guys, im sick. argh. having a horrible a sorethroat, the worst sickness i hated all in my life. haha. then, ya, led to fever and vomit and all that. sorry... blAME it on me for eating freaking so much fried chicken wings, french fries and blah. but they are just so nice! i dont mind having them now... and then today is just my most unlucky day since i got a bad fall in the morning and burnt my finger while baking. ahhh. help. whyy ):

listening to westlife's new album. so... so touching. cant help but just cried. i would definitely grade it 5 stars. it's just too good! oh ya, and i have been a number 1 fan of westlife ever since they are out, the first few english songs i ever listen to and the first band i ever came across. aww. how bout taking a look at the lyric of my favourite song here? let's go:

The Rose.

Some say love it is a river

That drowns the tender reed.

Some say love it is a razor

That leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love it is a hunger

An endless, aching need

I say love it is a flower,

And you it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking

That never learns to dance

It's the dream afraid of waking

That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken,

Who cannot seem to give

And the soul afraid of dying

That never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely

And the road has been too long.

And you think that love is only

For the lucky and the strong.

Just remember in the winter

Far beneath the bitter snow

Lies the seed that with the sun's love,

In the spring, becomes the rose.

hey, im finally updating after a week... ya, my freaking sister been taking over this computer for quite some time so ya... IDIOT... oh well, anw, i have been fine, except that i still like to eat alot and have been sleeping too much... and i really feel guilty when i keep saying lies and go out to play... i should study! oh well, i needa break too. seems like everyone's been enjoying so merry christmas and a happy new year. (:

EDMUND'S BACK!! ((:

sorry girl. sorry i lied to you.

wow, there goes my two weeks in a blink of eye. time flies, yeah? this two weeks havent been good for me anyway. aww, its not gonna crash the cheerful guoyi though she cried in the day before yesterday due to some confusion in her heart. she's a silly girl.

my holidays has been sucky since my mom is constantly nagging at me and not forgetting that i was given a tight slap by her when i was in thai. i thank her for she made me even more rebellious now. (:

i met two guys quite important in my life the day before yesterday. and i walked away without saying anything and teared when nobody knew. they can't be bothered i guess. oh well.

the upcoming sec one camp's gonna be fun, i really do hope. let me remain cheerful even though i still dream of daryl. sigh. dreams aren't something i can get control of so sorry 'bout that.

yesterday went out with poornima, shiva and guru. today went out with poornima, shiva and kader again. haha. its crap la. just sat around an d rot. went vivo to take a peep and realised that was nothing much afterall. dont drag me there next time explaining how good it is!

STUDY HARD GUOYI, & don't forget to buy your new uniforms from queensway before school starts. Heh



OH YA, ONE BIG NEWS:
GUESS WHAT GUYS? THE PHOTO OF Y.P.G. (THAT IS COMMONLY ALSO KNOWN AS YANLIN, POORNIMA, GUOYI) IN ETHINIC COSTUMES IS PASTED IN SCHOOL OF BLOCK G I THINK. SO BIG AND WRITTEN THERE: CARE & CONCERN. OH, THANK GOD FOR THAT.


& i thought y.p.g. disbanded. LOL

hey guys. boo. im leaving soon, so miss me kayy? suddenly i feel sadd, a little left out, cos since i smsed so many ppl and no one replied... sigh, oh well, GUOYI, time to wake up and face the fact! the world's like that, filled with loads of hypocrite, get it? haha. maybe going away for some time can make me feel better too! hehe.

today played with nanyang girls, oh, tough fight i would say, so close... it was 11-13, by 2 runs only! gosh. what to do? sigh. BUCK UP NEWTOWN!! though i didnt play, i felt happy for my team, and being the scorer, i hate myself for being always so blur. sigh. i wanna play the next time round! WORK HARD TO ACHIEVE MY GOALS. coach was right! so right i guess. if we dont even think we can win them, why bother playing? have confidence in every game, and tell yourself they are nothing for if they are good, we will be better. and if they are better, we are the best and if they are the best, we will still be the final standing winner cos we are the number one, THEY CANT BEAT US. haha. what a mind set, he's really great. (: boost lotsa my confidence and made me think through things. (:
suddenly i feel like hating samantha again. haha. im sorry but i just thought she was a betrayer. she supported nanyang when she came down to newtown to be spectator. HOW "LOYAL". lol.

went with szelei and pearline to makan again. been quite close to szelei recently since we always go around eating, and got some ppl backstabbed me by saying bout me hanging out with her and i really hate it. sigh, again, hypocrite. its okay, nvm. back to the eating, szelei and i are like going around singapore on a cab always no matter rain or shine! and then finally i managed to drag her to the coffeeshop near pearline's and my place to eat bee hoon! enjoyed ourselves... ((;


suddenly i feel depress again upon hearing those sad songs sang by jay. wondering whyy? no, not bcos of daryl... probably bcos of a dream just now? it wasnt a dream. it was more like... a flashback... when i was fast asleep after a tiring traiinng.
i rmb... i had to pass the message from her to him so that they could be together...
i rmb... i had to tell him that she said YES to his QUESTION...
i rmb... i was just like a match-maker...
i rmb... i was the third party...
i rmb... i was being nice but in the end i felt so hurt...
i rmb... they were my friends... and couldnt bear to not help...
i rmb... i just seem to rmb that day soooo clearly...
but after remembering all these things... i still had some doubts... like:
i couldn't really rmb... if i really liked him anymore...
i couldn't really rmb... if they were truly my friends...
i couldn't really rmb... how it felt like being hurt by two of your friends...
i couldn't really rmb... how everything really went so smoothly through me...
i guess it's probably not that i couldn't rmb them, it's just that i choose not to. maybe, doing all these to them, and not getting any 'thanks' in return, i dont mind. afterall, they could have simply find someone else to help them, and then they trusted me since i was their friend. at least after doing this sacrifice, can make two ppl happy instead of three of us being down. so i knew i was right to have back off and didnt start a war. i was a good girl though things have became complicated. i dont wanna bring things up anymore, for she's still been hidden in the dark, and maybe... never ever find out some truth, just like me, i may never know what's gonna happen to them or to myself, cos' i never look forward to.



