNOW LA, IM HAVING FOR FEVER FOR 4DAYS LIAO.
Tearin' up my heart - nsync

as i was saying, im very sick. having a killing sorethroat for 4DAYS ALR. can you imagine? plain porridge everyday. sobs. then my fever's on and off, staying at around 38.5degreeC? *faints* when will it get betterrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I WANNA GO OUT OKAY. i cant do anything if this continues. ):

ANW, im soooooo proud to announce i've this friend called QUAH TING WEN. hahaha, you know who's that? yupp, the 15yrs old girl from RGS. how do i know her? oh, knew her since like pri 1 i think. hahah, cos same sch what. (: yupp, and then the main point is, SHE WON A GOLD IN SWIMMING FOR THE SEA GAMES 2007 OKAY OKAY OKAY. that's like WOA WOW WOA. amazing man, she changed so much i almost cant recognise her. hopefully when she's back from thailand, i got a chance to catch up with her. she's really great. great friend. oh ya, i saw her on news too! but i bet she'll have too many ppl to entertain to and when will it be my turn? haha. furthermore, SHE GOTTA GET READY FOR THE OLYMPICS COMING SOON AT BEIJING! :D

oh and for that idiotic ANONYMOUS AND UNKNOWN CASE, i shall not break my record by banning someone in my cbox. so hmmm, from now onwards, anything they wanna type... WILL BE DELETED BY ME. MUAHAHAHA, ya, FYI: i wont allow anyone to spoil my reputation. TYTY. let's see what you can do then. simply a coward who doesnt even dare to put your name down. OH PLS, dont mess with me darlie.

yupp, referring to someone. (: HEHE

THUNDERSTORM, MY NECK IS ACHING SOOOOOOOOO BADLY.
never let you go - janice

yeah baby, im back! haha, so high. okay, i seriously dont know wazzup with my neck but its making me feel like chopping my head off manzx, so irritating. i cant sleep well with any kind of pillow! argh. insomia -.- okay back to point, i apologise for not taking any photo while im away but its okay, im too lazy to do so. anyway its nothing much la, just late night movie marathon... taking all the thrilling rides. ALL THE USUAL STUFF. hmmm, LALALA, xmas is coming XD

did you peeps miss me? aww, just admit it la. HAHAH, okay sorrie im self entertaining. wheeeeeeeee.







bottled-up.

inspiring quote. (:

GOOD DAY, ZZZZ.
sky - unknown artist!

manzxzxzx, i really didnt sleep well. ): its like, i had 10hrs of sleep, but within that 10hrs, i woke up almost 10times, feeling very uncomfortable, hearing some noise that the mahjong ppl next door are making and then had really really bad dreams. i mean, i did dream of something in reality, but but but, im just not suppose to be dreaming of that fella okay. and usually i thought i wouldnt rmb my dreams after i wake up but amazingly this time round, its different, it just kinda got stuck inside that irritating brain, the stupid head. im feeling so drowsy now, sick. anw, yupp, i had salad just now! haha, own made, tasted quite awful though. hahahaha. okay, im off. this shall probably be my last post for this week and next. i shall get back to studying my jap exam now! muahahaha.

ENTER my HEART. XD


the nightfall is still young, BORED even though supposed to do PROPOSAL NOW.

i dont know why i just felt like blogging. lol. the the the urge. HAHA. okay anyway, today had the first meeting, it went quite well, except that daniel and nicholas werent present. hmmm, amos wasnt around so i took charge of everything. an estimated 2hr meeting in the end dragged on from 1pm till like 4-5? worse still, i wanted to speak to ms carry on, had to find some stuff, so we ended up going to bukit timah plaza with davin, syukri and weelin. cool, had pizza and went home. it really got me thinking man. had a few different proposals to do! RAWR. its okay, i can do it. haha. i should learn how to DELEGATE, really, seriously. haha. so then i must get alot things done by today. many thanks to the others too. LALA, so excited :D:D




hey, to you-know-who:
i hope you know who you are. i dont know i didnt feel like naming you but ya. i really miss you lots. haha, hope you can call me like you used to, cheer me up, tell me a joke like how you used to and play together like we would use to. its okay, nvm, just wanted to say, i'll be here, no matter rain/shine. thank God for your appearance. you maybe nobody, but you made a difference in GuoYi's life.

