i thought i needed someone right now. to really console me. its like, up and then down. what a roller coaster ride. im really going to burst out into tears. so going to burst out into tears. like as if a volcano errupting outta nowhere.


maybe i know whyy. maybe its true that you are avoiding me. so what? i cant do anything. you win, you are like the dart who pierce through me. you didnt know you hurt me but you did. yeahh, badly. nvm, i just needa get over it.


and then now... at this momment... maybe i realise what i really want... thanks for waking me up. im back here in reality. i have got one to say. it isnt always right to follow your heart, you know?

rainy, bored.

new skin! anw, i watched potc3 ytd. i admit it was more funny, but but, cmon, there isnt seem to be any plot. yawns, boring. wasted my time and 7 bucks and bugis where the seats are damnnnnnn shortt. hais. haha. i think i gotta get back to studying or else when my mom returns i needa go out to work again. rawrrrrrrrrrr

SURVIVED MY 3 DAYS 2 NIGHT CLUSTER SOUTH 1 CAMP AT SINGAPORE DISCOVERY CENTER WITH XIANGRUI, POORNIMA, RAYMOND, HIDAYAH, FARAH, HAFIZAH, RYZAL, HAIRIL, KAMINI, WASSEMA, LILIN, BETTINA, SHI MIN & KARTHIK!! now let's see...:

XIANGRUI: MY LAUGHTER
POORNIMA: MY CAMERA-TAKER
RAYMOND: MY GROOM!!
HIDAYAH: MY SECRET LOVE RIVAL
FARAH: MY LISTENER
HAFIZAH: MY NEW FRIEND ((:
RYZAL: MY BUS PARTNER!
HAIRIL: MY IDOL!!
KAMINI: EATING PARTNER
WASSEMA: MY SECRET LESBIAN CUM BANG BANG PARTNER
LILIN: SLEEPER
BETTINA: MY HIRED DETECTIVE xD
SHI MIN: MY WALL
KARTHIK: MY WHACKER

HAIS, firstly i need to thank God that i can come back in a whole piece and nort in the form of ice. and then i wanna thank my family, friends... and list goes on...

well, i guess from the above you can conclude that guoyi went crazy again after returning from the camp. its like, she needs to get sent back to IMH, anyone kind enough to help her please? haha, okay, im really sick and is supposed to be sleeping now okay. just had a whole hour of bathing and its shiok. i guess i made loads of new friends there and especially i love those st margaret's girls and the queenstowners. they are cute, sweet, pretty, handsome and most importantly, FRIENDLYY. its like, i barely slept 2 hours last night and we played the game of confessions. kinda fun but scary too.talked bout ghost stories and all that. i guess i liked the dancing of our school's honky tonk stomp the most. many ppl joined in and i invited the VIPs. mrs ang our vp was rather impressed and im sure she will follow up with this project closely. currently, im just very enthusiastic bout continuing to plan for our upcoming RACIAL HARMONY DAY'S PROGRAMME!! its getting so exciting but shhh, i cant tell anyone okay? hahaha *knocked out* okay wait. also wanna end off with telling you guys that i grew fatter again. cos basically we did nothing there but sit, eat and sleep. PLEASE DONT DOUBT ME, i have got evidence and witnesses. ((:

sunny. sleepy.

pon-ded school today, ate a lot of tidbits while watching death note at home. i think i will just rot away if i continue doing so. or maybe i will just end up turning into a pig and being sent to the zoo. yawns. anyway, decided to skip school today due to the four periods of maths. told ya suddenly i just lost interest in it. hate myself for that man. hmm, oh ya, will be going away next three days for camp so miss me ya? thanks loads, LOL. byeeee, im still as crazy as ever, TRALALA!!

i think i spent almost 6 hours watching bleach and perfect girl evolution today. well, i think it will exceed that if i continue watching, which i am currently doing. ahh, i thought its best to start watching since holiday's round the corner already. you know, plenty of lala time. not so in a mood to study anymore after my crappy sucky results. rawrr, alright, i think im having a bad flu since last night, nort so looking forward to school tomorrow!

