how bout six months? i havent really cried this badly for... six months? cos you were the one, who made me broke my record, made me break my promise and made me cry. youu, the culprit, what can i do to you to stop all these from happening? they are happening i know, but i hope it will come to an end soon.

do you know?
how many times a day i missed you, wondering if i took the wrong step. i tried to insist and comfort myself that i didnt, but apprarently, something tell me its totally wrong. somehow, regrets are filling in. you dont know the times i pressed your handphone number on my handphone, cos i wanted to say sorry, or even say hi. sometimes, i dont even know why but i just realised your number was on my handphone's screen. but still, i managed to self-control. and to press cancel the everytimes i almost dial.

and so i was so freaking distracted i left vid alone and i couldnt say anything to her. but hey vid, i do hope my presence there makes you feel better, alright? thanks for understanding. i certainly think that im making a fool outta myself out there whenever i wanna secretly look at you, to see how you are but turn my head off immediately when you catch my eye. that's plain stupidness. who can be as retarded as me? a girl who doesnt know what shes doing, yet she continues. maybe its not as bad as being like vid, at least everyone cares. HA-HA. then maybe i will catch your that little attention? MAYBE, I WISH.

hey guoyi, whats up with you? how can you just abandon your so called best friend and do things your way. you are being so selfish. but look, he cares. just that he didnt make it as obvious as before. and you are being too greedy. so can you stop it please please pretty please? so childish and naive. just wake up la. this is no longer a dream, its a nightmare now. cmon, you started it, just go back and undo it, and yeahh, thats it, everything will be alright. (AND I WANT TO UNDO IT IF I HAVE GOT A CHANCE.)


guess what? come to think of it, i think everything's too late. its my fault. theres no way its coming back, even though im still patiently waiting for time to go back on its own...