well, sorta teared a little. cos finally talked things out with him. he called me, and i was kinda worked up and pissed. but hello, i think im the one being unreasonable so its all my fault and nort to blame him. should even praise and thank him for enduring my wildness and attitude. HA.


fainted outside canteen this morning. for the first time. for once. my legs just felt wobbly like what munyee said, JELLY-LIKED.. and then the next thing i knew, i felt on munyee and black out. but i think it was for a while, i came back and then i realised many ppl were in front of him. but seems like i was so blur i only managed to recognise estella, whom im grabbing my hands tightly, munyee, who's standing right in front mumbling and i turned my head and saw timothy standing there. he looked really worried. were you, tim? haha, guess so, who wouldnt? felt like suddenly many ppl cared. they simply asked if i were alright and all that. thanks ppl. i really needed help then.


i learnt something during CME today again!! even though i didnt those lessons, even though i dont really enjoy seeing mrs lena ang's face, even though i was almost dead when i returned class straight after p.e. i still listened and found it true. nothing really last. especially things like friendship. furthermore to say relationships. all so fragile. nothing really is everlasting, is there? that's whyy i hate to hear or say FOREVER. cos its like, if i say y.p.g. or m.s.g. forever, will they be? no, maybe they wont. okay, obviously they wont? ten years down the road, you think we will still be keeping in contact, calling each other everynight. cmon, i know once we stop seeing each other, we will simply live to use to it. we dont really rely on each other. face the fact. i have had enough experience for it. i cant stand losing ppl arnd me, things arnd me. wayy tooo important for me. im nort sure why i treat everything so serious too. its like, im always so humourous on the outside though, never stop smiling. and when i stopped, luke asked me, hey, im hope i dont get used to you nort smiling, yeah?


oh freak. i ran 16min today. im a slow poke. a pig. i crawl, i dont run. i didnt fail, NO i didnt, but i was how bout 5min slower than expected? ended having a C. hello, last year was an A.
2.4km, 2.4km, im gonna beat you.




I NEED TO DO SOME SOUL-SEARCHING.