have you ever met this guy whom always make you smile over the tiniest things? have you ever met that kinda guy whom can make you laugh till you roll on the ground over the silliest thing he has done? have you ever had a boy who can give you his psp, knowing that he wont be able to sleep with it? have you ever met a super weirdo guy who goes around saying hi to everyone and everytime you would wanna go like, I DONT KNOW HIM? what happens when you meet this guy whom you wanna spend the rest of your life with? what do you do, if you were me?

well, i met this funny guy months back, and he's one who truly loves me more than anyone else.

he's so tall, at times when he isnt observant to his surroundings ESPECIALLY WHEN IM AROUND, i get mad but he'll promise he'll try harder next time. ppl often laugh at our height difference, BUT ITS OK, i feel the sense of security. who cares bout how others think. i mean i really felt awkward at first... how ppl stare at us, especially at me bcos im holding hands with a non-chinese guy... but i told myself, what matters most is what our hearts think and with this, we've made it throught this far.

we always talk bout random stuff, have dreams of each other and ppl envy us. i always feel like a little girl when im with him. im so pampered, im beginning to rely on him. i never felt this way at home before. my father and brother stopped loving me since primary school and now i found it back. it can be really tiring and sad when you're lacked of love becos everyone thinks you're independent. hello, its a great feeling to be loved and indeed, everyone deserves it but what im receiving now is a different kinda love. all the teasing, late night phone calls and cold inside jokes, its only between us.

despite all the quarrels and fights, i know they build the road to this strong r'ship. i hate it when he gets jealous over slightest things but from there, i know he cares. i bet he didnt realise that when he's sad, i would be; when he's happy and crazy, i would share his joy too. as time goes, im wondering if these little things have shaped a part of my life. what would i do if he wasnt around?

i remembered so clearly how i used to blush everytime i see him 10m away from me. i will never forget how we first met on the island called Palau Ubin during a 'survival camp'.

time flies, it really does. i wanna treasure him and not take what i've now for granted. for a while i didnt believe in the word: forever. but now when i think again, you never know, it might just be possible. i've grown up, im not so innocent anymore. maybe everything will just work out. who knows?


dear faazul, im sorry for being childish, spoilt or unreasonable sometimes. i know you understand me more than anyone else and you always wont fail to convince me to believe you. i dont know why but i hope im not a nuisance to you. i just wanna stick to you. i must thank you for everything you've done for me. you're really a great bf. a million words cant describe how is it like but i know you can feel it. i really dont ask for much cos knowing that this love is reciprocal is way enough. its satifying and im contented. now i know, by saying those 3 words wont necessary bring out the true meaning behind the word. its what and how you put them into actions that can show and explain clearly why it is 'i love you'.

blurry, windy.
seasons in the sun - westlife

alright, things can be so unexpected. one second i was enjoying the breeze, the other minute raindrops started to fall.

man, im really feeling the pressure and the tension alr. its getting so scary... i wished i could run away from reality and live in my own lalaland. i've been thinking alot, maybe i should just stop it, cos i'll probably end up in IMH soon... argh, been asking so many ppl for advice and in the end, i know the final decision lies in my hands. its ok its ok, i just try to comfort myself for now. one week will be here soon quickly.

going out to all the talented ppl, FUN concert in NTSS is back!! yupp, if you can sing and dance, perform or talk, we welcome you to join us and come down for audition. for more information, pls approach raymond or me or wait for the announcent in school. its open to everyone so pls, we want to recognise your talent! its everything except GOSSIPPING. :D tyty


im nort admitting defeat, im just letting you know that i've had enough fun of you and im getting a little sick. you can go ahead to think that you've won but it doesnt really matter to me, cos its way enough for me to see you getting this mad. GOTCHA! :D

well, to some weird and nasty ppl out there, HARHAR, coward+loser, simply running off in a conversation, hmmm, how rude can that get?
FYI: HARHAR is a sarcastic laugh.
(i hope that embarassed you.)

