wa. just reached home. and ppl, I STINK, guoyi stinks. haha. im sorry bout that but i seriously think that i should go and take a bath now. soak myself in warm water to enjoy myself. hehe. today was fun. definitely, as usual i would say. all our laughters that became the memories will be remembered! discovery centre's entrance fee is a little ex though. haha. but worth it worth. get some of my fats off by running here and that. haha. maybe these are only for those ppl who are there and understand.

we took a NON-AIRCONDITIONED bus that blew my hair like a mad cat!! haha. i promise i wont do it again. haha. and then reached there, freezing like dont know what. futhermore, outside came a heavy downpour. haha. so horrible. all our money are spent and we didnt eat the whole day! we had air rifle too. those guys had a good time i can see. haha. hmm. what else. all the movies. and then the 3D one is damn cool. i like. haha. oh ya, the disco room is cool too.

then half way during everything, i got this bloody messages, coming to irritate me agian. siha. how? wahlau. i cant bear to just stab right into his heart la. but in the end i think i still did that. aww. and he's probably very hurt. but im sure he can take it. well. dont care la.


and then on the bus 240, i sat at that very same place... that very same place... where he held me tight.. so sweet. no, not now anymore. he's doing this to me. he's evil. haha. i still want that peck. haha. nvm. dont know la.


i think daryl(not LUM), haha, finally has got herself a new gf. or maybe that he has been changing alot of times just that i dont know. although im the so called SISTER of his, i bet i wont get informed for anything and we dont even talk, JUST LIKE STRANGERS NOW. haha. im just nobody anyway. haha. aiyah. anw, good for him la. i think i can find someone better AND he's not worth, he's really not worth AT ALL. haha. ((: AND I REALLY DONT LIKE HIM ANYMORE!! (confident enough to say that.)

I'M GOING TO THE DENTIST TOMORROW.

oh its raining again. heavily. dont go away water. i enjoy your company... cos you are always full of friends with you... you are everywhere... you give me memories.. you make me sad... you make me wet and sick... i dont know... but i just love you... stay and dont go away... you just dont know how much this sentence means to me, "i like walking in the rain cos nobody knows im crying." it may be very true. cos just now i really did. and julian didnt know. he kept asking, and i just said no. i guess im drunk now so im blur and crazy. very high i kept screaming. but i could rmb somethings that happened just now... i was accused by that bitch that i gotta bf outside... woah... why am i so sad over it? thats cos she didnt trust me AGAIN. cool. fine then. im not sleeping at home tonight i think. and then oh ya... i saw ahmad after so longgggg... like what seems years... and then i feel sick already cos its so freaking cold. i think im going out into the rain again. maybe should get knocked down by a car since i cant make up my mind to jump just now. lala. im dying. im serious.

cheerful me, not now anymore. sigh, i dont know why, but i felt like locking up myself in the house today.


wendy asked me out: NO. lazy. ahmad told me to go his place for hari raya: COUNT ME OUT. ): mom tried dragging me to her stall to help: NAR, sianzx. dad wanted me to go out with him to visit some friends: DONT WANT LEHS. dont disturb me.


oh. i was purely being evil. ppl sick right? argh. dont know wazzup with me la. life sucks. BIG TIME!! aww. forget it. i only kept reading some comics at home and played my PS2 the whole day from 8am? interesting... zzzz. im so chocaholic anw. kept eating. i know im going to turn fat. very fat. haha. aww. sad sia. ): well well. im a big liar too. hate myself. boo. ):


everytime it rains, im either sick or sad. now im both. haha. lala. you know, at this current moment, my mind and heart are filled with a thousand words, a million expressions but i just couldnt describe it. maybe it's just so horrible.









bottled-up.

sorry. i'm sad again. ): sigh. and i guess. my only reason can none other than to be *him. nar. nvm. was missing *him again. WAS. not now. and then maybe i'm a bit angry currently. wanna know why? well well, let me explain then...


**HE broke his promise AGAIN. as usual, i feel cheated. felt like dying. cos i hate this feeling. i never once tried doing this to hurt **him but why must **he do it to me. ~pain~ ouch! ): aww. why. again. **he always does. like i say, i'm never gonna trust **him again. i dont know who to trust. just let me fade away man. im thrown aside like a used doll. am i one to **him? i bet i am just one. used up = no need = waste. oh, sad case. im just lowering myself into a dark dark pit. never wanna climb up. who's gonna be my saviour then? lol. nvm. ya la. over this what seemed to be a small thing to others is bothering so much over me the whole day today. so i guess its a gigantic problem. but i gotta learn to put down soon. since its happening over and over again. tell me, someone tell me, why does this friendship matters so much to me? heartache sia. depressing man.

to **him:
heyy, i really cant stand you. just say it if you have got enough of me... if im irritating... if you no longer care for me... if you no longer want this friendship, then we can act like strangers... i no need you to pretend if front of others like as if we are the best of friends... you are just another liar... if you just dont feel like talking to me then IGNORE ME!!


