HOT, sweatyy.
we belong together - mariah carey


self-reflection, i know its gonna be long:


im not sure if you're reading this:
i saw you today, i feel like im seeing you lesser these days, is it me or is it you? i think its me. may be i just too busy and didnt notice your existence. or maybe im avoiding you cos im disappointed in you. the most i could give you is only that fainting smile or a wave or two. how sad can that be? i thought we used to have like tons of topics to talk bout and never run out of laughter? i thought what happened to us, what exactly happened? is it you or is it me? or is it the wind that is blowing us apart? you claimed that im weird, am i? i went to think bout it, may be i am. may be we've both changed. so what now? what are we now? still best friends?
tell me you can change, be a decent, be a nice and smart guy, the tim i used to know, tell me can you? pls?



sis, if only you get to read this cos im not afraid to hide it inside me anymore, at least posting it up here is the first step already.
i've been wanting to tell you that im old enough, i can be independent, i know you care, i know you got a life too, so do i. i know you're worried by my studies and this and that but hey, i believed you have gone through what i have too right? so maybe you should learn to let go, and then slowly watch me grow. you should accept me for what i am now and what im going to do. perhaps you can drop by some advice once in a while and then respect me and let me decide if im gonna take your words. definitely there will times we dont agree on each other right? we are both quite different that's why. you know, the more you control me, the more im gonna rebel, its never gonna work on your little sis, me, guoyi, no it wont.
after that incident two years back, i kinda starting to regret already. i guess its my fault afterall, i was so wilful and didnt wanna admit my mistake back then. i was really wrong but its different now, i've really matured so trust me for once, let me be, i know what im doing.
lastly, also wanna let you that... no matter what you're do after reading this, i know i can still love you as a sister even though i do hate you some other times... and i wanna choose to believe that whateva you have decide and have done for me will be da best for me. thank you so much. TGFGL a.k.a. ERJIE :D




DAMNN, IM SO COWARD, I STILL CANT BRING UP MY COURAGE TO MAKE HER READ THIS, MAY BE I JUST CANT LET DOWN THAT DUMB THING CALLED DIGINITY. SORRY. ): ONE DAY, ONE DAY, I WILL