now what? im not even given the freedom of speech, to voice out my feelings, for im afraid of all the passer bys reading what my life's all about and since this blog is all about open to the public, you no longer call it a diary.

okay fine, anyway, i just felt like apologising. sorrie, to you-know-who. should have told you everything first but well, its all bcos im scared you would get hurt. hope you understand...

today school sucked. i was emo partially bcos yanlin and poornima brought up the topic early in the morning and then after that he was so pissed with me in the afternoon. no one seems to understand how hurt im feeling really deep inside. its so tiring. guess waht, for the second time in my 15years, im feeling like as if life has lost its meaning... im unsure what i meant by that too but oh well, who cares? ignore the girl who's always trying to put on that smile even though you can see the tear behind her.