HEY GUOYI, DONT BE UNHAPPY. RMB WHAT YOU'VE PROMISED YOURSELF? NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN THE FUTURE, NOTHING'S GONNA BEAT YOU DOWN, FOR YOU'RE THE STRONG & CHEERFUL GUOYI EVERYONE KNOWS, AND NO LONGER THAT TEARFUL & MOODY GUOYI IN THE PAST. THIS IS ME NOW, I'VE COME BACK ALIVE, SAFE & SOUND. xD

alright, time to update. ytd didnt have time to blog cos munyee was at my place studying maths. we were indeed hardworking, spending the whole day in the room, mostly talking and end up not going for a run around our estate. sadd. sigh, so and then i taught her some stuff and did thought that i could be sucha good teacher to explain so well when in the first place i didnt understand the chapter much of matrix. i really do hope i didnt teach her the wrong stuff! hehe.

wendy's coming my place later too. again, to study. i need companion when i study larr. or else it will get sooo bored and frustratingg. so im like going around to drag ppl. HAHA. hmm, i wanna watch a movie and play a match of badmintoN!! sudden urge. haha.


he hasnt been replying to my smses or returning to my calls. what happened? is it purely a misunderstanding or was it done on purpose cos he's angry at me? or probably he has met with some accident and died. LOL. i dont know, and i sure want to know whyy. im going away soon, well, he might miss me, but im quite sure it wont be the other way round, me missing him. it's fine with me if we haven''t been talking for days, but hope nothing has happened to him. God bless. (:

hurray, im proceeding to the third chapter of the a-maths tb. its tiring man, seriously. cmon, try doing those maths questions continuously for four hours and trust me, you will go nuts like me. haha. im taking a break for the numbers so i came over to touch the computer to see if there's any work for me to touch up. oh well, i haven been eating for the past 36 hours already. haha. gotta find some snacks or i will just black out.


seeing her right now really hurts me. now i know how stupid i used to be, clinging on to something that is never coming back. at least i have become smarter now. but that's still someone, my good friend suffering. i hope she really can overcome it like how i do it soon! God bless. (:

oh F. my leg cramp is here again. weather's been bad and cold i guess. and worse still, i still experience body ache over every where after today's training like hell! this morning i didnt know there was a match VS AES, but yanlin sms me at 0730 when i have to reach school at 0800. so i rushed then and managed to reach earlier than she did. haha. so had some warm up and stuff and game started. as usual, im the scorer, didnt play at all but im still glad my team won in the end win a score of 2-21. that's like awesome cos i didnt expect the opponent to be so weak and i think i really like this coach, he's nice. haha. alright. then after that went to queensway to makan with szelei but in the end never. instead, we got ourselves an ice cream and a bubble tea and happily went around looking for shoes. i was starving but i promised not to eat. at least i drank! haha. although im not suppose to have cold stuff, but down they went into my stomach. soon, we came back from there back to school to attend the leaders meeting and then took cab home at four since i really feel sick. bathed and slept all the way till i just woke up and missed dinner. that means i havent eat anything today except pearls from bubble tea! haha. ME=PIG!! zz.

oh man. cramps sucked. haha. it sucks i mean. it has always been sucky. lol. no matter what cramp is it... especially LEG CRAMP. that means i cant swim. haha. pretty cool, today didnt get to go to church, AGAIN. ): budden went for tuition class and breakfast with tutor. hehe. she treated me, nice of her! anw, got to work at home now since i got this new computer called IMAC that has a monitor and a keyboard just like any other laptop and without destop and cost me up tp $3000++ of my pay, i have to definitely make good use of it!! yawn. twenty inch screen really makes one dizzy. alright. enjoying life.

hey guys. new skin yeah? its nice okay. no lousy comment here. lol. and then to make it clear, i chose this skin not because of the meaning behind, but of the VERY CUTE PICTURE YOU SEE UP THERE!! hehe. i like it alot. love at first sight. lol.

like i say... there's no more him in me anymore already. dont worrie, guys. (:

sunny day once again. yawn. just woke up from my ten hours of sleep. currently having gastric again. die la. my stomach is growing bigger in size day by day and my appetite's getting wider. oh well. must be those sucky medicine that makes me fat. yuck. feel like not eating them! haha. nono, maybe i shouldnt eat. okay, decided. im not gonna eat today. i shall just die of starvation. haha. no i wont die. its barely a day only. and i havent been to training okay. i must go run around the whole bukit timah area later. WAHAHAH. what a joke. lol

finally its a weekend today. no work. haha. can start rotting again. or maybe not. stay at home to revise maths. yeah. haha. lala. whee. yay. i wanna catch a movie. or i will really be dying out. lol. but with who? zz ): whos nice enough.


SAY ' NO ' TO ICE-CREAM. (:

sleeping time! okay wait, im talking to this new made friend called benjamin. quite friendly and nice to get along so... yupp, had a great time chatting with him online. we just met only a week ago during the RJC workshop. we didnt talk much though but he claimed that i looked like his friend.. hmm, HAH.

okay, what now? today's work as usual. was punctual at least for once but the boss didnt see me cos he was out. and then got a little early off since i got OT ytd. haha. so i went to cut my hair trimmed and now... its much neater! muahah. i get to gel my hair. I GET TO GEL MY HAIR. haha. joke. not that short, but its just awesome. i proudly announced to i got a satisfying hairstyle. whee. worth that ten bucks indeed!

oh ya, today im supposedly "SICK" bcos i didnt go training and the meeting. sharks. missed that friendly match with STC, but afterall, they lost. heard its 6-11. oh well, sadd. and then the meeting on the student leader thingy really made me feel guilty. argh. responsibility. talking bout this, i dont know to work or to go for the meeting. its like. ee. fine. if i work, i got pay. HAHA. so realistic and materialistic. NOT ME!

and then i might be joing xuanyi and shi hui to visit the old folk and toa payoh tmr. im kind. I KNOW IM KIND. (: its just that we missed him and then decided to meet up and pay him a visit since he's so poor thing. a loner who needs comfort and free food. waiting for us to entertain him and feed him! omg. one-room flat, IM COMING!! and then that uncle is like damn cute la. so this trip there is out of helping and serving the society la. not being forced to or having CIP points. haha. weird, wonder why i will do this too? hehe


GOOD NIGHT, no more horrid dreams!

just talked to him.
started off the conversation with a friendly tone by asking how his brother did for psle and wanted to compare with my sis... i was daring when things turned out liddat:

... ...
can i ask you something?
ya sure.
what does your nick means?
oh nothing much la. how bout yours? got gf arh?
nar. for fun only.
actually... i just wanna admit to you that i havent gotten over some things in the past...
like what?
you would know better than anyone...
i cant do anything.
neither can i. i havent been able to give myself a chance to start another r'ship after soo long.
*no reply.*
fine, at least i got to concentrate on my studies... i have been well, dont worry.




every time i know i will get hurt after hearing what he says... i still want to talk to him... why? *silly me.*

what another sad day. haha. gotta listen to my bitchy mom nag again. haha. im sorry for being disrespectful here but im used to it already. so hope your dont mind. and then currently having a little gastric pain even though i ate some breakfast... wonder what happened... anw. last night had a bad dream again.. even though i dreamt of vidya, it was a nightmare too. sigh. whateva. everyone left for the camp. im all alone. zz

There's just a thing or two
I'd like you to know
You were my first love,
you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
Even though time may find me somebody new


I'm sitting here alone up in my room
And thinking about the times that we've been through
I'm looking at a picture in my hand
Trying my best to understand
I really want to know what we did wrong
With a love that felt so strong

I'd do anything,
I'd give you my world
I'd wait forever,
to be your girl
Just call out my name,
and I will be there
Just to show you how much I care

It's funny how it starts, just how it all begins.
You get your sights on dreams,and man a thousand different things.
You are on for yourself,you're chasing cool desire.
You get addicted fast, but man you're playin' with fire.

