i walk around all day with tears in my eyes. since my morning started being told no to go Sweden for exchange, a part of me died. maybe it aint so much of a bad thing... i'll just die to myself, die to the cross. this part of me is one that belongs to God should be surrendered to Him.
went back to cry myself to sleep. but God, i still choose to praise You. i sang worship songs and i am hanging on. telling me to give this up is so difficult... yeah, it showed me how much its my isaac. God, speak to me Yourself and convince me. I wanna hear from You!! is this not what You've intended for me?! if then indeed, i will obey...
in fact, i thought i am already coping very well... i just need to cry it out and be ok. i could have been much worse... like rebel and reject?
because Your love never fails. because i know that You love me. because You make all things work together for my good. because You're sovereign and You only have plans to prosper me and not to harm me. because its plans to give me a hope and a future. i WILL trust...
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