hmmm, finally get to blog! been talking for a freaking hour with my friends online, especially timothy and zoea! (: hmm, rather disappointed when ms tan told me she wont be registering my name down for the B division in softball team. LOOK, NOT EVEN A RESERVED, TOTALLY DONT GET TO PLAY AT ALL. gosh, can you imagine how i feel? that's like, almost hell i guess? cmon la, its my dreammmmmm lorr. and the thing is, ITS NOT BECOS OF MY INJURY ON MY LEG. but studies. AEM. wonderful. regrets taking it. argh. what to do, i cant seem to back out now. its so tiring. think, staying back everyday for rubbish and then going home late at night to study for tests and doing homework. what is this life? repeating and repeating. oh well, but nar, im not giving up! cos timothy and munyee's there to push me. guys, buck up too! im here to catch your when your fall. and timothy, LET'S GO NJ TOGETHER YEAH?! our common goal to look up to. let me tell munyee bout it too! gotta to rush back to study but let me make somethings clear la.

i thought my heart is really vaccant now. for i have really let go the past. my heart's as empty as my piggybank. HAHA. (NOW THAT WAS A JOKE.) and i dont knwo who's gonna fill it up. i gotta feeling something's coming back. and yet he doesnt know. he might be reading, but yet he doesnt understand. but so what? its not the time. we need to be good students. we will still be the best of friends like we always have been. lately, i have been stress. other than munyee, i dont seem to find a person comfortable to talk to. its like, here my solving others problems, acting like a cheerful girl who cares for everyone, but there inside, im a depressed kid who's struggling with my parents and HIM. i dont know how to deal with it, & i really dont know how.


help me-
& i really want you to know that i like you.