Then there's a day that comes to you.
When you get all you want, but there's a space inside that's still as empty as it was.
'Till an angel comes your way and man she's fallin fast.
You know she's so in need but she is to afraid to ask.

So you hold on out your hands and catch her best you can.
And in givin' love you feel a better man.

*And the gift is what you get by givin' more than you receive.
And you're learnin' fast that maybe this is how you'll be happy.
'Cause in takin' everything you lost, the air you need to breath.
But in givin' it away, you found the precious thing you seek.

Man, it's funny how she smiles, how grateful she is now.
And how that touches me deep in my heart somehow.
Yet the mirror laughs at me when I forget myself.
When I complain about, this hand that I got dealt.

And if I had know before, how much she would change my life.
I'd sure go back in time and tell that guy ...hey, man.
You can do better than this, you can answer your prayers.
You can grant your own wish.

Just hold on out your hands and give the most you can.
And I swear to you you'll feel a better man.

im stuggling again. tears of memories. that same old boring story again. countless apologies.





What I got to do to make you love me?

What I got to do to make you care?

What do I do when lightning strikes me?

And I wake to find that you’re not there?

What I got to go to make you want me?

What I got to do to be heard?

What do I say when it’s all over?

Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It’s sad, so sad It’s a sad, sad situation.

And it’s getting more and more absurd.

It’s sad, so sad Why can’t we talk it over?

Oh it seems to me That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

the voice has been resounding...

"yet you are still trying to forget me after two long years...

what's the point?

just keep me in your heart...

you have never once forgotten all the times we had, at all."

AND I REALLY DONT WANNA DREAM OF HIM ANYMORE, PLEASE?!?!

not again. another night of horror. what happened? rainy nights, is it? so what? i thought he's already gone... that demon in me was supposedly known to be disappeared... no, but its back, back here this few nights... i fell asleep last night though i tried not to since its really tiring and sleepy working the whole day... but soon after i woke up again at 3am. the bewitching hour.. so creepy and eerie... but it was all because of that same dream again. let's not talk bout it man. i didnt want it to happen. i cant return to sleep after that... so im like a living zombie walking around today on earth. with deep eye bags that made me looked like panda, i really cant withstand it!




on the verge of a nervous breakdown.
release me, let me go.

wa. back from work. still went to pick my sis up. the mrt is flooded with stinky ppl. haha. what 'GOOD' weather it is outside now... raining cats and dogs. zz, perfect timing for sleeping(my favourite)! hehe (:

on the way to work...
was late... got nagged. bad mood! but saw my ex teacher... primary school teacher... PRIMARY ONE FORM TEACHER!! and she recognised me. its, so UNBELIEVABLE OKAY. she said i didnt change... yeah, maybe i didnt ON THE OUTSIDE, but most of it in there. haha. and then just for a short while we chatted. she changed alot too. having two kids with her, and accompanied with a loving husband. what a family for me to envy! haha. i think she's someone that i will never forget la... she only thought me for two years but i guess it meant too much. haha. she thought me all the basics and every other things else. sweet!

work...
life was as boring as ever... time seemed to pass like how a snail goes... zz... hungry hungry... FREEZE.


last night...
BAD DREAM... BAD BAD DREAM. I HATE IT. I REALLY HATE IT. i thought he faded away... after soooooooo longggggggggggggggggg. AND YET HE DID NOT. HE STILL POPPED OUT AND APPEARED IN MY DREAM. EVIL. gave me a nightmare... his favourite phrase, YOU WORST NIGHTMARE. aihs. what to do? been thinking of the BLAH before i slept... that's why... cos it's a rainy night again. haha. what a stupid excuse. i shouldnt blame myself i got reminded of him right?! im was simply listening to the song: somewhere we know. so meaningful... yeahh. and then i think i read too much of death note too. and i didnt have enough sleep. so i also dreamt that i killed people with the book. hehe. i must be influenced by munyee! omg. help man. haha. i need a physcatrist. im suffering from insomia. i dont dare to sleep. HOW?!





where is happiness sold and how much does it cost? i would like to have a packet of it. thankyou.

i just came back from a one day trip from malaysia! haha. and damn, i forgot all bout bringing my camera along. sigh. guess what, as usual, its more than cool, its shiok, fun and HOT. haha. have you ever seen a longan plantation as far and long as from bukit timah to clementi? i bet you havent, but unfortunately, i got this priority, to also taste all those organic fruit. HAHA. freaking sweet. also visited my grandma's grave since its her death anniversary.. and then i heard then she didnt die peacefully but of leukemia.. sadly i didnt even see her. aww. and then there we went to the fish market... fishes as fresh as just captured and still shaking under the butcher's knife. and im serious. no exeraggating. haha. what else.. all the seafood are freaking cheap too. but all this joy derives from at least 4hrs of car ride. VOMIT** haha. also saw alot of stray animals on the street like cows, chickens.. dogs and blah.. just imagine the SMELL. lol. omg. ya. so at first i thought i was rather sad not being able to attend church today.. but nar.. i still enjoyed my sunday.. and if you guys see me online today, its not that im lying bout going to malaysia, im probably using my bro's hp of GPRS. muahaha. sad to say.. i was outcast by my relatives since they all spoke dialects. haha. what a day! just had my dinner as great as the emperor's food. haha. its like... we got guests today and then i got to taste those abalone kept on the shelves for months. haha. and then before i set off this morning.. i went to fetch my aunties and uncles... meanwhile.. i sat on the rooftop of their homes and almost got struck by lightning! hah. alrihgt.. wondering if i should go for training tmr. so sian. you knw me.. lazy bum.. but oh well.. it will probably be my last time since my toe still hurts and im starting work. ARGH. onechunkofwords(:


WHO'S GETTING ME AN n5300 FOR MY COMING BIRTHDAY?! my mom says it looks ugly. (hurting)

sad. sad sad day. why liddat? cheerful guoyi went away for a holiday again... back to de depressed mode of guoyi. do you know her? no i dont know. weird weird de. aiyah. i certainly got no mood to elaborate what happened today..






but there now at somewhere in singapore... a girl named munyee had did a wonderful thing this evening by giving guoyi a great big heart at the control station of clementi... therefore, i would like to appreciate her existence and thank her a lot... the hug i remembered was warm and sweet.. so comfortable and i hope i would be able to meet her asap. hah. ((: smile for my best friend!

