i curse and i swear. im feeling that sucky. i mug and mug, and what did i get in return? just those same old bloody results. dont compare with me if you're not doing as well as me. im not being proud, but i just hope for your understanding. we're different people and naturally different expectations. i am that much of a perfectionist to ask for the best of the best results for myself, not because i wanna win anyone. even if it means losing to others, its OK, as long as i achieve what i want. but now, after all the not sleeping, all the not getting to enjoy just because im going to study, this kinda bull shit marks reflects how much effort i put in? were my eyes playing tricks on me or am i just not good enough? am i born stupid or what? why do i have to be thrown down and be shattered, so disappointed when my hopes were all high up there? how do i describe the feelings in me now? its like everything's not going my way and i cannot do anything bout it. what do i do?
please, please dont force me to give up. i dont want to, i cannot.
Every day and every night
I stay by the phone
Never go no place so just in case
You call I'll be home
I stay by the phone
Never go no place so just in case
You call I'll be home
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