suddenly i was just bored, and that i feel so confused up, i decided to blog. but when i come to this page, my mind seems to go totally blank, like as if i cant express out everything, and i start wondering whyy i even feel this wayy. so what's been into me, making me feel irritated and stuff like that? im sure there's many reasons behind this but there can only be a main one. i havent slept well last night, just by thinking through what we used to do can already take up four hours of my sleep, i wonder what will happen if i start rmb all those small little incidents that happened the past one year, 365 days. its sounded real long, but seems short to me. that's it, its over. well, i guess i dont want to have anything to do with it anymore, and shall start anew nerdy guoyi life peacefully.

you just dont know how pathetic it is to hold on to something that is not coming back. then maybe i should just let go.