WA! what have i been doing the past 3 days again? damn bloody freaking busy and tired at expo whole day just for this bio project. indeed a big sacrifice. HOWEVER this is an experience im never gonna ever forget for it is fabulous and amazing. WHOO, hot ((: yupp, so what happeneD? let's see, actually i was planning to camp overnight at expo but as you know, its very unsafe... HAHA. okay nvm, back to topic. so where was i? hmm, oh ya, back to the exhibiton... ya what? I TALKED TO BIG BOSS. WHO?! SCHERING PLOUGH'S HEAD. OFFICIAL HEAD. aiyah, maybe you guys wont understand how it feels like to actually talked to VIP and stuff... its introducing their own product and showing to them how i promote them to the public. at least... at least i got praise by mdm neo! wow. thats cool okay, cOOOOOOOl. yes. i find that i can talk quite fluently now... and I ATE A LOT LATELY. die. )): cry. later no one wants me how? then i will end up like... like giant. alemak. dont care la. think bout it some other time when im more free.


WATCHING NEWS.......................................... TO SEE IF I WENT ON.......................................


disappointedly, NO. how can they do this to me man. oh well, at least i spotted cute guys there. HAHA. went changi airport for breakfast and fell in love with this fast food, mary brown's worker. oops. sorry bout that. haha. you can actually go take a look at him and murder him for me!! tmr im going for that student leader thingy again so no rest time for me... sigh... then friday should be working liao ba... yawn. home sweet home.. havent got a good rest.. therefore im going to bed now.. and probably tmr going to peep at my prince charming at airport again. wahahah.

oh my! finally, im back home. after this extremely awesome student leader camp even though unhappy things happened too. haha. hmm. so.. what should i talk about now? oh well, how bout let me start from today? (: okay..

i have officially joined fcbc today and shall TRY to be a loyal christian since im new and has lotsa doubts... mr tan say pin invited the student leaders but only roxanne, sean, jingwen and i turned up while xuan yi and mun keong were already inside. hmm, the mentors were all there too and everyone were just so friendly as i expected. i was given a bible too! satisfaction filled me up ((:

after an hour...

MAIN HIGHLIGHT:
oops, sorry bout that, i just went for dinner. and i enjoy my meal cos i guess the camp food really sucks. haha. so... all camp seemed to be fun... this one held in school consisted of enthu ppl especially like prefects... and then y.p.g were splitted up into groups. unfortunately, im in the group Dengue (fever) and therefore, a member of my leader, SHIVA. omg. i made many new friends though. hehe. and then my mentor can none other than to be the 20years-old JELVIN. ta-da. haha. he's really nice fellow. haha. so he's a volunteer from touch community and fate brought us together to spend this 3days 2 nights together having lotsa fun! all the games and activities are gorgeous. haha. i learnt many things! especially after visiting homes of elderly living in one room flat at toa payoh. and then, woo. i think im a good leader now! im ready for the sec 1 orientation camp, baby! ((:

tmr's got de exhibition held at expo for bio. so anyone just come along since its for public.. should be whole of afternoon. AND I CANT BELIEVE IM GONNA SPEND ANOTHER 2HRS TRAVELLING AGAIN!! HAHA

[i havent mention bout the unhappy stuff because i do not wish to be said to be badmouthing ppl and then start rumors again.]

toe pain sia. really pain. haha. idiot me went to knock at the sharp corner of my bed. now i think my little toe has to be chopped off. i havent told my mom that it is swollen red with bruises and currently going numb. yet, i turned up for school today wearing shoes. thank God. haha. oh well, i dont think im going tmr since i cant even walk now like how i took a cab home alone just now. nobody seems to bother anw. lala. today seems to be a good afternoon for swimming alone and doing some maths. yupp, i shall proceed now. goodbye.


; & i still question myself with 'BUTS' when i thought of letting him go. *
BUT IF I LET YOU GO... i would never know, what my life would be...

went to buy my books today and visited the school dentist. this time, im lucky enough to come across a kind old man for give me a check up in my mouth. he's so gentle unlike those previous ones horrible like DINOSAUR. haha. im crazy, wondering why im using these words to describe them. and yupp, he said my teeth are are alright and im glad to hear that. however my gums are not very healthy and he gave me some cleaning up that took 20mins. he didnt nag much and i felt very weird. haha. now my teeth are still a bit numb and blah. haha. well well, but still, i think i caught a cold and now shivering in my air-conditioned room with a storm outside. omg.


changed my skin, simple and clean, my style! haha. its no matter of you guys like it or not, but all bout me getting comfortable with it so please tell me its great. haha. i spent my day in front of the computer since i cant get into a nap i dont know why. probably my insomia is getting worse! that's bad. haha. i was watching bleach and listening to songs... oh ya, most of the times spending my times with solitaire! as you can see, im that bored, therefore i shall go take a look at my new books later. alright, i shall take my leave. (:

im finishing my medication.
AND THAT MEANS I WONT HAVE ANY RELAPSE!!
muahaha ((:

wa. just reached home. and ppl, I STINK, guoyi stinks. haha. im sorry bout that but i seriously think that i should go and take a bath now. soak myself in warm water to enjoy myself. hehe. today was fun. definitely, as usual i would say. all our laughters that became the memories will be remembered! discovery centre's entrance fee is a little ex though. haha. but worth it worth. get some of my fats off by running here and that. haha. maybe these are only for those ppl who are there and understand.

we took a NON-AIRCONDITIONED bus that blew my hair like a mad cat!! haha. i promise i wont do it again. haha. and then reached there, freezing like dont know what. futhermore, outside came a heavy downpour. haha. so horrible. all our money are spent and we didnt eat the whole day! we had air rifle too. those guys had a good time i can see. haha. hmm. what else. all the movies. and then the 3D one is damn cool. i like. haha. oh ya, the disco room is cool too.

then half way during everything, i got this bloody messages, coming to irritate me agian. siha. how? wahlau. i cant bear to just stab right into his heart la. but in the end i think i still did that. aww. and he's probably very hurt. but im sure he can take it. well. dont care la.


and then on the bus 240, i sat at that very same place... that very same place... where he held me tight.. so sweet. no, not now anymore. he's doing this to me. he's evil. haha. i still want that peck. haha. nvm. dont know la.


i think daryl(not LUM), haha, finally has got herself a new gf. or maybe that he has been changing alot of times just that i dont know. although im the so called SISTER of his, i bet i wont get informed for anything and we dont even talk, JUST LIKE STRANGERS NOW. haha. im just nobody anyway. haha. aiyah. anw, good for him la. i think i can find someone better AND he's not worth, he's really not worth AT ALL. haha. ((: AND I REALLY DONT LIKE HIM ANYMORE!! (confident enough to say that.)

