sunny, trapped.
almost here - brian mcfadden


my mom didnt allow me to go out of the house today. ):
at least i enjoyed myself thoroughly on saturday. i was supposed to be angry and feeling foul, but thanks to weisheng & sister, dave, ms peh, bryan, poornima and ikwan for cheering me up. i was really going to walk out of the rest when i see with my own eyes what i should have known earlier. anyway, i got to watch the fire works with dearest dave and bryan and it was really sweet. haha. well, maybe i was right, i shouldnt have joined them and be the odd one out, i've become so extra over there and everyone got to watch it with their loved ones instead of meee. haah, bullshit.


do you know? no you dont.
no you dont know how much you've hurt me. you dont know how much i love you still. you dont know im a big liar and so are you. you dont know how deep my wound is.
no you dont. you just dont know how to change for the better and let me give you another chance again. you dont know how to wait for me like you've promised and i hate empty promises.
its okay, i rather you not cos i told myself not to believe in you again. these two nights, you made me think bout how i have decided to start anew and overcome my fear, you know, you're the one who made me put down the past and now you're doing this to me? its like stabbing into my wound once more. ouch.
there's so many other ppl that care but why do i only want you to care?
i dont know. i dont understand.
i hope you read this and regret what you've done.

no, dont read this.