training was rather fun today even though i dont admit that its a slacky and sloppy one. i enjoyed cos i was guiding the sec 1s all the way for somehow a reason or another you know that i dont get to play in B zone. let's nort talk bout it agian okay... gonna upset me only. haha. so yeah, SOOOOO many of them joined us and its like, im glad mr singh came down too! (:
guys, i guess you enjoyed more than i did yeah?! MWUAHHHH. (so much saliva. HEHE)

thankyou. thankyou very much. thankyou so much. i know you are there. i know that. and i really do. but i thought im being greedy. for wanting something mroe than that. its like, oh forget it, ignore what im thinking then. sorry. sigh. nvm, and you know what, i guess someone proved me wrong. she told me i was right when i said you have changed. oh well. did you? or was i the one? i dont know. the thing i know is im getting confused up. at time to time, i kept asking myself, is it worth it? do you care? sometimes i get the answer YES, while most of the other times a NO. so apparently, my poor and sick heart is telling me to give up since im getting tired of it. now i know how difficult it is to continue it, this friendship, that i never thought would turn sour. have you bothered reviving it? or drag on, letting it drift in the wide blue sea endlessly? you know, im in the wrong too. neither have i put in the effort, i guess.


& i prayed for the YOU i used to know to come back.
but nar, it's never gonna happen. what a comfort.