I'M GOING TO THE DENTIST TOMORROW.

oh its raining again. heavily. dont go away water. i enjoy your company... cos you are always full of friends with you... you are everywhere... you give me memories.. you make me sad... you make me wet and sick... i dont know... but i just love you... stay and dont go away... you just dont know how much this sentence means to me, "i like walking in the rain cos nobody knows im crying." it may be very true. cos just now i really did. and julian didnt know. he kept asking, and i just said no. i guess im drunk now so im blur and crazy. very high i kept screaming. but i could rmb somethings that happened just now... i was accused by that bitch that i gotta bf outside... woah... why am i so sad over it? thats cos she didnt trust me AGAIN. cool. fine then. im not sleeping at home tonight i think. and then oh ya... i saw ahmad after so longgggg... like what seems years... and then i feel sick already cos its so freaking cold. i think im going out into the rain again. maybe should get knocked down by a car since i cant make up my mind to jump just now. lala. im dying. im serious.

cheerful me, not now anymore. sigh, i dont know why, but i felt like locking up myself in the house today.


wendy asked me out: NO. lazy. ahmad told me to go his place for hari raya: COUNT ME OUT. ): mom tried dragging me to her stall to help: NAR, sianzx. dad wanted me to go out with him to visit some friends: DONT WANT LEHS. dont disturb me.


oh. i was purely being evil. ppl sick right? argh. dont know wazzup with me la. life sucks. BIG TIME!! aww. forget it. i only kept reading some comics at home and played my PS2 the whole day from 8am? interesting... zzzz. im so chocaholic anw. kept eating. i know im going to turn fat. very fat. haha. aww. sad sia. ): well well. im a big liar too. hate myself. boo. ):


everytime it rains, im either sick or sad. now im both. haha. lala. you know, at this current moment, my mind and heart are filled with a thousand words, a million expressions but i just couldnt describe it. maybe it's just so horrible.









bottled-up.

sorry. i'm sad again. ): sigh. and i guess. my only reason can none other than to be *him. nar. nvm. was missing *him again. WAS. not now. and then maybe i'm a bit angry currently. wanna know why? well well, let me explain then...


**HE broke his promise AGAIN. as usual, i feel cheated. felt like dying. cos i hate this feeling. i never once tried doing this to hurt **him but why must **he do it to me. ~pain~ ouch! ): aww. why. again. **he always does. like i say, i'm never gonna trust **him again. i dont know who to trust. just let me fade away man. im thrown aside like a used doll. am i one to **him? i bet i am just one. used up = no need = waste. oh, sad case. im just lowering myself into a dark dark pit. never wanna climb up. who's gonna be my saviour then? lol. nvm. ya la. over this what seemed to be a small thing to others is bothering so much over me the whole day today. so i guess its a gigantic problem. but i gotta learn to put down soon. since its happening over and over again. tell me, someone tell me, why does this friendship matters so much to me? heartache sia. depressing man.

to **him:
heyy, i really cant stand you. just say it if you have got enough of me... if im irritating... if you no longer care for me... if you no longer want this friendship, then we can act like strangers... i no need you to pretend if front of others like as if we are the best of friends... you are just another liar... if you just dont feel like talking to me then IGNORE ME!!


PS: *he & **he refer to different people each. hehe. have fun figuring out. ((: it is just for ppl for know me better to read anw. lol. im sure they know who.


ANYWAY, I CHANGED MY DEDICATIONS. PLEASE DO GO AND READ. AS USUAL, VERY MEANINGFUL. THANKS. ((:

hello. wonderful pictures isnt it? i really had lotsa fun today. pity munyee isnt with me. sigh. well. health is more important anyway. unlike me, she respects her mom too. henglun, daryl, my nephew, weisheng, my son, dave and i went to science centre today! a cool trip. haha. learnt lotsa things. not bad huh? and at the CHILDREN'S PRICE, we only paid S$6 each. muahaha. and so how long did we spent there? nearly 3++++ hours worr. look at the pictures taken above. cute right? we were laughing all the way i guess. even though i was the only lady there, i gotta bear with it since its my retarded idea when i got nothing to at home!! haha. so. we went JEC arcade after that and went crazy. i was just crazy. that's cos munyee joined us. i love them i guess. haha. and then went home quite late. im a bad girl. ): hmm. anw. we are planning aanother trip to some other discovery adventrous rubbish outing again next week. anyone bother to join us? haha!

hows my new skin guys? cool right. (: hehe. i think i just love it. so pinky. and probably indirectly trying to convey messages? aha. oh well. its a blog afterall. i still think my results arent that good. and im sad. sigh. aww. cheer me up man. and only 2 person got the ability to do it. guess who? haha. (: im sure you know it!

just back from another checkup. it sucked. totally. spoiled my day. not only that i spent my time waiting. and because of the haze, im feeling even more sick. sigh. so what happened there? the doctor said some crap as usual. and then one last thing he actually told me. and really threw me into a daze after that. aww. AHHHH!!!!


maybe i was just wrong. its all my fault. i shouldnt have started that. and that things wont followed? especially my mood swing and being devastated. due to that, my life's gonna change again. omg. i hate it. why. why must it be me out of so many ppl man. forget it. im having a headache now and i guess i gotta start vomitting again. help.


this morning's life sci lesson sucked. cant imagine how im going to survive the next week!!!!! idiot instructor with the name of PRATA. rubbish la. and then keep catching me for using hp. okay. maybe i should use ACCUSING when i didnt do it. eat shit la. and the two girls nicole and yanlin sitting beside me ARE USING. so what is this? FAVOURTISM TOWARDS ADIB and not happy me pick on me la. evil. i shall murder you. MUAHAHAH. and my bio result is NOT SATISFYING AS USUAL. ):
YANLIN IS MADE IN CHINA. (:


went to westmall with yanlin for half an hour to kill time. indeed. haha. and then as usual. WESTMALL IS A PLACE OF MEMORIES. and i think back again la. everything didnt change at all. or maybe it did. after two years. the ppl DID CHANGE. not the place. sigh. i no longer go there with him*. i see all the little shops with cute stuff that we use to buy. so sweet.


i dreamt of you again.

oh well. last night i had to go to the clinic again. darn it. breathing difficulty. maybe i should die. instead of sufferring liddat. so irritating. oh crap. and then what. ppl will cry over me? haha. i dont know. ahh. im just joking la. i wont let the ppl around me like munyee shed tears easily! (: especially over me anw. tmr i got school. wawa. sad sia. hmm. playing games with edmund. he really cheered me up. always so cute. haha.







i still do miss you.

