have you ever met this guy whom always make you smile over the tiniest things? have you ever met that kinda guy whom can make you laugh till you roll on the ground over the silliest thing he has done? have you ever had a boy who can give you his psp, knowing that he wont be able to sleep with it? have you ever met a super weirdo guy who goes around saying hi to everyone and everytime you would wanna go like, I DONT KNOW HIM? what happens when you meet this guy whom you wanna spend the rest of your life with? what do you do, if you were me?

well, i met this funny guy months back, and he's one who truly loves me more than anyone else.

he's so tall, at times when he isnt observant to his surroundings ESPECIALLY WHEN IM AROUND, i get mad but he'll promise he'll try harder next time. ppl often laugh at our height difference, BUT ITS OK, i feel the sense of security. who cares bout how others think. i mean i really felt awkward at first... how ppl stare at us, especially at me bcos im holding hands with a non-chinese guy... but i told myself, what matters most is what our hearts think and with this, we've made it throught this far.

we always talk bout random stuff, have dreams of each other and ppl envy us. i always feel like a little girl when im with him. im so pampered, im beginning to rely on him. i never felt this way at home before. my father and brother stopped loving me since primary school and now i found it back. it can be really tiring and sad when you're lacked of love becos everyone thinks you're independent. hello, its a great feeling to be loved and indeed, everyone deserves it but what im receiving now is a different kinda love. all the teasing, late night phone calls and cold inside jokes, its only between us.

despite all the quarrels and fights, i know they build the road to this strong r'ship. i hate it when he gets jealous over slightest things but from there, i know he cares. i bet he didnt realise that when he's sad, i would be; when he's happy and crazy, i would share his joy too. as time goes, im wondering if these little things have shaped a part of my life. what would i do if he wasnt around?

i remembered so clearly how i used to blush everytime i see him 10m away from me. i will never forget how we first met on the island called Palau Ubin during a 'survival camp'.

time flies, it really does. i wanna treasure him and not take what i've now for granted. for a while i didnt believe in the word: forever. but now when i think again, you never know, it might just be possible. i've grown up, im not so innocent anymore. maybe everything will just work out. who knows?


dear faazul, im sorry for being childish, spoilt or unreasonable sometimes. i know you understand me more than anyone else and you always wont fail to convince me to believe you. i dont know why but i hope im not a nuisance to you. i just wanna stick to you. i must thank you for everything you've done for me. you're really a great bf. a million words cant describe how is it like but i know you can feel it. i really dont ask for much cos knowing that this love is reciprocal is way enough. its satifying and im contented. now i know, by saying those 3 words wont necessary bring out the true meaning behind the word. its what and how you put them into actions that can show and explain clearly why it is 'i love you'.