as you can see, im pretty bored, hence decided to upload some pics. :D

that's Fizah, Joy and i on the bus! (:

sunny, just cried.
sorry, blame it on me - akon

alright, its a friday today. time to update what happened the past 4days, in camp. i wouldnt say this year was any more fun than last year cos we dont have ppl like poornima, yanlin, dinah, yoges, andrew... around. but its okay, i still made friends. this year the instructors are all new too. except that i could still see Shairul, YuFan, Angela, Daniel, Amos and Nigel around. they are all great!

okay, highlight of the camp: magic, service learning.
manzx, i never thought i myself, with these two hands could do some amazing magic but i did! its like. WOW. haha, and yes i did, do it at public, show it some old people who were so happy. i made them smile you know? (:

well, i hate to admit but once a again, i've learnt so much thru this camp again. i always thought camp is all bout having fun but no, thru organising the activities, spending 3days2nights with some new ppl, its really, yeah, you cant help it. i shall not go into detail but the 60 who were part of project SMILE and CLASS camp this year, i bet they know what its like. take a look at what i've learnt:
1. i know my existence DO make a DIFFERENCE.
2. smiling IS healthy.
3. its time to explore other styles of leadership.

im grateful to Amos for enlightening me when im in doubt. i hope i havent been a nuisance to them! i thank my dearest instructor loads too who is none other than Joy! okay, she's really different. she taught me all that i never know. i wouldnt really get to know all that if she's not around. hmm, like she taught me to apologise to my mom and i did. why? cos i havent really been a good girl that's why. but somehow things backfired. the word of sorrie didnt help at all i guess ): and i really dont wanna talk bout it anymore. she made me cry last night.

anyway, like what Amos said, it may be the end of camp but its the beginning to us being leaders. for me, its my 2nd year hearing this but still, i felt like it was my first. i still did learn things. and my advantage is i realised more things than the others. i still enjoyed myself. i still dont mind going thru it again. i reflected a lot. and im really looking forward to school start now. to seeing those new faces in school. my dear sec 1s. i mean, i didnt really like NTSS but i dont know why im contributing so much. all my time, everything, i hope it doesnt go down to waste. i hope im appreciated. i never thought i could be the chairperson but i did. so you can too.

YUM YUM, SUSHI CRAVINGS DRIVE GUOYI NUTS :D

SUNNY, im melting.
the rose - westlife?

FINALLY. its like a stone. no, a huge rock. a heavy burden. rushing my proposal. i must be mad! its only a few hr activity, part of the camp, i alr gan chiong. how to handle the sec 1 orientation liddat? lol. tired. didnt have enough sleep now and then. first had the school, exam, exhibition stuff then now camp. ppl said i look pale okay! so should i go for tonight's bbq? tmr's softball camp? my mom's like: anything la, up to you. obviously i wanna go, but its like i feel kinda left out, im really scared it will turn out to how i imagine it to be. so how?

i think she's recovering. so glad. thanks those who are there to support at this period of time. (:






life still sucks. still.

what a long road, i wish i never have to walk alone.


EVERYTHING IS UPSIDE DOWN NOW.
simple&clean - utada hikaru


yupp, i've to agree. fcuk everything bout life. life now. my life. life sucks.
when i do all the right things, nobody seems to care.
but when i do it wrong, everyone bothers.
what logic is this?



im never gonna put my trust in you anymore. you dont deserve them.
Thank God for letting me see you. the real you.

friends... y.p.g.