I NEED TO FIND A JOB. or else i will really become a fat pig which stays at home to rot! omg. NOO

SORRY.











and this is for someone who knows he deserves my apology.

ooh. today's maths paper sucked. im sad. im sure full marks will be far away from me. sigh. hope tmr's paper will be much better though.


oh err. after 6 hours... zzz.........


my stupid sister is playing maple. I PROMISE I WILL DELETE IT!! irritating.


listening to sad songs again. lala. bored. science drives guoyi nuts! haha. wish me luck kayy? haha. one more day to heaven. haha. lame. -.-




i got an urge to cry. exams are coming to an end. im going to be the devil and ppl's hearts again. i dont wanna do it but i have to. nvm. i think i know what to do to. and nobody shall try to influence me... LIKE ZHIYUAN. haha. what. lala. i know one thing...














i STILL cant let go of the past. not now. sorry. sigh.

oh. i damn pissed. and im freaking am. really. im not lying. just let me die man. obstacles in life are so hard to overcome. whos going to accompany to walk down this road then. but THOUGH. i enjoyed talking to timothy a little. hehe.


DEFAULT MODE: DEPRESSION.
oh it sucks.

im home, ppl. computer just went crazy. and then now talking to subhas... talking bout some things... haha. lala. just came back home from the checkup. and im listening to the conference of subhas and zhiyuan. HAHA. (: SHH. lala. its stupid la. some things... really retarded. subhas is crapping again. all bout wei en... AND HIS BROTHERS. whyy... whyy he like that. wahlau. hes sucha good leader to influence everyone. omg. horrible. maybe all the while i have seen through him anw. oh well. anw. back to what i was talking bout... even though im not supposed to make any important decision within this 48 hours! haha. its not important at all is it? haha. well. should i even care. i dont know. and its still early la. and ya. then now. on the other line im talking to kumar. omg. busy me. and then im multi tasking again. lala. thats cool. im back to hyper again. haha. yay. anw. im scared. so scared of something. but i dont know what. weird. anw. TODAYS LITERATURE SUCKED. 28m gone case. sobb.


i thought i saw him just now. or maybe some time ago. but probably i was just thinking bout it. and it seemed so real. well. i guess it cant be helped. sad. anw. well. i still do miss him. somehow. a bit la. i dont know. haha. i saw him cycling with andrew yeo and that benjamin ho. is he really that. its illusion. i know its illusion. nvm. trying to comfort myself. lala.

i survived guys. haha. dont cha worry. im safe and sound. just arrived home. although i cant make and important decision in the next 48 hours because im still in a state of drowsiness mind. terrible sorry bout that if i have lost my memories for some things. haha. hmm. do i still rmb someone called munyee? timothy sounds familiar too! haha. oh well. guess im perfectly alright when i can still joke. gotta go back to the gleneagles for checkup tmr again. yawn. argh. im going to be just fine! thanks you guys for caring so much. im touched. (: should i say im waiting to get back school tmr or not wanting to take my lit paper. help! alemak. i should just flung it man. i cant be bothered at all. looking at my geo book now. im sucha good girl. just recover and all i think of is exams. no skiving! mug mug again.


I LOVE VIDYA. mom, dont sad okay? ):

hey guys. let me take this short time as a chance to tell your that me guoyi, im sick. so sick. haha. gonna get hospitalised so sorry if i your dont see me online or answer your calls and sms blah... zz. exams here but dont worry. i will be there. haha. just need some mini operation for further investigation and I HATE BLOOD TEST. i had three just now. waiting for the results. so freaking scary i almost cried. haha. so... yupp. im just coming home to pack up and leave for two days or so. AND MISS MY REVISION WEEK END. omg. what on earth is this... haha. oh well. nvm. i will be just fine like i always am. dont worry! love love. thanks for caring but dont come visit me. haha. ASTHMA ATTACK. boo. ):

*gasping for air*

thats bad. so hazey outside. nutty. haha. wondering if i should go school tmr... so lazy. yawn. i think i gotta see the doctor. lala. so what happened today?

felt a little moody. im sorry guys. cos somethings happened... some one showed attitude again... and i wasnt feeling that well i guess... and oh ya! my geo was 7.5/10 and chem 22/30. woo~ cool. heh. its during music and idiot zhiyuan said some idiotic thing. that get me into deep thoughts. retarded. i actually listen to a shorty's words. what on earth is this? HA. AND THAT BLOODY BITCH TOOK MY TEN BUCKS. asshole. i will get timothy to kill him! hehe. evil me. but i dont care. serve him right.

stayed back in school to SUPPOSEDLY STUDY. and here comes subhas. everything gone case. forget it. wahlau. wasted my time. dammit. and then had a good time with yuneng, mr tseng, guru and munyee too. haha. laugh like crazy. then went home. OH WAIT. went shopping. hehe. (: i still love munyee.

heard then simin havent gone home. what happened?

talking to yoges. hes damn poor thing. make me wanna cry. haha. cos i thought i saw the old guoyi in him. haha. hes like a rejected guy feeling so empty looking for love to fill him up. waa. stupid poornima. just dont know how to cherish him. nvm. lets dont talk bout this.

today school was slacking la. cos got 3 periods of EL and 2 MT so is like our paper over then heck care lor. watched shrek 2. so cute. hhaha. and then LIT lesson also free. diao. cos morning PE. then i so freaking tired now. yawns. played all 3 funny games with both other classes, guys and girls. rubbish like soccer,basketball and captain's ball. whoo. had geo lesson. dont know why felt so good mood so ta bao coffee for ms chan. haha. enjoyed her only lesson for the day though. hha. then went to sp to eat with my group of friends from class but somehow 'those' ppl turned up too. cant be bothered. haha. then went tuition. and home sweet home.

i think im going for the student leader camp!yay.

lala. im good. i feel good. ta ta ta ta ta. haha. thanks timothy. thanks munyee. its you twoo again. whos always there to cheer me up... lala. i have recovered! officially... i didnt imagine it will be so fast too... well. guess its because im more positive now. unlike last time. always so saddistic! haha. now i know who are my true friends are. my sister munyee! and my son DAVE! (: and....... TIMOTHY KHOR*. (: my bestie buddy forever!! lala. haha. unlike SOME PPL. so greedy. only know how to sms me when they are sad or down to ask me to entertain them. i dont give a damn. haha. idiots.

todays english paper was manageable. you know what. now i realise... i didnt have much worries... so i felt much light hearted and cheerful.. and that i wont feel so stressed up and things seem to go so smoothly for me. lala. so i guess things would be better? like doing better in my exams? haha. what a joke. nvm. today STUPID MRS LENA ANG caught me long fingernails and PINK HAIRBAND TOO. and for eating in lcass. haha. retarded. anw. yupp. still got actually one last little tiny prob la. not bout msg cos that one is over i guess... history is just repeating itself last last year... all the making up of stories... backstabbing and badmouthing... bitching and acting... lol. this kinda friends for what? haha.

went hoome super early. cos munyee came over. i love munyee. AS USUAL. hah. tuition cancelled again. oh its dumb. saw kavita, azy and yanlin at interchange clementi. went home after drinking the super sour bubble tea. ITS ORANGE. hah.