PS: *he & **he refer to different people each. hehe. have fun figuring out. ((: it is just for ppl for know me better to read anw. lol. im sure they know who.


ANYWAY, I CHANGED MY DEDICATIONS. PLEASE DO GO AND READ. AS USUAL, VERY MEANINGFUL. THANKS. ((:

hello. wonderful pictures isnt it? i really had lotsa fun today. pity munyee isnt with me. sigh. well. health is more important anyway. unlike me, she respects her mom too. henglun, daryl, my nephew, weisheng, my son, dave and i went to science centre today! a cool trip. haha. learnt lotsa things. not bad huh? and at the CHILDREN'S PRICE, we only paid S$6 each. muahaha. and so how long did we spent there? nearly 3++++ hours worr. look at the pictures taken above. cute right? we were laughing all the way i guess. even though i was the only lady there, i gotta bear with it since its my retarded idea when i got nothing to at home!! haha. so. we went JEC arcade after that and went crazy. i was just crazy. that's cos munyee joined us. i love them i guess. haha. and then went home quite late. im a bad girl. ): hmm. anw. we are planning aanother trip to some other discovery adventrous rubbish outing again next week. anyone bother to join us? haha!

hows my new skin guys? cool right. (: hehe. i think i just love it. so pinky. and probably indirectly trying to convey messages? aha. oh well. its a blog afterall. i still think my results arent that good. and im sad. sigh. aww. cheer me up man. and only 2 person got the ability to do it. guess who? haha. (: im sure you know it!

just back from another checkup. it sucked. totally. spoiled my day. not only that i spent my time waiting. and because of the haze, im feeling even more sick. sigh. so what happened there? the doctor said some crap as usual. and then one last thing he actually told me. and really threw me into a daze after that. aww. AHHHH!!!!


maybe i was just wrong. its all my fault. i shouldnt have started that. and that things wont followed? especially my mood swing and being devastated. due to that, my life's gonna change again. omg. i hate it. why. why must it be me out of so many ppl man. forget it. im having a headache now and i guess i gotta start vomitting again. help.


this morning's life sci lesson sucked. cant imagine how im going to survive the next week!!!!! idiot instructor with the name of PRATA. rubbish la. and then keep catching me for using hp. okay. maybe i should use ACCUSING when i didnt do it. eat shit la. and the two girls nicole and yanlin sitting beside me ARE USING. so what is this? FAVOURTISM TOWARDS ADIB and not happy me pick on me la. evil. i shall murder you. MUAHAHAH. and my bio result is NOT SATISFYING AS USUAL. ):
YANLIN IS MADE IN CHINA. (:


went to westmall with yanlin for half an hour to kill time. indeed. haha. and then as usual. WESTMALL IS A PLACE OF MEMORIES. and i think back again la. everything didnt change at all. or maybe it did. after two years. the ppl DID CHANGE. not the place. sigh. i no longer go there with him*. i see all the little shops with cute stuff that we use to buy. so sweet.


i dreamt of you again.

oh well. last night i had to go to the clinic again. darn it. breathing difficulty. maybe i should die. instead of sufferring liddat. so irritating. oh crap. and then what. ppl will cry over me? haha. i dont know. ahh. im just joking la. i wont let the ppl around me like munyee shed tears easily! (: especially over me anw. tmr i got school. wawa. sad sia. hmm. playing games with edmund. he really cheered me up. always so cute. haha.







i still do miss you.

I NEED TO FIND A JOB. or else i will really become a fat pig which stays at home to rot! omg. NOO

SORRY.











and this is for someone who knows he deserves my apology.

ooh. today's maths paper sucked. im sad. im sure full marks will be far away from me. sigh. hope tmr's paper will be much better though.


oh err. after 6 hours... zzz.........


my stupid sister is playing maple. I PROMISE I WILL DELETE IT!! irritating.


listening to sad songs again. lala. bored. science drives guoyi nuts! haha. wish me luck kayy? haha. one more day to heaven. haha. lame. -.-




i got an urge to cry. exams are coming to an end. im going to be the devil and ppl's hearts again. i dont wanna do it but i have to. nvm. i think i know what to do to. and nobody shall try to influence me... LIKE ZHIYUAN. haha. what. lala. i know one thing...














i STILL cant let go of the past. not now. sorry. sigh.

oh. i damn pissed. and im freaking am. really. im not lying. just let me die man. obstacles in life are so hard to overcome. whos going to accompany to walk down this road then. but THOUGH. i enjoyed talking to timothy a little. hehe.


DEFAULT MODE: DEPRESSION.
oh it sucks.

im home, ppl. computer just went crazy. and then now talking to subhas... talking bout some things... haha. lala. just came back home from the checkup. and im listening to the conference of subhas and zhiyuan. HAHA. (: SHH. lala. its stupid la. some things... really retarded. subhas is crapping again. all bout wei en... AND HIS BROTHERS. whyy... whyy he like that. wahlau. hes sucha good leader to influence everyone. omg. horrible. maybe all the while i have seen through him anw. oh well. anw. back to what i was talking bout... even though im not supposed to make any important decision within this 48 hours! haha. its not important at all is it? haha. well. should i even care. i dont know. and its still early la. and ya. then now. on the other line im talking to kumar. omg. busy me. and then im multi tasking again. lala. thats cool. im back to hyper again. haha. yay. anw. im scared. so scared of something. but i dont know what. weird. anw. TODAYS LITERATURE SUCKED. 28m gone case. sobb.


i thought i saw him just now. or maybe some time ago. but probably i was just thinking bout it. and it seemed so real. well. i guess it cant be helped. sad. anw. well. i still do miss him. somehow. a bit la. i dont know. haha. i saw him cycling with andrew yeo and that benjamin ho. is he really that. its illusion. i know its illusion. nvm. trying to comfort myself. lala.

i survived guys. haha. dont cha worry. im safe and sound. just arrived home. although i cant make and important decision in the next 48 hours because im still in a state of drowsiness mind. terrible sorry bout that if i have lost my memories for some things. haha. hmm. do i still rmb someone called munyee? timothy sounds familiar too! haha. oh well. guess im perfectly alright when i can still joke. gotta go back to the gleneagles for checkup tmr again. yawn. argh. im going to be just fine! thanks you guys for caring so much. im touched. (: should i say im waiting to get back school tmr or not wanting to take my lit paper. help! alemak. i should just flung it man. i cant be bothered at all. looking at my geo book now. im sucha good girl. just recover and all i think of is exams. no skiving! mug mug again.


I LOVE VIDYA. mom, dont sad okay? ):

hey guys. let me take this short time as a chance to tell your that me guoyi, im sick. so sick. haha. gonna get hospitalised so sorry if i your dont see me online or answer your calls and sms blah... zz. exams here but dont worry. i will be there. haha. just need some mini operation for further investigation and I HATE BLOOD TEST. i had three just now. waiting for the results. so freaking scary i almost cried. haha. so... yupp. im just coming home to pack up and leave for two days or so. AND MISS MY REVISION WEEK END. omg. what on earth is this... haha. oh well. nvm. i will be just fine like i always am. dont worry! love love. thanks for caring but dont come visit me. haha. ASTHMA ATTACK. boo. ):

*gasping for air*

thats bad. so hazey outside. nutty. haha. wondering if i should go school tmr... so lazy. yawn. i think i gotta see the doctor. lala. so what happened today?

felt a little moody. im sorry guys. cos somethings happened... some one showed attitude again... and i wasnt feeling that well i guess... and oh ya! my geo was 7.5/10 and chem 22/30. woo~ cool. heh. its during music and idiot zhiyuan said some idiotic thing. that get me into deep thoughts. retarded. i actually listen to a shorty's words. what on earth is this? HA. AND THAT BLOODY BITCH TOOK MY TEN BUCKS. asshole. i will get timothy to kill him! hehe. evil me. but i dont care. serve him right.

stayed back in school to SUPPOSEDLY STUDY. and here comes subhas. everything gone case. forget it. wahlau. wasted my time. dammit. and then had a good time with yuneng, mr tseng, guru and munyee too. haha. laugh like crazy. then went home. OH WAIT. went shopping. hehe. (: i still love munyee.

heard then simin havent gone home. what happened?

talking to yoges. hes damn poor thing. make me wanna cry. haha. cos i thought i saw the old guoyi in him. haha. hes like a rejected guy feeling so empty looking for love to fill him up. waa. stupid poornima. just dont know how to cherish him. nvm. lets dont talk bout this.

today school was slacking la. cos got 3 periods of EL and 2 MT so is like our paper over then heck care lor. watched shrek 2. so cute. hhaha. and then LIT lesson also free. diao. cos morning PE. then i so freaking tired now. yawns. played all 3 funny games with both other classes, guys and girls. rubbish like soccer,basketball and captain's ball. whoo. had geo lesson. dont know why felt so good mood so ta bao coffee for ms chan. haha. enjoyed her only lesson for the day though. hha. then went to sp to eat with my group of friends from class but somehow 'those' ppl turned up too. cant be bothered. haha. then went tuition. and home sweet home.

i think im going for the student leader camp!yay.

lala. im good. i feel good. ta ta ta ta ta. haha. thanks timothy. thanks munyee. its you twoo again. whos always there to cheer me up... lala. i have recovered! officially... i didnt imagine it will be so fast too... well. guess its because im more positive now. unlike last time. always so saddistic! haha. now i know who are my true friends are. my sister munyee! and my son DAVE! (: and....... TIMOTHY KHOR*. (: my bestie buddy forever!! lala. haha. unlike SOME PPL. so greedy. only know how to sms me when they are sad or down to ask me to entertain them. i dont give a damn. haha. idiots.

todays english paper was manageable. you know what. now i realise... i didnt have much worries... so i felt much light hearted and cheerful.. and that i wont feel so stressed up and things seem to go so smoothly for me. lala. so i guess things would be better? like doing better in my exams? haha. what a joke. nvm. today STUPID MRS LENA ANG caught me long fingernails and PINK HAIRBAND TOO. and for eating in lcass. haha. retarded. anw. yupp. still got actually one last little tiny prob la. not bout msg cos that one is over i guess... history is just repeating itself last last year... all the making up of stories... backstabbing and badmouthing... bitching and acting... lol. this kinda friends for what? haha.

went hoome super early. cos munyee came over. i love munyee. AS USUAL. hah. tuition cancelled again. oh its dumb. saw kavita, azy and yanlin at interchange clementi. went home after drinking the super sour bubble tea. ITS ORANGE. hah.

TGFMY & TGFTK. hope munyee understands those weird characters! haha. (:

im so sick. so sick. haha. boo. guoyi's dying. AGAIN. after 496510502358 times. oh no. does it make much diff then? dont think so. haha. oh well. studying report now. hehe. chest pain + vomit + difficulty breathing + uncontrollable tears outta swollen eyes + headache. after overdose medication, feeling better, but currently facing hyper drowsiness. haha. i dont know what the shit im saying but its okay. told you im drunk. haha. or am i? that medicine has expired i guess. or maybe i should just die from eating it. never wake up. and cant rmb the last time i ate. probably at 6 years old which is 8 years ago. haha. dont think so la. err. should be last month i ate to control the asthma. I HATE THE HAZE. stupid indonesia. heh. luckily i learn geo. (:

today's chinese paper sucked. paper one is so-so. paper two is almost dead. my hp actually rang. and i just thank God for giving me a chance to off it in the time. i love CAI LAO SHI. (:

after paper went to see wendy. then met munchoon, charlene and mathias. 6d is so happy together again. maybe only the few of us la. but its enough to satisfy my carvings for the memories. haha. miss them loads. and then sat down talked for quite long and went home. i guess is because of sitting at mac too much that caused my sickness. supposed to go for tuition. rested the whole day. thinking alot. bout what zhiyuan said all day long. siannz.

all the best to my english paper tmr! and thats provided if im going school. ARGH

lala. tmr's chinese paper. and what am i doing now? to put it simple, SLACKING. horrible me. well. nvm. i wouldnt have enough time to study anymore. lets dont bother.

today went library study again with yanlin, ahmad and kenneth. i very quiet throughout. dont know why. probably spent my time sms-ing MR. RAINBOW. too busy to talk to them... haha. but i think my bill's gonna die again. omg. haha. felt like being alone for a while today. then kept to myself alot.

supposed to go out with kumar to some dont know where tmr. but due to my wendy's important matter to settle, i have to accompany her and give counselling. hehe. so tired. have to study so hard dont know for what. PROBABLY WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO REWARD ME. haha.

anyway. i just feel like going to the beach to relax. who's kind enough to accompany me? lala. hehe. so whats the combination of a rose and a rainbow?