Prince charming found his princess
Very happily
They were the perfect couple
As cute as can be

One day they were married
In a land far away
They thought that they'd be married
Until this very day

But life wasn't so perfect
Things started to get bad
Where had their happiness gone,
The happiness they once had?

"Who is this man I married?"
The princess wondered why
"Isn't he prince charming,
The supposedly perfect guy?"

Well prince charming was a jackass
Prince charming was a prick
Prince charming was a good-for-nothing
Dirty, heartless dick

His charm was fake and just an act
His looks were all he had
Who would have know the "perfect guy"
Would turn out to be so bad?

He beats his wife, he hates his kids
He's always in a fight
And no one would expect it
From this so called "Mr. Right"

Looks can be deceiving
Deceive is what they do
So beware of the prince charmings
They just might hurt you too

new skin, for those who know me, you know who i am and i guess i dont have to mention anymore. hmm, this time round, im nort so much into making it so yeahh, nort so well organised and my theme sucks. oh well, gotta change it soon, didnt really like it but its still kinda cute. ANW, COS I WAS BUSY WATCHING THE NEWS. I STILL CANT BELIEVE IN INTERVIEWED. im nort going school tmr okay. running away! (:






baby, its just too little too late.

omg. im on news, yet i didnt see it. i must have looked XXX ugly. RAWRR. )): but its quite cool, and i ate LOADS today.

rawrrrrr, my sis saw us at the bus stop and boarded the same bus with us. damnn, oh whatever man. anyway, i failed like so many papers today, and that's so freaking cool okay. maybe i should just jump down and die, YAY. you know what? i really wanna cut my hair cos its so frreaking messy and hot, hmm, i think ms suriani's hair is cooL! ((: anyway... i hope i dont receive any more lousy results. ):






i wanna be the reason for your smile.

yay, im so happy, im really pretty am i? haha, okay, at least im gaining the little bit of that confidence, hehe, no but wait, IM STILL FAT DAMMIT. sorrie bout being too over weigh conscious. so why am i talking bout this anyway? cos ppl are commenting that im cute! haha, hmm, well i guess what he says means loads to me, that's whyy. hmm, anyway, cute also means UGLY BUT ADORABLE so i guess im still nort that pretty. RAWRR, its okay, im nort that vain anyway, and i still havent got my hair cut! boo hoo.

anyone realised i sounded kinda cheery here? haha, i wonder whyy too. tralala, i know i should be terribly depressed over my XZXZXZ results and that should be worn off by now after a super tiring and long training! right, let's nort talk bout those crap rubbish result that i've never got satisfied with. i'm really so starting to hate maths okay. HA, what a joke to everyone right, but yeahh, seriously... and then chemistry isnt that good that... oh well.

im so freaking dirty now and i still have to bake some chocolates later! sleepyyyyyy......... yawns.




when im lost in the rain,
i wanna find my way back to you,
for you're the only one who'll shelter me even though it means that you'll get wet too.

yawns, i went to bake stuff again, hehe, for some special reason again but of course as a fillial daughter i did do something for my dearest mom. its so ironic, i always scream at her and "hate her to the core" but still, i cant bear to do even more nasty stuff to her on this day. well well, i seem to be in good mood. ((: hmm, alright, i think im off for a haircut, there's school tomorrow, there's training tomorrow but there's no papers anymore! but no... i dont wanna get back those lousy results man... sighh. siannnnn

its a good day, except that im having headache and feel like puking the whole time. well, should just blame it on the bus trip, taking bus to and fro, front and back all around singapore, driving me nuts! its especially sunny too. wasted much time loitering about and lied to my mom that i had softball. lol.and what happened in the end? I STILL DIDNT WATCH SPIDER MAN 3. damnnn








when i lay in your arms, it feels like heaven.
cos there's nothing else better than it.
hold on tight.
cos the longer you hold, the more i dont wanna let go.

rainy. drenched. sleepy.

