anyone wanna help me with a little gastric prob here? i dont know what's going on inside but yeahh, one thing i know, im getting pale becos of it. oh well, serve me right, i deserve this. im sinful. so would i be able to go school tmr? that would be a good question. i dont wanna miss any more classes okay! and i still got a ton of homework waiting for me behind! stop lying in bed, guoyi!


it has always been a good friendship. yes i know. i have always tried my best to treasure it. but did you? sometimes i doubt so. of course, i dont wanna compare the status between me and her or drag her into this story of ours. you got too many of your sis and i wonder if i make a difference too. i rmb how sweet it was when two of us can hang out around the malls and eat ice cream together. but have it happened again?
i thought, THAT DAY, ended everything. so tell me, have it? i know you know what im referring to. cos i just dont seem to forget a single detail of it. unless i have always been nothing to you, you would have forgotten it long long ago. at first, i thought we were drifting away, and i thought i was thinking too much. but then soon, time proved to me that everything was was just right. it just seemed impossible for you to handle everything so well. i guess i probably have been a burden to you, that's why i chose to leave and that i can also go for a new lifestyle. now here you are again, wanting me back, are you? are you selfish or am i the one, throwing away this perfect wonderful "friend", that is you? i said if time machine existed, i would choose not to know you from the start and not to change the way things are. that's because it has been a tiring experience.






& YOU made me so FUCKING CONFUSED up again cos only YOU can do it.

















but you know the truth? if i really have a time machine, i would rebuild this friendship cos it means to me more than anything else, be it to give up that long waiting love.