im a depressed kid again. why do ppl these days get emo so easily?

well, perharps i made up some stories, but i guess most of the parts are true, and i just acted out like as if im a happy girl who doesnt give a damn bout him anymore after having a new bf. lol, what a joke. whyy? whyy do i just have to lie and put up a fake front and hide my tears behind all these? its like as if i can take it but no? i've got my limits. and what's more, you always leave me hanging there after you start a conversation and then nort replying me. you know it will just get me stuck there thinking of all things... i hate it but you still do it all the time. and you know what? i just cant get the courage outta me to block you or even delete your contact you still do mean alot to me. i just wish for a 24-hours with you and probably that will be more than enough.

please God please, will you grant me?

20days.