tralala, tired and sweaty sia. just reached home after having dinner with wendy and clementi. talked alot with her, felt better. she's great man! thanks babe.

wa, got loads of stuff to do, study, get stressed bout. haha, im so silly i dont know why. why did i like so much things occupy my mind? unimportant work, tiny little stuff and many more. that's what's driving me nuts. hais, this is gonna be a short post, going off to do my work and be a good girl.

again, i saw the hypocrite. so phoney, so disgusting. why do such ppl exist? its ok, im quite used to it. i'll try to ignore. oh ya and besides, do you know how irritaing some ppl are? i mean, they're those that're testing your limits and sometimes you think they just deserved to be dealt with. LOL.

stormy, LIGHTNINGS! still a that little confused.
girlfriend - avril lavigne

ya, same old dreams again. is it cos i see you around everyday in school? or is it cos i miss you? maybe its cos you occupy a large area of my brain up there inside my head? i dont know, but it just feels weird. i dont even talk to you or give you a longer look, a more than one second look. ok maybe i do. sometimes i realise i'll be staring at you during SS lesson out of nowhere. wishing that everytime you turn around you'll meet my eye but nar, never once you turned this direction. am i really that unworthy of you? have you really totally forgotten the past? is it all over just like that? in my dreams, i always dream of old dreams, all those sweet little ones, and then dreaming that we'll be friends all over again, classmates and stuff like that but is it possible in reality? is it possible to make my dreams come true? i dont dare to try, im too tired to. i cant be bothered cos its just my one last year here and i know, it will really really be over soon. i just gotta be patient.

just imagine how confused i am. even after a nap. i thought i would feel better but this time its still as sucky as ever. there's so many things hanging on my mind, so messy, so 'full of colours'. now i know, when you're unsure bout your own feelings towards others, never do stupid things like confessing. despite knowing the fact that the opposite will usually reject and avoid you cos i was given this kinda treatments many times before, i must thank raymond for reminding me again. he said he wouldnt do it if it was him. well, i guess its true, if i were in that position, i doubt so too. i really learnt not to risk the friendship for the tiniest thing like confession of your love. i hate to admit but i would say usually the case of the other party feeling the same for you would be 0.01%. how sad can that get? ): fine, like what raymond has say, let guys confess first and just see how things go? maybe we should all learn to be generous. face it openly. dont be silly and starting staying away from each other. i think its stupid. haha, IS NOT ME ANYWAY, so who cares. im satisfied with life. i shant creat more problems for myself.






a secret forever kept unsaid. hehe, maybe at least two people know. :D

tralalala, and then maybe after uploading so many pictures, blogger finally decides to go mad and stop me from doing anymore. ok anyway, im really tired that my eyelids are just gonna shut anytime. a picture speaks a thousand words. enjoy! really had soooooooo much fun today. (hope we're on tv!) many thanks to the RP girls&ESPECIALLY MELVING TOO, HAHA, oh and nice to talking to sijia, of cos lastly, dearest raymond! :D

RAWR, so you think you're pissed and im nort? HELLO, IM ALSO A HUMAN BEING, I HAVE FEELINGS. things dont always go YOUR WAY, i want it my way too!! its like, are you petty or something? i dont know la, i thought im alr stressed, i needed someone to talk to, and yet now i've to be the one saying sorrie and then telling myself that its my prob, blaming it on myself, letting you hang up without making a sound. hey you know when i remain silent, there can only be 2 possibilities. well, 1 is that i've got no comments, i dont wanna lead the quarrel to a bigger matter or 2 i think everything is stupid so i'ld not like to waste my saliva and energy. you think i what? speaking to me like as if im some gangster that you wanna create trouble with. its nonsense la. perhaps you're the one having pms instead of me? stop being unreasonable! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh thanks for making my day a worse one.