TGFMY & TGFTK. hope munyee understands those weird characters! haha. (:

im so sick. so sick. haha. boo. guoyi's dying. AGAIN. after 496510502358 times. oh no. does it make much diff then? dont think so. haha. oh well. studying report now. hehe. chest pain + vomit + difficulty breathing + uncontrollable tears outta swollen eyes + headache. after overdose medication, feeling better, but currently facing hyper drowsiness. haha. i dont know what the shit im saying but its okay. told you im drunk. haha. or am i? that medicine has expired i guess. or maybe i should just die from eating it. never wake up. and cant rmb the last time i ate. probably at 6 years old which is 8 years ago. haha. dont think so la. err. should be last month i ate to control the asthma. I HATE THE HAZE. stupid indonesia. heh. luckily i learn geo. (:

today's chinese paper sucked. paper one is so-so. paper two is almost dead. my hp actually rang. and i just thank God for giving me a chance to off it in the time. i love CAI LAO SHI. (:

after paper went to see wendy. then met munchoon, charlene and mathias. 6d is so happy together again. maybe only the few of us la. but its enough to satisfy my carvings for the memories. haha. miss them loads. and then sat down talked for quite long and went home. i guess is because of sitting at mac too much that caused my sickness. supposed to go for tuition. rested the whole day. thinking alot. bout what zhiyuan said all day long. siannz.

all the best to my english paper tmr! and thats provided if im going school. ARGH

lala. tmr's chinese paper. and what am i doing now? to put it simple, SLACKING. horrible me. well. nvm. i wouldnt have enough time to study anymore. lets dont bother.

today went library study again with yanlin, ahmad and kenneth. i very quiet throughout. dont know why. probably spent my time sms-ing MR. RAINBOW. too busy to talk to them... haha. but i think my bill's gonna die again. omg. haha. felt like being alone for a while today. then kept to myself alot.

supposed to go out with kumar to some dont know where tmr. but due to my wendy's important matter to settle, i have to accompany her and give counselling. hehe. so tired. have to study so hard dont know for what. PROBABLY WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO REWARD ME. haha.

anyway. i just feel like going to the beach to relax. who's kind enough to accompany me? lala. hehe. so whats the combination of a rose and a rainbow?

well well. my skin. cool? munyee, WO AI NI. (: hehe. sorry. just felt like saying that.


anw. yesterday... lantern festival... sigh. so many things to ran through my mind again. well. im no longer sad. luckily with the accompany of shaun. daryl might as well can go and die la. haha. and hmm. he told me many many things i guess i shouldnt really say here... and then i had fun... went home late... i went dinner with bryan too. thats cool. haha.

oh before that i was rather depressed in school due to not being able to complete my dnt work. well. wasting of time. rubbish. and anw. i enjoyed playing heart attack with people like kumar, andrew and darren. they are really 3 cute fellows okay. hehe.

today studied the whole day. with ahmad, yanlin, kenneth and yoges. haha. so fun okay. enjoyed. lala. (: study hard! love

lala. im so hyper today. very. extremely. but now that now im getting tired. bad. yawn. so what about today. i guess its a good day afterall. nothing bad much. but many things happen. and i do hope it wont be a bad day tmr. cos good days and bad days always take turns. ):

well. so i woke up early wishing him happy birthday and then went to school with the birthday present and writing a letter to him while i was on the bus. just felt like writing though at first i thought there was a no need. went school saw that he was playing soccer. didnt disturb him. left the present with yanlin to give him.

PE lesson was okay. played soccer with the guys. SO VIOLENT. haha. and a little basketball. then got back my english test. it was alright i guess. didnt ask for too much. trying to comfort myselff. AHH. then went out for recess. surprisingly... somehow MRS GOH came to talk to me with some funny funny stuff bout kenneth. and im just wondering why everyones telling me bout him... weird. so shock la... and of course terribly disappointed due to him not keeping to his words... but somehow... he managed to convince me and that he regained my trust again. thats AMAZING. now that MRS GOH is using my name to threaten him when he pon class and that he also promise mr ang he will study hard... i shall not worry too much.. let the teachers handle.. haha.

after school. DNT!! woo. cool. i enjoyed the existence of marc though. but yupp. i will keep to my words. im no more of him. lala. but we played la. in the dnt room at the bench. had lotsa fun and crap. but all thanks to poornima there. or else he probably though im invisible. and maybe he cared la. he asked what happened yesterday at the strip heater. haha. oh well. then i just answered honestly.

after dnt. felt so much like going out with kumar somehow. missed him? wanted to catch up and have a good chat with him... but dont know. he seemed busy with yanlin. alright. better still. i dont wanna be her subsitute!!!! so biase. argh. whateva. bitch. HATE HER. lala. i can just announced to everyone here. even though she might not be reading. but she know that what. so nothing wrong even if someone tells her. tmr kumar ask me out. maybe i should just turn him down. LALA.

yoges, poornima and julian came to the playground near my house there. then we were talking all about yanlin. haha. so funny. i also dont know why. weird. and i just felt very sad, tired and hurt la. all of a sudden like last time. MUST BE MY PMS mood swing again. bloody shit. then we played at the playground. sigh. if only i have a boyfriend like yoges. i mean. IF. IF. IF. get it? haha. hes my GOR afterall. hes cute and nice. so innocent and sweet with poornima. but dumb poornima just dont know how to treasure him. then we take turns to play at the swing. then walk julian home. haha. stupid me. talked. lala. cool. finally. back to HOME SUCKS HOME. haha. i invented that.i hate being at home. locked up like a bird in the cage. boo. ):

i just wanna attend fridays nhps lantern festivle. does that mean that i havent let go of him? NO. certainly not. i know that. haha. wanna see him though. but what does that means? i wanna someone to fake my bf and go there and show off. haha. provided i get to see him. but it makes no difference la.

i tied my hair today!! haha. (:
i know im pretty right? OMG. self-comfort. its okay. bear with it man. sorry! heh

