花都开好了。

so loved.

as i woke up wondering how this year's valentine's day is gonna be, i received a huge bouquet of flowers. so thankful. love them to bits.

i know God has heard my prayers all these while. currently reaching out to two of my juniors from my course. i was elated beyond words when a friend from another church offered to start a prayer point and cell group in our faculty. i still remembered he was one of those i reached out to as a freshman... look at him now, all on fire and ready to rise up. :)

yes i am busy but that doesn't mean that i don't have time for people. i believe i am still capable of discipling the next generation. 

Desiree wanted to 'deconflict' these lives we are 'consolidating'. she wanted to take one of my junior... should i? something doesn't feel right... oh God, help. how should i do this? kingdom mentality

so glad that Liz has been keeping her commitment to meet me once a week. she has been pouring out her life to me. that was when i began hearing voices like...

"who are you to take this life under you? can you be accountable for her? what makes you think she wants to be your disciple? are you forcing her? more importantly... you're also going through so much on your own, you sure you are the best person for advice? 不要害别人。。。"

wow. as i begin writing all these down did i realize all those lies and deception are so real. its like poison in my head, my body, spirit and soul that its slowly eating me up without me noticing. and to counter all that...

Matthew 28 The Great Commission 16 Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go.17 When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18 Then Jesus came to them and said,“All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

i am a child of God and that is my identity. God has commissioned and i will go and do it. do i have to wait until i am perfect before i can have my own 12? no!! i don't force. its a choice they will have to make.

God my desire is to love you and honour you. i will learn and i will try... i may fail but You never do...
Your kingdom come, Your will be done.