SPA practical coming alr, so is my Olevel MT result. its like end of this month, and im soooooo unprepared. why? help! i wanna do well, i wanna achieve what i believe i can do but im scared i'ld fail to do so. the fear in me is so overwhelming its taking over me. man, give me a break.






















crap, i didnt mean to say all that. just wanted to vent it all out. X:

get a life.


again, complain time. if only the higher authorities will read this. LOL.

okay, my SUAY day, in other words, i havent really been so unlucky for quite some time and seems like lady luck is abandoning me this time round.
4 times. out of which, 3 times i was being kindly let off, and perhaps i just wasnt that lucky on the 4th time.
okay, you must be wondering what the hell am i say or has happened to me the whole of today. yupp, I GOT CAUGHT FOR MY SHIRT. THAT ELASTIC ELASTIC THING THAT I ATTACH TO MY UNIFORM BLOUSE. ok, i know that's supposedly not in the school rule but hello, they sorta like didnt mention it in the school rules, neither is it on the NTSS school handbook. so, the ppl do it too and i just happen to be one of those handful that got caught. FINE, but the thing is, EVEN THE PRINCIPLE GAVE ME A CHANCE ON MY 3RD TIME BEING CAUGHT, that sjidLIUJ$6io j4o cher didnt even bother to give me face. CRAP.


NOW YOU KNOW WHY THE HELL I HATE THIS SCHOOL.





ohya, i didnt have SS test today. Mr Tan Say Pin is my SS teacher in band 3 you know? i think im so gonna fly for an A for humans, what do you think? ((:

tralala, you're missed so badly.


nothing much to blog about today but just wanted to complain bout my workload in school! having a test tomorrow on SS chapt 6, oh cmon, i totally missed all the lessons and now im like gonna self study? PLS, ITS SEQ, SOMEONE HELP ME, I DONT WANNA FAIL. )): and then i've got tons of homework, i'll make sure i wont procrastinate this year... (i really hope so!)



to all the 58 SLs, especially my main coms and performers, GREAT JOB, keep it up, im stepping down liao, so take care and do a better job next year without me around ya? really enjoyed working with your... SEE YA AROUND, best of luck to me in sec4 man, hahaha...

to everyone who's out there to support me, I DID IT, yes, thanks alot. ((:


seriously, dont ask how im feeling now. i think i probably may take forever to tell you.
bad day - daniel powter


sadly to say,(well also relieved to say) end of this 3day sec1 orientation camp.
good things:
#improvements as these 3days went.
#delegated!
#was super impromptu.
#not so much of stage fright anymore.
#think overall was successful, above my baseline and is what i imagined it to be. (dream came true)
bad things:
#amos wasnt around on last 2 days to be there with me physically! i wanted him to be there cos he was the one who watched me grow over these two years from being a little tiny class leader to a great big chairperson. he was the one nagging at me constantly, correcting me this and that, allowing me to go even further than my limits and bring out the true leader in me. i can never finish thanking him for all the guidance...
#feeling sick, sorethroat, insomia, muscle aching and tiredddd! (but its ok, worth it)
#received many many bombs that pissed me off on the spot, making me stressed out. (at least it taught me how to deal with diff situation, how to have back up and alternative plans)
#thought i wasnt much appreciated cos nobody really knew how much effort i put in for every single detail to make this camp possible.@_@

alright, receiving the news that im having a test next monday on a totally new SS chapter also made me screamed at MRT(fyi:Mr.RoyTan) just now. what to do? i chose to run this orientation and i've got nobody to plan on all the work i've missed out in class. guoyi ah, sec4 liao, O's come first of all ya?


HAPPY BDAY FAAZUL&POORNIMA.
& YOU KNOW WHAT, ihateharumikitano. :D






i almost cried the second time THIS YEAR, over some ppl that i shouldnt cry for, not even after they die.

yesterday it was tears of disappointment, today it was tears of joy.