cloudy, im still me.
far away, nickelback


then everything's back to normal. maybe for me, for now. cos it just feels this way. i tried to face the fact, be strong and hold the tears back but nar, its not that easy like what you think. who knows how it feels like? like... to be the only one there, seeing you bestie lying in pain and you cant do anything to help? do you understand? can you imagine all that i've gone thru? those scenes are haunting me, those nightmares never seem to go away. why did it happen? how did i allow it? what did i do as a role of a friend? am i really that useless? i didnt do my part. my friend is hurt and i wasnt there to protect her. everything's so unexpected, i wish someone can wake me up and tell me, 'ah, no worries, it was all a dream.' i wish someone can answer all my questions, clear all my doubts. i wish God can turn back the time for me, and let me talk to her again and i swear i'll never it happen. at least not for now, to all the ppl around me.





you say get a life. what's a life exactly? what's your kinda life?


cherish the people around you. for you never know what's gonna happen next. like ppl always say evil things but never thought of the consequences. but now i know. how much it can mean just by saying 'go&die' to someone sensitive. but anyway, praise Him for watching after her. she WILL be fine. (let's hope.) punish me for all the sins i've done for i deserve them. can we all just pray hard together? read a short prayer for her and maybe you'll be forgiven.





treasure life.


for a moment. i know what it really meant when you say only true friends will be there in time when you need them. but i wonder if she saw it. now i see who're the ones who've been a hypocrite, putting up a fake front, being a fake friend. but its okay. all these arent important to me anymore. who cares. i dont know so many things. i only know that, within 3 years, despite all the ups and downs we've gone thru, she's someone with some status in my heart.

I THINK I WENT CRAZY WITH MATHEMATICS. :D


pretty well, backache!
journey - angela zhang


nice song. :D will get posting done very quickly cos its alr past midnight and i should be in dreamland since im meeting SOMEONE early in the morning on a holiday at school. goodness, sacrificing my precious sleep, how lucky can he get? tsk tsk.

just some summary...
hmm, life's been great. busy with the EOYs and i hope i'll do fine... its over so i dont really wanna think bout it. gotta work with my chinese now for my O level paper approaching in two weeks time. on the other hand, im also rather busy organising stuff in school and things like that. gotta get a life man. haha.

yeah. everytime i said i would give up, i dont. cos im just a perfectionist but for your case, oh sorrie, i know i have to. you're simply hopeless, you're probably just someone who happened to walk into my heart the other day and even with the footprints you left behind, i would wipe them off. my heart just isnt meant for people like you. at least not for someone who doesnt care, who doesnt even bother calling me up just to put a smile on my face on one of my suckiest days, not like how you used to. perhaps you're just making use of me and i gotta accept it. im being thrown away after a while, after being toyed with and then got bored with. its not my fault that i cant satisfy you you know? let me tell you this: i shall not brood over the past we had together, my friend for i know there must be those lousy reasons how you cant even make it to my future. try harder okay?

windy, headache.
if everyone cared - nickelback

my headache must have came from not drying my hair just now. rhumetism!! (i hope i spelled that right...)

viddy, my mommy cum employer... i dont know but i just suddenly missed you... hope you're reading this cos after reading your blog, i really felt useless... i've always treated you as my bestie and yet i didnt do anything bout it, only allowing you to feel that way, so left out, lonely and everything else... i lost my job... cos i failed to make you smile... girl, things've changed... let's put those unhappiness away and let them fade but maybe we can still keep those sweet lovely memories up there... you gotta walk outta all these and stand up on your feet by yourself again... im sure you can do it... & if ever you need me... you know i'll be there. yeah? a phone call away. anything, we can talk bout anything under the sun like how we used to okay? i really really love you lots. i dont know what else to say... but you know me yes you know... cos deep down, im still guilty for those that i've done... girl, i know its been countless times but still i wanna say this... im sorrie, it was, has and had always been my fault to break you guys up. nothing can make me undo the mistake anymore, seeing you or her makes my heart break now. girl, i'll never forgive myself for that... rmb how we used to eat fish noodles at the hawker centre in clementi with a cup of ice milo? ((: <33 that's something im gonna keep in my heart forever

hot, sick&SLEEPY/weak.
far away - nickelback

yeah, i've been on this page for quite some time before i started typing anything. my mind went blank but i knew its been weeks since i blogged. okay, i really had a bad day today.

i failed my higher mother tongue test this term. i thought you're supposed to deserve what you really work hard for but not for my case... it really discouraged me alot.. i did study and look what's happening? i even aimed for and A. do you know how it feels like? i was on the verge of saying, fine, im gonna give up my mother tongue budden i held back my words. i cant do that. its my mother tongue afterall. hello, i used to look down on ppl who cant even speak their mother tongue properly and im not gonna become one of them... yes, so i'll continue mugging for it and prove to myself i can do it! man, anyone, motivation pls? hahaha

i really missed those primary school days, bwahh.

