okay, im rather upset now after suddenly bringing up the topic of drifting from the clique. whoever is reading this from the clique and understands what im talking bout, then i just wanna apologise and say many many BIG sorries. i dont know whats been into me but things really are changing. im becoming so lousy, so loser, so sucky, giving up everything and that includes all my besties buddies... i hate it!! so guoyis giving up all these because of what? studies?! her parents?! but what did she get? regrets and regrets only. look, she's not even allowed to go church even if shes good staying at home. thats like, SO FREAKING UNFAIR!im so afraid... that i will just give up on stupid things like...
VIDYA?! NO, NEVER!! SURE BOUT THAT.
STUDIES?! I DO HOPE NOT...
LOVE?! probably... i dont know...
the friendship with you-know-who?! i think i already did...
oh whateva it is, i really dont know hwat to do. its like. gosh, everythings squeezing into my brain, poor me, gotta take one thing at a time... zz... help. DONT LET ME BE SUCIDAL AGAIN.
AND I SIMPLY DOESNT FIT TO BE IN THE FAMILY OF NTE. NO, IM NOT, GET IT?!