and today again during mrs cheong's english lessons, i stared into the air wondering what i have been doing for the past whole year again. come and go, i feel so betrayer and unloyal. they are those friends that are still there while im not. im treating them as granted and like as if they are nothing. i wish they could just hate me. sorry. im the hypocrite who always jump around and chooses my friends. i dont fit to be a good friend of anyones. cos one day, i might just do the same thing to them. im a selfish freak who only thinks of myself. dont learn from me!!

well, at least today i had fun doing ice cream. and it really sorta cheered me up, keeping my mind off many things. im aiming really far this time round. hope i wont get oo disappointed too. i really wanna do something good. and guess its also good that poornima is not in my group. sometimes i have got enough of her. lol. oh ya, something to you guys too. my new addiction after ice cream is... CHICKEN NUGGETS. muahah. i tell you what, i cant live through the day if i dont have nuggets for recess. (:

i tried to let go, but i couldnt.
maybe im still going to hold on for a while,
but it wont last long, cos i know i dont have the strength to.
i just cant bear to tell my mind, let him go.
i have too many doubts and buts bout letting you go.
im really sorrie.