almost got knocked down by a car just now. why? was blasting myself with "too little too late" while looking down, emo-ing. obviously, my mind was occupied and yeahh, i forgot i was crossing a road cos it was rather quiet. guess what went through my mind? haha, yupp, it was daryl lim. i smiled all the way man, knowing that this time round, im nort going back on my words and is very confident enough to say "GUOYI HAS TRULY LET GO IT." that's so cool okay, cos i was shopping around westmall just now and kinda saw some flashbacks. i also went into this shop where there's very pretty necklaces and stuff. somehow, something somewhere crossed my mind. uh huh, it was that necklace. how bout saying... its exactly the same? well, its the gift from him i like most cos its damn sweet. its the heart-shaped one, and the last time i saw it, it was last year when i threw it into the field at the 96 bus stop. now i realised i was being so harsh, but on the other hand, it isnt a bad thing throwing it away, afterall, there's nothing really left there to remind me of him anymore. (:

even though i managed to overcome it, life's still full of many other obstacles and blahh. its like, i dont think im really gonna dare to fall in love again. all the consequences freaks me out! hmm, currently, im probably still a little confused, kinda indecisive and have been moody. i guess i should get myself an answer soon to get myself outta this misery. i would be glad if someone can guide me even though this sorta thing is supposed to be decided by myself by as long as you are there to support me, im sure i can survive once again! <33




dont come to me when im the most vulnerable, cos i might just fall in love with you...

oh anw, for the HO family, let's hold the sentosa trip on thurs after the papers and of course after the farewell party of 3/2? for objections, please tag at my blog, thank thank. (:

man, life sucks. its like, i seem to be looking forward to end of mid year but may be not too. i dont know. well, im so not going to do well for everything. probably not even maths. let's just hope that i dont let those who care down.


poornima, at least you got attached?

down with flu, damn. eyes swollen with a red nose like a clown. this is no good. i still got say 4days to go? i was moody again today. its like, i stood there for kinda long, knowing that he will never appear but i still did bother looking forward to his existence. that's so silly of me, but life's full of irony. when you're not with the one you love, you start to miss them and when you're, you tend to take it for granted, so dont blame me.








what hurts the most was being so close, standing next to you but knowing that i'll never get you.
*OUCH*

blahh, i just wasted the whole afternoon baking. okay, im nort going to say anything more bout it cos its just baking. haha, (: hmm, anyway, i should be studying my physics, but nothing seems to be going in. damnn, help, what to do? fail la, heck, dont care. tralalala. sigh, depressed, walked around IMM today all alone for hours ending up buying nothing. im so so so so so indecisive. ): its okay, forget it, i think i need some sleep.

yawns, its like the 7th guy. may be i shouldn't be a kind soul. may be i shouldn't put on the smile anymore.

anyway, just to inform the HO family, we shall make a trip down to sentosa this coming holiday! (:

boo! okay, i admit i slept for 6 hours just now. and it was supposed to be a NAP. after nap. yupp, im no diff from a pig. eat and sleep and eat again. cos guess what? i've just baked some cookies and enjoying them now, YUM YUM. oh ya, i think i'll probably order some pizzas later too, hungry sia. haha.

anyway, had math paper 1 and ss paper this morning. sucked, so let's not talk bout it. also i was been very moody. sigh. wondering if i should tell her this problem... hmm.

yeahh, its dying out. no more hard feelings. im so loved by ppl like munyee and poornima i can still live my life happily. but baby, even though im beginning to let go of yesterdays, you know its too little too late, i just dont love you no more. (:

yawns, i better hurry up blog cos i havent had my shower yet!! omg, had a good nap just now anyway. haha, lately been trying to run away from blogging, for i wanna keep my life out of people. may be its right that i should just only discuss bout the slightest event happening now and then.

well, let's see, mid-year's here and everyone's so busy studying except me, sleeping away. haha, okay, perhaps i did try and put in an effort, just that its still not enough. as you know, nothing was ever perfect for me. haha. even if i were to try my best, i would still think im useless cos i never achieve anything. lala.

my sorethroat's getting from bad to worse, i better shut up from now on, ahhhhhhh, help, i cant even voice out now. ): I WANNA SCREAM MY LUNGS OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT







if you catch me emo, you know guoyi's still now back yet.