And You open my eyes to see.
You're everything I need.
yaye, an extremely rare day i get to rest in and do my work! for a moment just now, after my test, i was gonna go wonder around and get a movie or shop. the weather was too warm and hence i decided to come back to get started on the never-ending work. changed my mind this morning also that i will not go prayer tower too.
spoke to D last night. well, the conversation at several moments did get heated. i explained my unhappiness all these while and he did apologize. it went on for awhile and i kept asking him the same question: what is your heart for NTU? i know that as long as i don't hear the truthful answer from him, i cannot commit myself to be discipled by him. for the past three years, i have always saw him as a fatherly and big brother figure. he is so so dear to me. which was why i was also hurt badly in this ministry. eventually he managed to share with me the big picture about how he is not interested in building his own tribe but having that real kingdom mentality. i did openly mention my doubts of the presence of others who joined us in claiming this piece of land. i am still hanging on because i told God i will keep pounding. but really, this is my last shot.
i am sorry about this skepticism. Lord I repent. let not me judge whose heart is right and whose is not. let me just be a faithful and obedient servant that when You call, I will go. let my walk be righteous even when others may not.
最近好像对一个人有好感。对我而言，并不是好事。还是少见面的好。
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