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared

In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cos true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said

In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner though it rains

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
Cos true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:

1. cash
2. good result&then go NJ
3. make more frenzyy
4. a proper family reunion dinner!
5. to be with my darling forever and ever and everrrrr and ever

Answer the following questions:

1. The person who tag you is?
LEUNG YANWAH! *thanks ah.*

2. Your relationship with him/her is?
primary 3-6classmates, besties :D

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
jiasheng. (: cute. rich. english. direct.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
when we exchanged experiences about our ex-bfs

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
girl, anytime, you know i'll be there, just a phone call/sms away. :p

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
ph pusease she already is.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
her figure.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
that's impossible so dont bother asking!

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
like i say.. ITS IMPOSSIBLE SO STOP ASKING

10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
ask her out for dinner, tell her how much i treasure her...

11.Your overall impression of him/her is?
someone really good to confide in

12.How you think people around you will feel about you?
attitude prob?

13.The character you love of yourself are?
i simply love to sleep. yeah, sleep.

14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
i like to get involved in too many things... too perfectionist.

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
maria carey. her voice is too perfect for me.

16.Pass this quiz to 10 persons.
1: munyee!
2: daryl?
3: poornima
4: viddy
5: weisheng
6: dean
7: tim?
8: my sister, that is if she read this.
9: ian
10: henglun

17.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
err, with his guitar? lol.

18.Is no.9 a male or female?
well... a male on the outside, but female deep inside.

19.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
HAHAHHAHA, arent they always together playing?

20.How about no.8 and 5?
goodness, both told me they got their secret admirer alr.

21.What is no.2 studying about?
daryl? to me he's studying all bout NPCC. omg.

22. when was the last time you chat with no. 3?
one second ago?

23.What kind of music band does no.8 like?
good question. B-L-U-E.

24.Does no.1 has any siblings?
yeahh, her beloved sis, and bro. (:

25.Will you woo no.3?
oh err, maybe next life?

26.Is no.4 single?
i guess so

27.What's the surname of no.5?
TEO weisheng.

28.What's the hobby of no.4?
PLAY SOFTBALL! study? slack arnd, sleep and... go running? oh ya, chew on something.

29.Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
ya, both my buddy, they'll.

30.Where is no.2 studying at?
NEW TOWN SECONDARY SCHOOL!

31.Talk something casually about no.1?
HE MIN ER.

32.Have you try developing feelings for no.8?
oh err, i alr have some feelings for her. (:

33.Where does no.9 live at?
bouna vista?

34.What color does no.4 like?
WAIT, i think its... blue?

35.Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
oh cmon, they're mother and son r'ship.

36.Does no.7 likes no.2?
they really do love playing together.

37.How do you get to know no.2?
class mates? primary school mates too...

38.Does no.1 have any pets?
doubt. her skin is too sensitive. what can she have? perhaps fish? haha. UH, I RMB, SHE DOES HAVE A PET SPIDER.

39.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
sensitive one here... hehe. alright, honest ans: YES.

yeahh, maybe im depressed, deep deep inside, but yet again, maybe.


good, okay.
someday - nickelback


suddenly its so quiet and its making me feel uncomfortable. i dont quite like the silence. its not exactly scary. its more like making me feel lonely. its my weak point. fear of being alone.

ups and downs in life taught me how to grow. grow through the pain and the bad memories. also to grow and learn new things, make new friends, and lead a worthful life. while walking down this path, i do look back once in a while. smile at how silly i used to be and cry when i knew that i cant change the fact. even though there are times when i really hate to let go and move on, i've learnt that its part and parcel of life. no point clinging on to something that's not coming back. i promise to grow stronger each time i get hurt and i did it. i have. i knew it. i overcame it. i dont wanna be the coward who always hide inside the shell like a tortoise. i'll there when you need me... despite knowing that it may not be reciprocal. its okay, i just wanna be someone there to ans your call, to cheer you up when you're feeling low, let you scream at or let a shoulder or a hand. but will you be there to share your joy too?



so what if we were best friends? that has already become a past tense.
you just dont know how much it hurts me, baby.