IPOD DIED.
DEPRESSING.

woo. just got home. supposedly go for tuition. dont know why end up my 30 bucks gone to a birthday present and yupp. because of this. i pon it. felt a little evil and stupid me when i cant already do well in bio. but i guess its worth it? for once la. or maybe twice already. lets hope i dont get it as a habit... and then spent my whole day folding some BIG and small cute colorful stars into the bottle simin helped me buy. interesting... but for a guy, can not?!! (:TMR IS THE DAY. haha. hope i didnt rmb wrongly which i dont think so... haha. we talked just now too?

well. i got to admit today is another sucky day for me... sigh. i was quite hyper as usual though. HOWEVER. things happen at this kinda boring and fine weather to make it memorable for me. God is great. haha. hmm...

off with getting back my average result of bio and geo. still unhappy bout that... and then D&T LESSON. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEwww. its disgusting.
HGFALHGJHAO;LSD#$%^&* HORRIBLE. rubbish.
is long story. im dumb. i apologise for that. i cant help it. i made the strip heater catch fire. sigh. so disappointing. cos i dont know how to operate it ALONE. when zhiyang and poornima PURPOSELY dont want to come? third time already. every group should have 3person*3hours=9hours of D&T work each time but somehow. i just missed the 6hours everytime. poor me. sad life. then kanna scolded abit by mr nelson ang, mr alfred goh, mr david goh and mr ng la. boo. ): oh ya. anw. at least i was the spotlight for once. everyone stared at me. and i thought i was to pay the exegerated sum of $20,000 for the old crappy german product. thanks to my tiny puny mini purple acrylic meant to do a flower. nobody helped me. and i burnt myself. ): well. its the instructions given to me by mr ng what. whyy. alemak. GUOYI WAS NEVER ABOUT D&T. gettit? haha. and err. i talked to marc quite alot today. cos we shared the same bench for 10mins afterall. wahaha.
but tell you guys one thing la. i think i should stop going crazy over him.
firstly, i gave up.
secondly, he doesnt really care or notice me. im just a nobody. he doesnt bother to say hi.
thirdly, i have got enough trouble. not anymore rumors and all that.
he's just cute and thats all why i think im obsessed over him. i mean, isnt that true? haha. okay. from now one, that's it. let him go his way. haha. no more of HI & BYES. aww. painful decision. HA-HA./

waa. how long have i not updated? zz.

anw. guess what. just realised its someone's birthday two days from now. so what should i do? i think he's someone quite important in my life but yet currently i feel a little angry at me. so i dont know what to buy or do... well. cant be bothered.

today school sucked as usual. thought i was a little hyper in the morning but sank into depression soon after. wonder why... probably is because of all my sucky results after all my efforts. its okay. let me keep my mind off these for now and get occupied. so what should i do?

uh huh. how bout singing song. there i go agaiN! (:


oh ya. and i havent finish my homework. ):

im sick. ): chest pain, cold, gastric. guess all caused by stress. sigh. poor me. ): just came back from tuition, or maybe counselling from ms toh. haha. so tired. still needa pratice maths, and do english and study. yawn. whyy... depressing man. currently talking to subhas. then looking at some bio also... multi tasking again. haha. i wanna play games with edmund! sad.

today theres stupid fire drill. that made english compre test to be postponed to tmr. evil mr poon. and then enjoyed PE a bit. hypered. haha. had a dumb chinese test which i cant finish and guess im going to fail agian. AHH. then got DnT. it was sian. as usual i was all alone la. like you know. irresponsible freaks. run away and play. ohh. whatever. thanks for letting me finish that big project myself. so helpless and all alone. pathetic. then took 33 with dave to NUS there. he suddenly like weird weird. haha.

im dying away. fading away.

its me again. muahaha. well. today was a memorable day i guess.

i cried early in the morning due to that same old friendship problem... and then it was in front of munyee... well. maybe i was right to meet myechit instead of him at the 196 stand. at least mye chit had got this funny little cute surprise out there. sweet of him! haha.

back in class. tuesday is just a tiring day. especially when today is the commencing of the tests of this week. yawns. had my bio test. its great! had some confidence. hehe. for once at least (:
then maths lesson was just as chaos. i walked out of class without pass! evil me. hmm. what else?
mother tongue sucked anw. poor mr. chua. pity him. ); i think zhiyang's gonna get it sooner or later. he dared to pon right straight in front of mr chua's face. got balls sia. haha. i wanna some guts to do something like that too! lol. -.-

NOW... THE MOST EXCITING PART OF MY DAY. other than the morning that really dampens my mood. i really had a good CRY, oops, i mean TEARS OF LAUGHTER this recess. cos im laughing with simin over our way of laughing. and not only this... something else is more than its marvellous, great, awesome, and all the crappy words you use to describe. haha.




guess what...







I TALKED TO MARC. lol.


that was a bit lame. but its okay. its fun anw. something worth commerating over for. haha. hes just cute okay. realyl cute. this is no joke. and i love the way he talks. haha. its like INCREDIBLE & AMAZING & MIRACLE & MAGICAL. out of nowhere when i dont expect him to pop out in front of me, OR MAYBE BEHIND, he appeared when i was helping munyee and simin to buy drink. sometimes things are jst irony, turning out the way it shouldnt be. and when you prayed hard for it, it dont come, but out of the blue, it comes, right? ya, anw. back to story. haha. i thought i saw him buying food some moment ago. and TELEPORT. DA-TA. hes right behind the queue after me, and i realised i was half a head shorter! ): i have got the shock of my life and... hestitated... and trembled HI in this acting hyper voice. lol. he actually bothered to rmb me and say hi back. wow. then i told the vendor i wanted 3 packets of lychee juice. and marc asked me if i could finish them all. i guess he was just finding something to say to me la. so i replied no and its for my friend. and he laughed, ordering another lychee juice for himself to0! aww. geez (: i think i will really rmb this scene very clearly somehow. ah!!!! uh-oh?

after school, d&t's cancelled, so stayed back a little while to copy bio and left to shop for some cheapskate clothes. AND DAVE GOH TOOK MY $$MONEY$$. and i didnt have any left to buy. argh. nvm. its okay. can guess the sale wont be over so soon. LALA. lets go again tmr.


BACK TO HOMEWORK FOR NOW. lol.
*stress*

hello guys! i got a new blog again. lol. and finally fixed this locking of my blog and putting password thingy before i go around telling ppl i trust anw to ensure same things wont happen agian like last time... how this skin? i make one! haha. joking. lala. currently im in a blur mind. crazy state of mind. seriously im feeling very dizzy... gonna black out soon. ): sick. cold.


I LIKE THIS SKIN!! (:

hello everyone! my new blog. (:

i love you. (: