oh its raining again. heavily. dont go away water. i enjoy your company... cos you are always full of friends with you... you are everywhere... you give me memories.. you make me sad... you make me wet and sick... i dont know... but i just love you... stay and dont go away... you just dont know how much this sentence means to me, "i like walking in the rain cos nobody knows im crying." it may be very true. cos just now i really did. and julian didnt know. he kept asking, and i just said no. i guess im drunk now so im blur and crazy. very high i kept screaming. but i could rmb somethings that happened just now... i was accused by that bitch that i gotta bf outside... woah... why am i so sad over it? thats cos she didnt trust me AGAIN. cool. fine then. im not sleeping at home tonight i think. and then oh ya... i saw ahmad after so longgggg... like what seems years... and then i feel sick already cos its so freaking cold. i think im going out into the rain again. maybe should get knocked down by a car since i cant make up my mind to jump just now. lala. im dying. im serious.