& i hope it'll be a happy ending this time round...


freezing, heavy.
what hurts the most - rascal flatts


been blogging with long intervals in between now. its either i studied too much, or i have grown lazier.

school was pretty short today, and there's supposed to be training but i visited the doctor and got two days of MC. i think i needa send him to the IMH. he didnt really gimme any medication but instead claim that im simply too stressed up and i need more exercise. first word that came to my mind: JOKE. well, what an interesting doctor i have visited...

nothing much happened these days. its just school, then back home or else softball. what else? studying, slacking and sleeping. my favourite 3S. haha. ohh, yeah, and i also picked up a pastime - BLUSHING. okay, ask around, i've been blushing pratically almost everyday. no wonder so heaty. no wonder i'll feel GONG GONG. so guys, STOP BULLYING/TEASING me. my blood needs to flow, furthermore, IM BORN WEAK, dont let me suffer anymore heart attack/shock.


so many things to say, yet so little time.
so many feelings to express, yet none can understand.
sometimes its rather funny how you see you exbfs become the best of friends..., yeah?

munyee, i know you want these: (:








dark clouds everywhere, pissed?
crazy - simple man


and this song is really driving me crazy, resounding in my heart. okay, i know its quite easy but just imagine me in that voice! omg, i sound so out of tune la... yuck


i really need a check up... kept blushing at the wrong time for the past week... at times when i shouldnt... at times it make me so awkward. i thought you would only blush when you're embarrassed but i blushed to embarrass myself... hmm, probably im heaty and my blood is climbing upstairs. haha. what to do? he's the only guy whom i'll keep turning into a strawberry or a tomato, perhaps an apple for. i know you wont believe it until you see it. its instant! just ask munyee how it goes like... its EVERYTIME. haha. i didnt believe it too... till it happened consecutively straight for 5 times in a row, i cant help it, im sorrie.
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO SURVIVE THIS

unhappy things happened past two days. i mean, i find them quite unpleasant... well, kept hearing things i dont wanna hear... and then finding out truths that hurt me a little and is gonna make me hurt someone alot more. how? someone teach me... i wanna lie... i tried to ignore... but its forcing me to my limit already... maybe, maybe i will KABOOM&explode. yeahh, maybe.







sometimes i wonder if you're the perfect one.
cos you're too good for me.

yeahh, its tiring knowing that you've so many peeps to please everyday!


weird, gasping for air
never be replaced(male version) - ???
aww, i got high after listening to this song. cos though its sad, its sweet. okay, i know im saddistic. you know, i heart this song :D


cut my hair! whoo, yeah, its bout time. hmm. you know, i just found out that my head&shoulders shampoo contains magnesium chloride and sodium something. haha, chemistry everywhere, no wonder i scored 29/50. well, still, im not satisfied but yeahh, i know im one those fortunate ones who can pass. hmm, i wanna be a doctor... what to do? ms liang... what a teacher! tsk tsk

i know im not going to walk tomorrow. okay, let me rephrase is. i wont be able to move my legs. haha, cos training was madness just now. under the hot sun, physical exercise running everywhere then test for your reaction... haha. BUT, what really brought me down was realising that my performance sucked. ahh, whateva.

many many tests tomorrow. wish me luck yeah? yawns. *stress*




boy, you know im just a phone call away if you ever need me. (:

yeah, i didnt mean to hurt you :D


cool, loved.
time - 1st lady


yeahh, im serious this time, i am!

when you're away...
i cant do anything.
i cant eat.
i cant sleep.
i cant study.
i cant be high.
i cant stop thinking of you.
i cant concentrate.
i cant be me.

i got many witness!
boy, you're loved.


today yulenda, candice and i read the horoscope thingy on teenage and when it was my turn, it wrote there something like... you're still feeling something for your crush last year! then yulenda stare at me. omg.


i hate hypocrite. i hate those who call them my special friend and yet they dont deserve the status. where were you when i really needed someone many times? where were those times again when you gimme a call, crack a joke just to brighten my day, be it even in the middle of the night. i know you still care, that's okay, cos at least you did bother to answer and reply to some of my boring sms. that will do, i promise. i ask for nothing more now, but you really spoiled my day, adding on to alot of my unhappiness.
i thought i was behaving like the fire extinguisher. as if im only used whenever needed, or else for the rest of the time, i'll just be left there, rotting away and then when the times come, i gotta be changed. *OUCHED*






simin thought me this today:
dont be EMO-ed.
cos you're still EMO-ing.
you know you can always learn EMO-logy from me
cos im a EMO-logist.
yeah, and let's EMO-sify. :D

global warming(lol), funny.
i cant hate you anymore - nick lachey


before i explain why im feeling funny... LET ME FIRST COMPLAIN BOUT THE EVIL ANTS ATTACKING ME!! omg, they've been visiting me like this morning, i wonder where the hell they come from. ITS KILLING ME!! ahh, im just going squash any of them the next time i see one. I TRIED TO BE NICE ALREADY, i wanted to give them a chance but noo, they disturbing me. it must be me... being too sweet. HAHA. okay, now back there. hmm, i kept smiling to myself for some strange reasons. its like, unknowingly, i spot myself laughing at my some sms-es or else my sister would gimme that stare, noticing that i've actually gone into a state of mind whereby its only me, myself and i in my lalaland. LOL, die, admit guoyi to IMH NOW. her condition are worsening!!

let me keep you guys updated since i havent posted for the past 5 days already. let's see...:
- national day season over. enjoyed my holidays! :D
- caught up with my studies, FINALLY. that's cos i stayed at home almost every day.
- bought my boots! finally. its nice. black one with ronaldinho's signature!!
- caught 881 at westmall with my family.
- met valent, edmund, yvonne, nicholas, yanwah, daryl(CHONGHUA) & mathias to watch rush hour 3 sneak!
- loved jackie cahn + christ tucker :D
- those primary school guys havent at all changed man. still taller than me... still that childish! still so cute and HOT.
realised that, after 1 - 2 years coming into ntss, i was alot bout my sec sch friends but now while the 3 year is approaching an end... i preferred hanging out with those childhood buddies be it the guys... its like, we still got more in common, we're not so shy and our friendship will gain alot everytime we meet up once in a blue blue moon. ppl in life,(at least in my life) are so hyprocrite. so crocodile tears. one word = EEW. i think i still love those innocent days back then, so sweet, so no worries.



loved, and loving.

SCORCHING HOT, up and down roller coaster ride.
seasons in the sun - westlife


man, trying to call everyone back to nhps tmr.

just cooked the dinner. yum yum, its western cruisine! yeah, my fav. i think they like it :D

long day today but i didnt seem to feel sleepy even after p.e. maybe cos i wasnt so high today, maybe cos i wasnt so enthu, maybe cos my blood pressure rose after reading the ASEAN DAY MESSAGE this morning to the whole school... hey, it feels like hell when you got more than 1000 times 2 big eyes staring right into you just waiting for you to finish off that boring thing up on stage with a SUPRE SOFT MIKE. i hated it man. well, at least i managed to get many teachers' praise and im rather glad bout it. they encouraged me a lot especially ms christ tan. :D i sat with ian in class and perhaps he was the one keeping me awake with all the weird and random things we're talking bout. alot bout our future. i mean HIS FUTURE JOB AND MY FUTURE JOB. not OURS. haha. i almost misunderstood too when i read through the sentence. ((:

suggested going lan after school and timothy went upside down bouncing away. WHAT, YOU WANT TO GO? ARE YOU SERIOUS? OMG OMG! budden in the end we realised we didnt have outside shirt with us so we abolished the idea. yeahh, munyee went home and i stayed to watch the captain's ball game and helped to time and score too. it was good. far too good for me i guess. haha. wanted to wait for suriani for dinner but i was bored so decided to leave first. faazul accompanied me then! haha, he said he didnt wanna go home and so send me to clementi? we walked there and it was rather fun chatting with him. laughing all the way. well, for 3 times i almost got knocked down on the road today just during the walk with him. hmm, i thought i MEOWED too much, and now that i have 9 lives, im left with 6 only. hahaha. okay im really crazy today, or more of now. crapping away. so thanks to faazul for changing my life and saved me. but partially its his fault too. maybe i wouldnt be so distracted if i didnt walk with him. haha. im sooo blur today, help, i need a neurologist to check my brain. xp.

he returned to school soon after and i went to meet my mom at je. had to buy tickets. decided not to buy and gave the ticket to someone else so he could watch with her. haha. how silly of me. may they have a good night man. NUTS, GUOYI'S NUTS. haha.


you know... chestpain sucks. it really do you know, the feeling of someone digging your heart out inside! eew. yes, eew im feeling that way and dont be surprised, its been quite often already. maybe... maybe im feeling that way cos... ahh, nvm. im going stop praying for you from today onwards cos you've got nothing to do in my life anymore. im over you. maybe God bless you and that everything goes well in your life. P.S. PLEASE PLEASE LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKE.

sunny, crying.
breathe easy - blue


man, im pretty tanned today, got baked under the sun for hours this morning, rather glad bout that! :D

had a bad day. a real bad one. rawr. just wanna go scream my lungs off. look, i cant even control my tears. i thought sleeping them off might make me feel better but no? i've only made those headache worse. everyone listen up, guoyi cant run and cant damn jump to catch some stupid balls. she should just stay away from sports la, USELESS.

i think i still prefer being alone. well, its a good time to watch the sun set now, so bye for now.

okay, okay.
wanna be with you - paula deanda


pon-ded school today. had a bad headache. yeah. was terribly tired, giddy and weak. alright, shall be honest, partial reason: 3 periods of physics today + geo test + chem test + 2 periods of math + end school at 215. yawns. in the end still ended up going to school to take my chem test. thanks to the drummers, i couldnt concentrate at all and bound to fail the test. lol. i did spend some time studying though.

hmm, realised it was the sec 3 subject combination talk tonight in school. even though it has nothing gotta do with me, it really reminds me of how fast time can fly. hello, i was just attending the talk last year and it seemed like ytd! goodness man, guoyi, WAKE UP. well, stayed in school to buzz around in the office helping out then stayed in the canteen to study a bit but realised i was at loss when i know i couldnt do anything at all thanks to missing just two lessons of emath today. SAD. gotta go self study and catch up! waited for suriani and dinner-ed. she "sent" me home and nagged at me bout how stress she is again. haha. she DAMNN INTERESTING :D

sports carnival tmr girl so get well soon. omg, you know what? i've been talking to myself alot lately, i must be mad! learnt too much from ellice. OOPS. hehe. i think it gonna be fun tomorrow, yet busy at the same time. shall not think tooooo much.
here's a chance to anyone who wants to date me cos im rather free tmr with nothing on. contact me asap cos i only entertain to first comers! haha, alright, i know that sounded sick but yeahh, i dont mind being alone too. i can always go around studying alone! ((:

normal, low on drugs.
i knew i loved you - savage garden


my flu is getting worse and it sucks. *sniff sniff*

didnt go to softball training today thanks to my mom. whateva man.
hmm, *hints* anyone out there, guoyi here needs a pair of soccer boots rather urgently. my current one has died so if you're a kind soul, i'ld be glad if you will like to give me one pair as belated or advanced birthday gift. actually, its all up to you, christmas present will do too! haha. so since im already so thick-skinned, i dont mind going on, let's just say you're just some stranger happen to drop by this blog. feel free to mail it to me at lorong kismis! lol. oh ya, lastly and most importantly, size 6 please and it would be best in mizuno brand :D
i'll love you forever for that.

chem test tmr! *stress*. should go school? think bout it.
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